Unsent messages to ELIJAH
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 7, 2021, 5:42 am UTC
our entire friendship i was so confused on what you wanted out of it. i regret not telling you how much i liked you. i guess i’ll never know if you felt the same. i wish you the best :(
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 6, 2021, 8:10 pm UTC
You were my first kiss, and when I pulled back I felt like the universe had opened itself to me. There were stars in my heart, and they died when you left.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 6, 2021, 5:41 pm UTC
No matter how many times you hurt me & no matter how much you put me through. You're my best friend and my family & I'll always be here for you.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 3, 2021, 8:53 pm UTC
The worst part is it was never your fault. You had to do it and I had to support you. And it hurts like hell. I miss you and I miss us. Walking today, the relief overwhelmed me. The relief that i can be friends and we can get on and I don’t have to lose those months of friendship. But it’ll never feel the same. The electric shock through my heart and my giddy joy when I was with you. But I know this is how it’s meant to be. For heavens sake it wasn’t even a proper relationship. But you scared off the vultures. I love that i can still be around you and I love you as a friend. And in my heart now I’ve accepted that. I never was in love with you. But God I miss you.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 3, 2021, 7:48 am UTC
Average life expectancy for a meth user, ovbi not long. How are you still here. Ps how’s Tyson? He looks like a smashed in avocado just like u xxxo
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 3, 2021, 6:51 am UTC
I wonder how many times you fucked my ass then went and shoved that shit down her throat, that is so adorable. You always come back to me even when I don’t want you too. ??
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 2, 2021, 8:28 am UTC
Bitch. I really thought we were gonna date LMAO. i gave u money and cherished u. i hope u and ur ugly ass gf break up u whore. i pray that u stub ur toe and step on lrgos everyday. whore bitch give my shit back
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: January 1, 2021, 4:05 am UTC
hey bubba, i don't think you'll ever see this. i miss you so much. i wish i could tell you that i'll wait for you. it's supposed to be always and forever, right? i just miss your voice and how you called me your babydoll.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 31, 2020, 1:59 am UTC
Actually wait I am a liar, all I really want is for you to fucking die I really don wanna see your ugly meth mutt face anymore ??
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 31, 2020, 1:57 am UTC
You can stop writing in gramps name, stop literal stealing my sentences and move the fuck on, thank you that is ALL I ask ??
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 31, 2020, 1:32 am UTC
Oh god moron please don’t fucking breed
It’ll just be another tragic fantasy of yours that will end in ruins so so sad
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 30, 2020, 12:40 am UTC
I'm done chasing. If you really love me, prove it. If you only want me around to not feel alone, leave me be.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 28, 2020, 8:22 am UTC
I miss you and I hope you’re doing okay. That’s all. When you said you didn’t think anyone could love you I should have told you that’s not true because I do. But it’s too late now and the sun has set on whatever we had so here’s to hoping it’ll work out in another lifetime.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 24, 2020, 7:44 am UTC
Holy fuck why are you still alive I thought I cursed you to death in fucking two thousand and sixteen.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 24, 2020, 5:06 am UTC
You hurt me so bad but made me so happy. You taught me I could love and that I deserved it. I’m so empty w/o u.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 24, 2020, 5:05 am UTC
You hurt me so bad but made me so happy. You taught me I could love and that I deserved it. I’m so empty w/o u.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 21, 2020, 3:40 am UTC
you were one of the funniest people i had met online but that mask was just to cover up that you couldnt handle your issues so you projected them onto me.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 16, 2020, 3:36 pm UTC
You tell me to do my own thing and do me.. but then you ask me to lay in bed with you everytime I see you.. I’m confused.. I want you
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 14, 2020, 12:55 pm UTC
Purple like those plastic handcuffs and the six inch that I used to shove up your arse. Can she do it any better? Doubt it, all the fucking cunt does is cry. ? pity
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 14, 2020, 11:46 am UTC
I’ll be sure to send you a video with that fat dick down my throat like V. I know you’d like that, my little cluck. #toxic
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 13, 2020, 10:03 am UTC
i never catch feelings, and i did for you. i wish you would’ve told your bsf about us so we could be together.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 13, 2020, 2:23 am UTC
you were my first love. thank you so much for teaching me everything i need to know. i hope you're well.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:53 am UTC
It’s been a long time since I thought about you. It doesn’t hurt anymore. I have learned to let go. But just know when your ready to come back my love I will be here. But I know that will never happen. Just know that I will always love you. But it’s time for me to move on. You deserve her. I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 10, 2020, 10:39 pm UTC
I miss you sometimes. I miss your kisses and the way you held me. Sometimes I wonder if you would ever take me back. But then, you open your mouth and I remember why I ended things in the first place. I hope you're happy with her
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 10, 2020, 4:09 pm UTC
Wish I had of said it sooner. Sorry for ruining the only good relationship you had. Even though you were the one that stuck your dick in her while she was unconscious. Fuck me daddy I bet she said that while you undoubtedly touched her all over. Then came back to me because I’ll never leave my pretty boy. I like how you use the same method on relationships because of that I’ve been able to pick up on what you are reapplying to the list of not to forget when we’re on our break. I don’t love you but I won’t say that. I’ll just let you believe that while I stare with a broken look in my eyes. Don’t leave me though.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 8, 2020, 9:37 pm UTC
you aren’t my first. but I don’t wanna fw anyone but you. mines? you have no idea how much you’ve already done for me
