Unsent messages to DEREK
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 2, 2021, 12:33 pm UTC
we started off as fooling around, you were attached to me. wanting to become more than friends. i was hesitant, you wanted things i wasn’t ready for— things that remind me of my childhood trauma. yet you took it as rejection and started fucking my ex best friend. maybe it was my fault— maybe i should’ve tried more, lend you a hand, kissed you one more time and promised everything to be okay. but no it’s gone, all of it... did you even like me— did you care about me, or was another girl you wanted to fuck?? that night before things ended you called me the most beautiful person in the world... then the next day you started dating her. what happened to us?
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 1, 2021, 7:45 pm UTC
You was the thing that make me smile when I woke up, now I see you and I'm so worried about my feelings beacause now, I don't feel anything for you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 1, 2021, 1:13 am UTC
i hate the fact that you were the first person i felt truly comfortable with. i can't believe i let myself fall for you just to get played in return - and even more, i hate the fact that i'd be willing to try again. fuck you
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 31, 2020, 2:31 am UTC
One more late night drive, one more trip to FL, one more "I love you" . . . Oh what I'd do for just one more
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 27, 2020, 11:28 pm UTC
i love you i love you. here is the church and here is the steeple we sure are cute for two ugly people.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 23, 2020, 7:57 am UTC
I miss you so much. I hope you know, you were the only reason I was alive... now your gone. I needed you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 20, 2020, 7:31 am UTC
You were such an important part of my life, I still think about how I never really knew you after years of knowing you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 18, 2020, 5:50 pm UTC
I’ve thought about showing up on your doorstep countless times. But I’m terrified someone else will answer the door.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: December 11, 2020, 12:24 am UTC
i lied yk. i still like you but i'm too scared to say it. maybe there just isn't supposed to be an us.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 25, 2020, 5:33 am UTC
I miss you so much. I wish I never fell for your stupid games. Sometimes I wish we never met, but then i wouldn’t have learned this lesson. I love you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 23, 2020, 12:15 pm UTC
Sometimes in life, I guess you just need to come to terms with the six-foot ginger shaped hole in your heart.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 23, 2020, 2:23 am UTC
Thanks for those late night texts, and the winky face emojis, those made my heart explode. You are one of the biggest reasons that I am happier now.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 21, 2020, 11:50 pm UTC
I miss you dearly and wish I could have spent more time with you. I miss your good mornings and your good nights. I should have cherished your hugs. I'm sorry for not loving you more. You definitely deserve more than I could have given you. Anyway, I love you and GoodBye.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:57 pm UTC
my smile is dim and my heart has been dull ever since you left. You were the light in my life, and it went out when you left.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 18, 2020, 5:42 pm UTC
i miss you. i truly do. It was a very hard day when you decided to leave me. it was for the best though, i guess.. you will always have a place in my heart no matter what and i truly hope you do good in life and hope you treat your next love right. thanks for giving me the time of my life and so many memories. i'll always love you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 18, 2020, 1:33 am UTC
you left with no explanation just flat out left me still wondering months later what the hell I did wrong
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 10, 2020, 10:34 pm UTC
You where the first person who was hard to get out of my head but I guess it was for the best you don't feel the same way anymore and I guess its better this way.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: November 10, 2020, 5:58 am UTC
I never would’ve hurt you like you did me, I loved you too much and I ended up broken. I still miss U everyday.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: October 19, 2020, 2:09 am UTC
Why didn't you stand up for me? Not even once? Why did you take your sister's side when she tried to hurt me? Fuck you
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: October 10, 2020, 8:01 pm UTC
you will never truly know how much I care about you, and everyday as we get stronger I get more and more scared to lose you because I'm nothing without you, every touch and smile, just to talk to you, you made me who I am, and I can't do this without you
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: October 3, 2020, 7:55 am UTC
i love you so much, and have for two years. you’ll never see me as i see you, but i hope that girl you like makes you happy:)
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: October 1, 2020, 5:41 pm UTC
i didn’t break up with you just to date another boy like that one person said i did. i think i might not even like men if you know what i mean. that’s why i broke up with you. i’m sorry for hurting you. i didn’t mean to.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: September 29, 2020, 12:41 am UTC
U took a piece of me when u left, and u will always have it. No matter how hard I try, I will always have a soft spot for u even if u just used me
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: September 15, 2020, 4:29 am UTC
im choosing to open up my heart again, for you. for two years i've been scared to finally give in and be soft for someone, but when you came around it didn't feel hard at all. you make me forget what i want to forget. it literally feels like im in a movie. we're just starting and it only gets better from here. please don't make me feel like i can't trust again. i like you mocoso
