i wish we would’ve met a couple years later, we were a right person wrong time situation and more then anything that’s what hurts the most bc i gave you my all and just as fast as you came into my life you left it.

i cant wait to marry you. id walk the world for you. i wish i came back sooner, maybe it could have saved some heartbreak. but im never gonna let you go now that im here. i love you, pumpkin.

I don’t know what you’re up to nowadays but I just wanted to say that whatever you’re doing, I’m proud of you and I’m happy for you.

it’s been a year since we stopped talking every single day. it’s weird because it feels like it just happened recently, but also it feels so long ago as if it was a dream.

I'm not sure what happened. But it didn't have to go that far and I didn't kiss anyone for a while after that.

I think of you and my heart aches. I’m sorry if I ever made you think you weren’t enough. I hope you find someone that deserves you.

we had something but we just couldn’t take it further. be kind to yourself. please. we aren’t in each other’s lives. i can’t be there for you anymore. love you forever baby boy.

Oh my GOD CJ it’s really not that FUCKING HARD just FUCKING CHECK UP ON ME ugh it’s exhausting to hear you say you care about me in one context when I’m crying and not even bother to check up on me irl

i really hate to say this but its the truth; even tho you treated me like sh*t the whole time we dated i still some how loved you. you where so toxic and manipulating and some how i thought you actually loved me but you really didn't

i wasn't sad cause of our break i was sad cause i believed that you loved me, that i believed you where loyal, sadly i loved you at one point even tho i told people i didn't. you really broke me you really did are you happy now.

its really hard for me to date now cause all i think of is *all men are the same as you* i have really bad trust issues now. to be honest i don't know when i will be dating again

you made me feel so good about myself but then youd make me feel guilty, you made me feel as tho i needed to make a change for you even tho i knew i was good enough. you treated me like a queen but then you stabbed me in the back. Im glad i meet you but you still gave me so much pain. Im so happy i let go of you before it got to out of hand. i want you to know i still care for you but it will never be the same ily forever

i fucking hate you, you sick fuck, you took advantage of my body and didnt love me, i hate you kys youve hurt me so much

Did you ever even like me or was it just because I was the only that paid attention to you at that point.

sorry for assuming you feel the same hehe but thank you. it's probably unintentional but you made me feel special and i am where i am now because of that.

i wish we can just skip being formal with each other. gusto ko na ipakita sayo na i am not as boring as i sound like when we chat. in fact, i like to think that i am an interesting person. also, i am open minded and we can actually talk about a lot of stuff for sure. kaso we're stuck with being ate/kuya with each other. :((

I fucking hate you. I hate you so much. You took everything I valued about myself and mental health. You didn’t let me fucking breathe. You always had to be there. When I asked for space you made me feel bad. You got mad when I didn’t need you. You would constantly blame me because you felt lost without me. I hope you hurt the same amount you hurt me.

Do you remember when we were little and hid under your bed? Seeing your face again after the 4 years of my absence changed something in me.

you decided i wasnt enough for you, my personality wasnt enough to get you to stay. yet months later you text me wanting to hook up. im sorry for not being good enough.

kid ya ruined me. the first guy i said i love you to, the first heartbreak but it gave me so much strength i owe you,

give us another chance. if it doesn’t work out this time, then that’s that. i just wanna see if we actually would’ve worked out if we pushed aside the idealized versions we had of each other.

honestly. i gave you so many chances. but you really just thought of me as a friend this whole entire time. this whole 8 months. the only reason why you still talk to me in the first place is to try and get me to send nudes to you. i tell you continuously im not that kind of girl. but you dont listen. leave me alone. like oh my god. stop playing with my heart over and over again. stop being so sweet and genuine one day, and act different the next. it's not right. this is what breaks people. it's absolutely soul destroying to find out that the guy you have feelings for is only talking to you for your body. it's so messed up. and i hate you for it. but you wont get out of my head. and i hate that too.