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 8, 2020, 4:49 pm UTC
I miss you but I can't admit it. not after the pain you put me through. the pain all your friends put me through and you just sat there watched me suffer. you watched me drown and didn't help me come back up for air. I will always despise you for that. I wasn't mad you didn't say those three little words back I was mad because you stopped talking to me after. like I was nothing
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 7, 2020, 8:16 pm UTC
I hate that you’re gonna miss out on the last few days of this house, but our new house is always gonna have space for you bro
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 6, 2020, 5:18 pm UTC
You used me and I was always your second choice . I dropped you because I needed to.You’re so toxic and I hate you
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 5, 2020, 5:28 am UTC
I know it seems like I'm forgetting about you, but I swear I'm not. I just need to move on bc you have. None of these guys will ever be you. Love you always.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 3, 2020, 12:04 pm UTC
I wish I didn't respond to you a few weeks ago. I regret even texting you this week too. You don't say anything back to me anymore. It's like talking to a damn wall, where I just listen to my own voice bounce against it to emphasize how quiet it really is. Just be real with me Eli. I'm so damn tired. I just wish I could have my friend back and have a good talk with him like before. Please, just one last time.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: December 2, 2020, 2:44 am UTC
You took advantage of me in ways that have damaged me for life but i want to thank you for everything you did because it made me the great person i am today.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 30, 2020, 8:44 pm UTC
How many times am I going to fuck up my own name?? Even though I'm sure youre not writing back I still get scared when I see "C". Surely you would use "A" tho. Love you always,
A
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:08 am UTC
I keep checking this hoping maybe you've seen mine or said something about me. I'm starting to realize how silly of me that is.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 22, 2020, 6:43 pm UTC
lol i loved you. if u didnt like me, why couldnt u just say so? why did u have to play w my feelings. i still havent gotten over you since fourth grade. you hurt me sm, more than words can explain. i hated seeing you with her. why couldnt u have chosen me? what did she have that i didnt? ive been waiting years for you to choose me. ik it will never happen so im trying to move on. ig our friendship is more important right?
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 21, 2020, 7:43 am UTC
Caving in and texting you after a month of not even talking is probably the worst idea I've ever had. Feels like shit but some part of me hopes you'll say something back, but the other side doesn't want to hear from you. Maybe it all is like this for a reason, Eli. It's so damn hard though, I swear. It'll all be how it'll be eventually. Hope you're doing better.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 20, 2020, 8:05 am UTC
Hope you're doing well. Still too busy to send a text? I guess so and I'm fine with that. The holidays are coming up, so I hope you have a place and people to hang with up there. Stay safe and all that.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:51 am UTC
it’s bad two years later i still have a feeling for you. you told me to wait. the pain hurt too much. i’m not the same person i was when you met me. i’m a lot better now. you’d be lucky to have me. i forgot what you looked like. what your voice sounded like. i miss you, but i don’t miss the pain.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 19, 2020, 5:01 pm UTC
I wish you were different. I wasn't ready to end things, but you wern't ready to change. You are my yellow.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 19, 2020, 6:06 am UTC
i think i might love you. i know everything about you, i remember everything youve told, its crazy how in love you can be with a person and them not love you back. i first noticed you in 6th grade but you liked her and i wanted you, but you wanted her.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 9:09 pm UTC
you weren't necessarily my first love, but definitely the one that left a big impact on me. I miss you more than anything, and I wish your mental health didn't get as bad as it did. I love you forever n always. Thank you for everything
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 6:53 pm UTC
You fucking broke me and manipulated me and now I can't enjoy the relationship I'm in because you ruined me
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:55 pm UTC
is there not more to me than my ethnicity? you can't sit there and deny you didn't feel something as well.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:45 pm UTC
you broke me so bad that i cannot love another boy. i hate you so much, you manipulated me into thinking that you actually loved me, but in reality you never did. you cheated on me with my ex best friend who you promised you would never go back to. you ruined my mental health, you gave me abandonment issues, and you hurt me so bad in my heart that i cannot put my effort into loving someone again. i hate you.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 12:46 pm UTC
youre a fucking dumbass, and we were in the 8th grade. pull your diaper up and stop being mad at me that YOU were a bad bf. fuck you
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 12:16 pm UTC
it's crazy to think how all of this started was because of a single goodnight text. I love you, and texting you goodnight was the best decision i ever made. I just want to hold you in my arms again.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 8:34 am UTC
Our talks have always been my favorite. You mean more to me than you´ll ever know. Thank you for being one of the few people I can trust.
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 6:57 am UTC
i cant wait for the day i lay on your chest and all my problems fade away. i can get stuck in ur eyes forever. i could hug you for all eternit. im madly in love with you
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 6:52 am UTC
im so in love with you its crazy how u dont even realize it. everything you do makes me smile. i love you. you always make me smile no matter what. i cant ever stay mad at you. i know you may not feel the same way and thats okay. i hope u have a wonderful day
From: ABC
To: Elijah
Date: November 18, 2020, 3:20 am UTC
I wish I could tell you how I actaully feel but i can’t because it’ll ruin what we have and how you see me you won’t like me anymore and you won’t even talk to me anymore I know I messed everything up
