I don’t understand what you want from me.. do you like me as just a friend? do you think of us as more? do i keep trying or do I just stop trying so hard. you’re probably the most confusing boy I have ever encountered. please give me something to work with.

Why'd you leave me when I needed you the most. We could of talked about our problems together but you just decided to leave me on read. I don't love you the way I used to anymore, but I still miss your company, even though your ''what ifs' annoyed the shit out of me. I hope things go well you for you and I hope one day you see the light in your world like how you showed me it at some point :)

You were the first boy I trusted after getting assaulted by my uncle. If you had told me that you didn’t have feelings for me I would’ve been fine but instead you said that you wanted to get rid of the feelings that you had for me and that hurt. Yet you will always hold a special place in my heart

i love every moment with you,it hurts that you never understood how much i fought for you,you decidedto leave me for someone who did not feel even half of what i felt,i thought i would forget it but my love for you is another level. i wish him well...with love panda

i love every moment with you,it hurts that you never understood how much i fought for you,you decidedto leave me for someone who did not feel even half of what i felt,i thought i would forget it but my love for you is another level. i wish him well...with love panda

I'll never know if you ever loved me or if I was being used. but when you looked into my eyes man. I was yours

I’m sorry that I hurt you. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Maybe one day we’ll be together again.

my first love. the one person who could make me smile no matter what. you knew exactly how to break me.

i wish things worked out better. that you and i were against the world yet with each other. but the toxic vibes fuming around us pulled you and i apart. wish you the best in life. i love you

We have barely even spoken before but i love you. Your personality, your everything. I just want to be there for you. If i i ever saw tears falling from your pretty blue eyes, i would cry too. You are perfect, you really are. I love you, but you dont feel the same.

hey, I know we’re not close anymore, but I still love you so much. It sucks, and I want my best friend back. I tried to distance myself from you because I knew I couldn’t deny my feelings anymore. And I thought I’d gotten over you. But I guess I didn’t, because when I finally started having normal conversations with you again because I realized how much I needed you in my life, it all came flooding back to me. The cold nights we’d sit outside talking about everything and anything, the late night texts about tv shows, me hopelessly pining over you. And I realized that I couldn’t do it anymore, I want you back in my life, but I’m nervous, nervous about what you’d say, what other people would say, how I’d feel. But in the end, I just want to say I love you and I just want my best friend back. I miss you so much.

I know we said to stay as friends so we'd keep our friendship. But i kinda want something more than that. But u probably don't see me that way...

i know this is dumb because you probably haven’t given me a thought in the past two years, but i really miss you. I miss your smile so much. i still cry about the way things ended. i think it was maybe just bad timing and we were young and still are. To be honest, you probably don’t even think this seriously about me, but i do, and that’s what hurts. Sometimes i think maybe i just miss the way you made me feel but no. I just want to see you. if the universe aligns maybe we will have what we once did.

I hope you know I still care so much and that I want you to keep fighting. I'm sorry I can't help you anymore, but I want you to know I still care.

this is the last message i plan on writing for you. ever. i understand my words were harsh, but i knew that if i wasn’t blunt you wouldn’t understand the sincerity of them. i loved you, i truly did. but the night you told me that i was pretty much just the girl you came back to because you knew you could, i felt that love disappear in an instant. i guess i finally reached my limit, i finally realized that what we had wasn’t love. it never was. love is patient and kind. not fueled by animosity and pettiness. and when i say this, i mean it. i hope you find the girl you want oh so badly. i do. because while you’re chasing her, i’m gonna figure out my life. i never told you, but for the last 3 months i’ve planned on moving to montreal once i graduate. i wanted to attend McGill and major in forensic anthropology. i knew i could never tell you that though. because you have to stay here. in the states. and that’s okay. i hope that you find your way out, find a girl you actually can value and learn to love, and i hope i never hear from you again. i learned that you’re only sorry when something is heavy on your conscience. but you were never sorry for all of the times you actually hurt me. i’m finally getting the emotional support i need, i’m catching up on school, and i’ve already started saving up for my tuition. i finally get to leave. i get to leave you in the states, and be the person i’ve always wanted to be. you were my first boyfriend, and i don’t regret that. but i do regret how long i stayed around just to be beaten down. i finally realized my worth. i am worth so much more than being called “easy”, a “whore” and a “liar”. but it’s in the past. and so are you. and i hope i never have to speak to you again, hear your voice again, or listen to your sad attempts of belittling me any longer. i looked up to you for such a long time, but i now realize you’re just...miserable, and i couldn’t help you. i was never able to help you. but like i said, from this point forward i get to experience the great perhaps that is MY life. i’m not gonna wait for you anymore. i’m gonna live the life i’ve been missing out on. i’ll find TRUE love. go to my first real party, kiss someone in the rain, graduate, go to valas with new friends. and i’ll leave you here. in the back of my memory. and in the catacombs of this website. i once loved you, i did. but now, i don’t even know if i’m capable of even remotely caring for the memory of you. you simply just existed in my life at one point. but, i think it’s time i put my phone down now. i might go read my favorite book, reorganize my room again, do anything to remind myself that i control my life. not you. i’m finally free to live my life the way i’ve always wanted to. without feeling guilty or worrying about what you would think. because i now know you would never do the same for me. you’re just...not the right person for me. you were simply a learning experience. and that’s all you’ll ever be. i hope you don’t read this. ever. and if you do. well...goodbye isaac.