oh how much I love you. but I love our friendship more so you are never to know. (but in secret, I'd die in your arms if you asked)

after two years I could never stay away for too long because you've always felt like home, thanks for everything loser

You were the first person I ever fell in love with, because you were the first person who stayed. I miss just teasing and talking to you. I miss pulling your hoodie strings. But I know I need to keep my distance for my own sake, so I hope one day soon you’ll prove to me that you care about me and reach out.

cj. you have been one of the most supportive people in my life. it means the world to me. i love you so much buddy. im sorry for ruining our friendship when i told u i liked u. i wish i never did, bc those feelings went away. our friendship wud be so much better if i didnt fuck up. but u still my bro.

you werent my first love but my first healthy relationship. kinda. i constantly thin about us and how i wish we could work out. we're very different and it we both know we couldn't but i always think about holding you and protecting you.

it's crazy to me that i was able to meet you in this lifetime. i love you as much as the universe(endlessly)

you're going to leave me, you're doing the thing you said you wouldn't. it's okay-- i'll learn to let go. i hope you enjoy your life. don't come back.

it makes me sad to admit but it’s crazy how there was a point in my life where you were my everything and now it just feels like a dream.

do you think we would’ve worked out if we didn’t put each other on a pedestal and just let our guard down?

It's been a while, but I still miss you so much. I wonder if you remember what you told me that night at the party, I always think about that. did you mean it? were you just trying to get laid? I wish I could know, but I probably never will and that's okay. you seem so happy and I hope you have nothing but happiness and joy in your life.

I think what we had was always a matter of right timing — and I was always a little bit late every time.

I wish you didn't give up on me so quickly. I wanted a chance to show you i wasn't the same as everyone else. I miss you and not a day goes by that i don't think of you

I understand why you ran away. It’s between you and the universe now. You know what you did to her. The memory of her will haunt you forever.

I will always want you more than you will want me. I know i’m not a priority, but we aren’t going anywhere

the color yellow, the sunshine, and sunflowers, always reminds me of you and how you light up my world

You pursued me first when i wasn’t looking and i fell for you but in the end you didn’t want me the way you did in the beginning

i want you to know how much i care. i still do, and i think i always will. you don’t know how much i care. i don’t think i’ll ever be able to tell you. i just need to know that i said it. i could never lose you as a friend, but damn it hurts to think that you might be the one that got away.

i liked you a lot, i still do but you did the things to me that i should hate you for and idk how to hate u. you really fucked me over darling and i dont think i'll ever be the same and u didnt even make me happy when we talking so im not sure whether i feel shitter now or then.

you never knew how I felt about you, but you made me feel more alive than you ever knew. I wish I was older when we met and I wish our paths were meant to cross for longer, so I could admit how hard I fell for you.

hey loser. ik u dont want to talk to me anymore and idk what changed but I miss you. I hope you’re doing better. pls reach out if u ever need a friend to talk to, thinking of u always

I hate that i've thought about you everyday since i met you. i hate myself for giving you my heart when you had no intention of giving me yours in return. I hate that i loved you, i hate that i still do.

I wish i had just told you i loved you. I was waiting til i could see you, touch you, hold you. I know it wouldn't have changed anything, that you'd still have left. That you never felt what i felt. But at least you'd have known, now i'll never get the chance. You'll never know how intimately you touched me without laying a finger on me.

funny how you said I was the stubborn one but every time I’ve tried to talk to you, you acted like a bitch.

it’s my fault that you think so negatively of me, but you never even gave me a chance to prove you wrong because the idea you have of me is so set in your head.

im not the same person anymore and im sure you aren’t either. i wish we could try to be friends again but it’s obvious it won’t work bc both of us still think about how we used to treat each other and can’t move past that.

i wish things were different. i wish you still looked at me like i was the only girl in the world. but things change.

i know we're broke up, but still iloveyou even if you didn't love me anymore, I'm rooting for u

i wish our friendship worked out but you clearly didn’t care as much as i did…