I love you so so so much you have no idea, even tho you left me I'm not mad at you, cause if that's what makes you happy I'm here for it, and don't think you can get rid of me so easily, I'll stick around with you kid, even if u move on to somebody new one day, it's fine I'm here for both of you, I just pray you be happy cause I love you the most when you're happy, I wish I could tell you how much I love you but yeah, I don want to freak you out but I really wanted this to work, I mean I knew this was coming but I just hoped you'd stay a little longer, cause when I'm with you, I'm me, I'm happy. I hope you aren't reading this, well deep down I do but it's okay, atleast we're still talking. once again. I love youuuuuuu. I just wish I could tell you that, the way I planned to, even made a playlist with our favorite songs lol, iss foine I'm just happy I even got to know you, you truly are preshius, always will be here for youu :)

I just wish we danced to Lana Del Rey atleast once damn, i would die to spend more time with you Amith

I really want to wait for you, you're worth it but if you don want me to, I don't wanna waste my time

fuck you really have no idea how much I love you lol, so anyway, I'm reeeeely grateful for giving me preshius on christmas, he reeeely is adorable, and the little note you wrote, that was honestly so adorable, your handwriting is so messy and childishhh I think I like you more just because of your handwriting lmaooo, so anyway, themks for that and byeeeee and I still hope you aren't reading these cause I wrote stuff I didn't mean, I was angry so please don take them seriouslyyyy I'm sowwwyy

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you and I love youuuuu.
fuck I really wish I could say it more because you should really know that I love youuuuuu?. oof me being soft, dw I'll be back to moi gangsta form in 10 more minutes but damn kid I love you so much you have no idea, none at all, you're sosososososo preshius and also bery evil I love you. I'm saying it as much as possible cause one day maybe I won't have the right to, and I'm gonna regret not saying it enough then, I don't want that for us, so hereeeee I love you. me is your biggest fan yk, but also I'm planning to stab you, so stay safe??

I still feel like I don't appreciate you enough ah damn this sukcs i wish i could tell you i love you all day every day without making things awk

fuck I hope you never read these, praying you never will. and even if you do, please just forget or don even talk to me about these lol, okay now. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK LOL. kinda feel like telling you about one incident, so here, just don't ask me about it if you even hev some kinda respecc for me, okie so, you know how I realised I'll never be special to you like you are to me, that day you told me how you wrote 30 reasons why you love her and sent it to her on y'alls 1 month thingy, and on our month thing, all you did was wish me, yeahh I mean I wasnt expecting you to tell me that you love me LMFAOOO, but I expected a smol para atleast, idk maybe I expected too much? no actually. I expected u to do something atleast a little sweet because Ik I'd do the same or even more for you, anyway that day onli I knew that I'll NEVERRRR be something to you, and although it still kind of hurts that i wasted so much time to end up like this again, iss okay, for what it's worth, I made u smile and you are a nice person too, but you don't deserve my love at allllll, maybe you do, but I'm too tired to be the onli one loving anyway, I'm so fucking tired you've no idea lol. its better if I ghost you tbh. atleast that way I won't bother youuuu

I don ever want you to read the stuff I wrote here ughhhhh I shouldn't have written in the first place

fuck it ukw, iss okay if u read them, but don take them too seriously I beggggg youu, sometimes I go crazy you know me, anyway, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH why did I have to write all that tho, jus don read ok, close your eyes kid