Unsent messages to DEREK
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 7:08 pm UTC
if you still care, sounds like a you problem- get therapy pls
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 7:07 pm UTC
I am not gonna be who I was, but I hope you find someone better. I didn’t deserve you at the time, but it doesn’t mean I don’t deserve a good future with someone else as long as I learn from my past. Isn’t that what history’s partly for anyways.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:50 pm UTC
I’m not gay, I just had to get to
know myself better. I’m bisexual and maybe that makes everything worse. Please drive safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:33 pm UTC
Idk if you remember but the first time you told your parents we were dating you were hospitalized for depression. The only person you need to be worried about rn is you because to still be around for others you gotta be there for yourself. Take care of yourself.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:31 pm UTC
I’m glad leaving you gave me the chance to explore myself and become more stable(emotionally) and recognize more of my shortcomings. You are going to be okay without me.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:26 pm UTC
If love was enough maybe I would’ve stayed, but relationships have so many other aspects and we always fought. I also don’t want to be a single mom because my future husband kills himself. Idk what I would do. Till death do you part, but even you wouldn’t want that if your partner always wants to die.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:23 pm UTC
Please be okay, you’re not useless. I needed you, and you showed up. You did a lot for me, but I’m sorry I didn’t do more. I didn’t mean to make you feel used. I partly thought obligation would make you less likely to kill yourself.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:19 pm UTC
I did try to love you. I watched your favorite things, read your favorite books, learned things about things you liked so I could relate to you, learned how to make homemade pumpkin pie, walked miles in summer heat like an idiot, allocated specific time for you always no matter if I was busy
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:16 pm UTC
when you know everybody dies and you live like they already did it gets easier to carry the memories of people who are still alive, both good and bad. It’s part of giving yourself closure. Write your own story.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 5:02 pm UTC
If I loved you as much as you loved me I would’ve treated you better & matured faster & done anything to fight for you no matter what anybody else thought. You have parts of you that make you an incredible partner. You’re gonna make a great husband to somebody else one day, don’t make bad choices.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:59 pm UTC
I shouldn’t have come back, but I’ll tell you I hate you & everything about you and that I don’t care because otherwise I’m the best that you’ll ever know and you don’t deserve that. I’m sorry it wasn’t your choice to make, but I’m a lesson not a partner. You deserve to be happy.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:40 pm UTC
Brickert, do you remember that scene where Sammy’s choosing between giving into being a 13 or choosing a lighter path? I’m gonna choose to be better even if being better takes time, but I wanted to say I’m sorry for how I treated you. I hope your wings heal. - Natalie
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:37 pm UTC
Brickert, not every message is by me. I’m not twisting a narrative about you, I promise. I asked my friend what I’d go to jail for if they didn’t know and they said it’d be for doing something bad to you. So stay away from me please & stay safe(also away from me). Don’t come back. - Natalie
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:33 pm UTC
I hope you know how dangerous it is for a girl to be financially reliant on a man. That’s a level of control I can never let anyone have- I’d rather be broke.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:31 pm UTC
I’m sorry I didn’t give you a second chance. The logistics would’ve ended with you resenting me. You can only cater to someone for so long, take care.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 16, 2026, 4:30 pm UTC
I hope you know you can care for someone and still walk away. Keep your head up, you’ll be ok.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 29, 2025, 1:55 am UTC
I hope we can get with eachother one day, we are definitely more than friends.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 17, 2025, 4:51 am UTC
I love you. I love you with everything in me. I hope you know how handsome you are.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 15, 2025, 1:43 am UTC
I know you moved on, but I will always still have feelings for you
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 9, 2025, 3:22 am UTC
I know I made mistakes, I regret hurting you I would do anything for you to be mine again. Ilysm
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 9, 2025, 3:11 am UTC
I miss you and I regret how everything played out. I hope we can meet later on in life❤️
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 7, 2025, 3:08 am UTC
I wish I was wrong about you, and I wish you thought what we had was real enough to stay.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: July 1, 2025, 8:31 pm UTC
i do miss you my beautiful boy, i don’t think i’ll ever stop, but it’s for the better.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 30, 2025, 9:15 pm UTC
Just come back, and put a tiny bit more effort in I really miss u, goodnight i love u so much. Call?
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 25, 2025, 2:58 am UTC
I’ve never felt a connection this deep before and i love everything about you my handsome king <3
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 22, 2025, 1:37 am UTC
the kiss was the only genuine thing i had in life
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 20, 2025, 5:59 am UTC
I still love you. Even tho you hurt me so much I could never hate you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 20, 2025, 4:04 am UTC
who knew i would still be thinking of you 15 years later. Maybe you never forget your first love
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 16, 2025, 2:39 am UTC
I wish hurting me healed you. And I wish for you to know, I truly did love you, my pretty boy.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 14, 2025, 3:31 am UTC
i still see you viewing my stories and it makes me miss what we had so much.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 10, 2025, 11:03 pm UTC
I will always love you. I will forever be yours on bunny slippers. we are soulmates
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 10, 2025, 10:52 pm UTC
i miss you so much. i can’t stop thinking about us. i love you and i always will.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 9, 2025, 11:37 pm UTC
im so grateful i was able to meet you, im glad you never gave up on us and we just hit a year :)
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 3, 2025, 2:53 pm UTC
I wonder if it was love. In another life I know we are together.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 2, 2025, 3:40 am UTC
I miss you so much.i can’t believe you blocked me.I’m waiting for you. White is ur fav color right.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: June 2, 2025, 3:22 am UTC
If only things could be different, nothing would’ve changed. But I know now, it’s better this way.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 29, 2025, 5:39 am UTC
i miss u, i remember this was ur favorite color
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 29, 2025, 4:30 am UTC
i hope we can be friends forever. you're one of the coolest people i know.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 26, 2025, 5:21 am UTC
just say the word and i’ll come back ml
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 23, 2025, 9:56 pm UTC
Was there ever any hope? Or was it over then and there?
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 22, 2025, 3:21 pm UTC
Can we just come home to eachother already… please!
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 20, 2025, 3:33 am UTC
Why did you pretend not to see me? I wish you would've said hi to me.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 17, 2025, 7:50 am UTC
it’s almost been a year and i still think about you every day
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 17, 2025, 2:12 am UTC
still have the book you gave me, think about you all the time. I loved u I was scared to fall all in
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 16, 2025, 1:42 am UTC
It wasn’t all for nothing. I love you so so much. I’m working towards you.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: May 14, 2025, 3:38 am UTC
hope ur okay. I miss you even tho it’s only been a few days.