i would hate you if i could. it would make this a lot easier. how could you hurt me so many times? you broke me but i would still drop anything for you if you needed me

I really dont understand what happened between us. as quickly as you came into my life you left. and for what reason? I just want to know what it was, because I know we has chemistry, I know there was something more there, a connection like no other, you even said it yourself. Yet a month after you left you got a girlfriend. In such little time, am I that easy to replace. Like please tell me I am not romanticizing what we had.

I wish that the timing was better, we were too young for it to ever work because neither of us knew who we were.

No se lo que fuiste . Pero me obsesionaste tanto. Que cambiaron muchas cosas en mi vida por tu culpa . Deje tantas cosas por ti . Y tu no me diste absolutamente nada . Cuando decias que me querias . Lo decias enserio ?

i met you in grade 2 and 3. we became best friends in grade 4 and wed always hang out. so fun. im in love with you lol

Saben... la vida nunca es como quieres, yo sé mucho de eso, me enamoré de mi mejor amigo, lo cual era muy bueno para mi, ya que me trataba muy bonito y... enserio yo creía que en verdad le gustaba, hasta que un día nose de donde rayos agarre los huevos para dejarle en claro lo que yo sentía por el, como de costumbre el me rechazo, por que se supone que éramos mejores amigos y no quería que nada cambiara.
Al día siguiente mi mejor amiga me preguntó que había pasado y le contó todo, dijo que el estaba apunto de decirme que si pero... nuestra amistad era más fuerte, meses después yo seguía intentando superarlo pero... simplemente no pude.
La amiga que le pregunto le empezó a hablar más y un día mi mejor amigo se me hacer y me dijo:puedo contarte algo?
Y yo de *si*
Yo estaba muy emocionado (lo primero que se me ocurrió fue: lo logré, al fin logre que se enamorar de mi, pero eso no pasa en la vida Real, solo era para decirme que se enamoró de mi mejor amiga), enserio fue lo más doloroso que escuche; pero luego me calme y dije: pff ella NUNCA me haría eso
Y que creen...como una semana después se empezaron a hacer MUCHO más cercanos y hay seme destruyó el corazón, estuve enojado con el lado como por 1 mes y al final yo de pendejo la termine perdonando.
Hoy en día ya no me hablo con esa zorra, mi mejor amigo sigue siendo el (aunque no creo que por mucho tiempo mas), aveces siento que si le gusto, por que se volvió como más sentimental por así decirlo y pues espero encontrar una pareja pronto.
Ahhh y otra cosa, me contó que se va a ir a Canadá y el sabe que me encanta Canadá, entonces me prometió que cuando el gane su dinero me va a llevar a vivir allá (con el), osea eso es re homo (no les voy a negar que me encanto eso).

i thought i had already found my first love before you but clearly not, life feels as though it won’t go on without you

I miss you. U blocked me out of nowhere and i'm really starting to miss you. I get really sad at night and it lasts for hours and ur all i think about now. i have a feeling you aren't coming back this time. but ur always in and out of my life. but ik i'm gonna see u again towards the end of the year. I might be over u by then but idk. I know i said that i only used u but i only said that bc i thought u blocked me that night we first had sex, but i'm deeply in love with you. i think about all the times we hung out and there is no way u don't think of me. I prolly pop up in your mind every once an awhile, u may not care, but just know i will always be waiting for u. An if u don't come back by the time i see u again i'm done. Ur the dude i will always have some type of feelings for...no matter what.

It's hard that you're the first person i ever loved and you never knew. Too scared to ruin our friendship i guess

Im so happy I fell in love with you, all I want is to feel ur sweet hugs rn and give you a kiss on the forehead . you mean the world to me :0

i hate you i hate you so much for not loving me as much as i loved you. and i hate you even more for not caring when i stopped talking to you.

