and yet despite all my anger and hurt, I still wish you could hold me till the world becomes less scary.

but you can’t.

i don’t even have the words.

i was in love with you for like 3 years and sometimes i still think about it. if you said you liked me right now, i might actually say i like you too. but we're such good friends that id probably just laugh at you. thanks for being there for me :)

I couldn’t be your go-to anymore and I couldn’t let you be mine. It was killing me. I hope you are happy in your solitude or that you’ve found someone worthy of disrupting it.

I never wanted a life in the suburbs with kids until I met you. It didn’t seem so bad when I thought about you and I.

I almost called you twice yesterday. I saw your car on campus and cried in mine for a little, and just wanted a hug. I kind of regret not calling.

but it’s not fair if I do.

i’m not doing so good. idk. idk if it gets better ever.

I wish we talked more. You being the age I thought you were at first would've been better but I'll take what i can i guess. Too bad we're both socially awkward fucks lmao.

I LIKED YOU FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT I DIDNT WANT TO RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAVE ON A RELATIONSHIP THAT WOULD MOST LIKELY END.

Hey ! can we please go back to last christmas, where we were both in love and we acted like we were the only ones in this world. Because i really miss that, when you make me feel something. it was nice.

it’s getting so hard being here without you. i want to know what made you leave, what made you leave me here all alone. i hope you’re looking down on me, and i hope you’re proud. you made me feel a love indescribable, unable to be contained. you brought me out of the darkness, you made me smile, you made me want to live. and in your death, you brought me some pretty great people who’ve taught me how to grieve and find joy again. thank you for being the beautiful soul that you are, and eternally will be. i love you to no end, sweet boy.

i forgot your birthday lol. i guess you were right, i really never did care, and im glad thats the case.

If only you could understand why I'm so angry with you, then you'd see what you've lost. I would have done everything for you, and yet you decided to stop loving and giving just for inconvenience of having to acknowledge my existence once a day. I've realized my self worth, so I was able to get over the heartbreak you caused so easily. I realized I stopped loving you when you stopped putting in; five months into our almost one year relationship. Breaking up with me by text hurts, yeah, but you were so secretive that I still can't believe you when you said you never cheated on me with your co worker. I hope you're happy with yourself. Even with all the shit you've done to me, I hope you grow into a man instead of a boy who hides behind his screen; and whoever you end up with, I hope you treat them better than you ever treated me.

This is the color of the hoodie I gave you! I love you so much, you never did anything wrong. I'm so sorry we are in this situation, but I think we will always find our way back to each other, especially once things change. For now, please forgive me for the decision I made.

ha ha its funny to think you were my first "love" we were never anything I never wanted anything more until I felt not having anything at all

you helped me feel everything and for that i am grateful.

but i think whether it was intentional or not, you made it clear that i fell short in so many ways. i'm tired of feeling insufficient.

i still love you, but i want to get to feel like a whole person, who's actually worth something.

So turns out I am a lesbian. That makes our relationship makes more sense, still fuck you. You crushed my ability to love and now I am a black hole

every night i look up at the stars and tell them how much i miss you and that i hope you’re doing okay

Why don't you love me anymore when all I do is love you! This is the color of the rose I gave you on our first date. I hate pink

I'm sorry I lied, I was stupid for doing that. I was too scared to tell you the truth because I don't wanna hurt you but what I was doing is hurting you. You are my best friend, I've never had a person like you before. You're different and important to me. I love you with all of my heart and I want you to be happy. When you were sad, I wanna be the one that always be right there for you. I think this is the time. I need to leave and I'm ready for that. Nothing lasts forever, remember that? You told me that when our group friendship drifted away. At the end of the day, you were still the one for me and stay by my side. You are gonna be alone now, all the memories we had will still stay in my body forever but the memories that we planned and wanted is gone. I'm sorry i broke our promises. I can't stay forever and it's time. I love you ian. I will always remember you. I'm sorry.

we were young and I was immature but for what its worth.. for what I thought love was, I felt it for you

Creo que podríamos tener algo muy bonito, pero me dijiste que te gusta ella primero, y también le gustas

I miss laying on your chest and watching futurama. Despite everything, you are the still person who occupies my thoughts the most.

Your skates are cut flat bottom V. I remember the smallest things about you, but what do you remember about me?

I wish you knew how much you hurt me. And I hope nobody ever does to you what you did to me because I know deep down your a good guy you just lost him along the way?❤️

you were the first person to make me feel the colors, i love you and you'll always be my favorite song. i miss you.

I wish I could still lay on top of you and listen to your heartbeat. Even though you don’t feel the same

I love you, I’ll never stop you were my first everything but it breaks me because you stopped loving me

you’ve put scars on me. I will never love or trust the same. but I would never trade a minute of our time together. forever will love you... just not in that way anymore.

Feels like every time I'm close to finding someone to make me happy, u pop up. I've always thought ab us being a thing, but you'll always love urself more than anyone else. We have good talks tho. Give B a chance? Maybe ur right ab the outcome but its worth a shot

i really really loved you. more than I’ve ever loved in my entire life. I tried my hardest for you and did what I could to give you the world. I just didn’t know that the only reason I loved you that much was bc of the safety and security you provided me. I loved you bc nobody loved me. now we’re both alone and more miserable than before. It wasn’t worth it to just be your stranger. I still hope you’re doing fine and that you’ve eaten and drank today. i wonder if you even remember me

You left me because you thought I didn’t love you but I loved more than I ever loved anyone and that scared me .

i would’ve done everything for you. i told you i’d be here despite your past, i shouldn’t be, but i am. remember that.

i hope you're doing really well and are as happy as ever, i'm so glad things are going well for you. all you deserve is everything to go well.

I still love you. I have no idea if you do or ever did. You wanted to be good friends.
So where are you?

it can say we've managed to have the smoothest end to our relationship. there's not a thing i regret from start to end. what scares me now is that although i don't love you that way anymore, this numbness disables me to love anymore.

I would’ve given you the world. I was falling in love with you, while you were still in love with her.

ive spent so much time trying to figure out if there was anything real ever between us, i still dont know. either way i hope youre happy with her. even though i miss you so fucking much. and if i could do it all again i would, always. goodbye
-m
p.s. i learned how to spell oxygen

Mierda, diría que quiero que mueras después de todo lo que me hiciste, pero no, te deseo algo peor, ojalá y te vuelvas inmoral, para que sufras viendo como cada persona que te importa muere, mientras que tú sigues solo.

I hate myself for getting close to you when I know you weren’t over her. I hate that I care about you so much but you can’t be bothered to even reply to me. I hate that all I can do is wait and hope that you will come back to me.

I could see you falling out of love with me, but I still pursued it and I hoped I could change your mind. I guess I’m the idiot now.

I’m sorry for how we ended, you’re so smart and amazing at everything you do. I know you’ll make it big.

“i wish she could be like you”, then when you opened your fucking eyes and saw me in front of you why did u still pick her?

i wanna show you how short i cut my hair, so you can ask me whats wrong, and we can talk like we used to

it took you four days to find somebody new... im starting to wonder if she was actually new or if she had you the whole time

You're so confusing, but I like you so much. I need to know if you like me. If you don't it will hurt, but I need to move on.

I think about u and how u hurt me almost everyday. I miss u alot and if by some crazy chance ur seeing this please text me

love ashley

I need to get over you

i like you, i like you so much.. if i could, i'd give you my entire heart. it would only be yours..

I still love you, I promise. nothing happened in the way i wanted. i pray u come back & do it right.

Why dude?

i know we are just friends now but i am in love with you and have been since ive known u existed