Unsent Messages

here i go writing on this site, because i have no one else to talk to about you, because everyone thinks that its probably stupid what i feel about you. yeah, maybe they are right, we never met and we were just talking online..but you made me feel things ive never felt with anyone before. you messaged when i was in one of the lowest points in my life and as we started talking and getting to know each other better, you made me feel like that maybe im actually worth something. that maybe im not just a worthless piece of shit, that im actually worth something, that you care about everything i have to say because you always made me feel like that and with this feeling i got completely comfortable with you. you always reassured me when i needed it that im not annoying, im not being a burden and i can talk to you about anything. and now... i dont have any of that and i miss it so fucking much. i miss how you always told me how amazing i was, because i never told you but you made me feel better about myself, i started believing you that yeah,maybe hes right, maybe im not that horrible as my brain is telling me. i miss how we talked about the things we are going to do when we meet, how we will never let go of each other, how we will always make sure the other knows that they are important to us, how we want to make each other happy.. i miss all those things so fucking much and the saddest thing about this? its that, i know that i will never have that again, you have her and i can surely say that shes the luckiest person on this earth for having someone so wonderful like you. i dont know why im still hoping, when i know that "we" will never happen. i think that i will never meet anyone like you, you made me feel something ive never felt, you made me feel safe and comfortable around you. you felt like home :) and now i feel like im homeless.