I wish I could have been what you wanted. I think I’ll love you forever. It’s okay that you don’t feel the same.

you literally were the worst type of person. don’t play with anyone else like you did with me. you hurt me.

Dude i don’t know what it is but i hate that i love you , and no matter what i can’t not love you , your name is in my head 24/7 , i always think about you no matter what , there is no guy , no matter how hot or how amazing they are, THEY ARENT YOU.
and no matter what i always say ur name, i always end up thinking about you kid, i don’t know what to do because even if i hate you , your name comes across my mind all the time no matter what , i can’t get you out of my mind, even if i’m talking to another guy or i’m interested in some other guy , your always above them, your always in my thoughts more then they are, when we stop texting i think about you so much and when you text me , i always text you back, even if i’ve told myself i hate you , i always come back to you, cuz it’s impossible for me to hate you , and i hate that i love you issac

i love you, i dont ever want to lose you. i know things are tough rn but i love you so much and i miss you so much.

Why did you say you had feelings for me? You played me like a fiddle. Why wasn't I enough for you? Please treat her good. Don't cheat on anyone else. I love you always will you're my first love but I will love myself more now

Why did you only use me when you were bored? How could you have been so fake? I thought you were my 1 in 7billion. How.
surfs on

I’m trying to let you go, but the things I did for you haunt me. Why did you take advantage of me, I was so young.

maybe you hate me and that’s fine if you do, I deserve it. You deserve all the love in the world and I hope some day you find someone better. You are the sweetest boy I’ve ever met, I hope the one for you gives you all the kisses on your cheek and holds your hand whenever you’re sad. I hope she loves you more than anyone on this planet and that she treats you better than I did. I’m sorry for hurting you. I know you’ve moved on but I’ll always love you, even though you don’t love me. Goodbye my love, maybe in another life.
- your little bean burrito

I miss you. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about you, but you don’t care. You never did. I will always be here for you though. If you ever need me, I’m one text away.

you deserved so much better. im sorry if i hurt you just because i was hurting and didnt know what to do. you deserve the world- you are so talented and gentle and kind and a man of god. to see you do such amazing things makes my heart hurt. thank you for making me realize i needed to sort myself out. i cant listen to easy life without thinking of you.

i ruined my sleep schedule just to stay up till 6am waiting for you to text me...but you never did...i hope im not a stranger.

I know you will hate me now but you will always be the final name I say... I loved you, but not in that way.

one day you’ll realise that i was always there for you no matter what you did, and you still chose someone else.

I see the way you look at me, but I know that we are too scared to say that we are in love with each other due to peer pressure . xxx

You confused me. You made me think what we had was love. But in reality your feelings for me were lustful and you used me to fulfill your sexual desires.

It’s almost like you’re still here. I still smell you on my pillow, feel your hand on my cheek, and still remember what it was like when we were in love

Saber que no me volverás a ver con los mismos ojos, y saber que sientes lo mismo que yo, sólo rompe mi corazón, te extraño, y espero que en algún futuro nos podamos ver cómo lo haciamos antes, que nos podamos abrazar como lo hacíamos, y saber que era lo que más anhelabamos, te extraño

Solo te quiero decir que aunque nunca me hiciste caso yo nunca te deje de amar y fuiste mi primer amor y enserio nunca ame tanto a alguien excepto por que me contaron que anduviste hablando mal de mi

i love you..i really do..but not like how i used to. i’ve just gotten so used to the broken promises and hearing you say you love me then tell me you need to focus on yourself that i just don’t really care anymore..i care about you..but not your affection, not your words, not your kisses...you could never love me the way i loved you. i just think it’s time i realize that you cant change. i’ve waited since February for you to change. to show me you care..but you just...can’t. i think it’s time i go. my love for you is unconditional. but i think it’s time i unconditionally love the memory of you..

The way I try to convince myself I’m over you and that it was just a stupid middle school crush but I always find myself daydreaming about things I wish I could be doing with you but idk our personalities just don’t match and it’s so frustrating and I hate myself for being so extroverted in comparison to you but I guess I’m grateful for the occasional late night calls however they always end so abruptly and I hate the way I converse w you it’s infuriating i wish I could appeal to you more it’s so embarrassing.

i cant stand you at all. idk why i ever liked you. its a chore to look at you and i never want to see you again.

will always have a place in my heart on the other side of the world. maybe one day we can talk again. the first boy i liked. yes i had feeings for you after like a week HAHA. you made me the happiest i had ever been in a long time. t

it’ll always be you, no matter what.
There’s no way we could ever be together though and it breaks my heart.
To the girl who ends up with him, treat him with so much respect, he deserves the world.

we must have been in love in another lifetime because the connection we had was unmatched by anything I have ever had