you stopped me from taking my life. I can’t thank you enough for making me happy while in my darkest times

i love you. why did we need to make the break official? its only gonna be a while. im waiting for you. i thought about you all day today. every time i was in the store, i would see something and it would remind me of you. i looked at the mops and swiffer- i immediatly thought of the ft where u were blasting music and dancing with a swiffer- i loved it. you were adorable. i saw the same nike sweatshirt you have too, i wanted to get it so bad. i kept making up scenarios in my head, hoping they would be real one day. i promise you have nothing to worry about with me. we might go through some bumps in the road, but thats normal and thats okay. breaks are healthy too, but why did it have to be official-? and im so scared one day, im going to check my notifications and see a text from you- telling me you dont want this anymore, telling me its over-. because i, aaliyah madison wright, is in love with you, krystin victoria dezarn, so so much. words cant even describe it. it still feels like we are together- it still feels like you are my girlfriend and we aren't taking a break. idk how to explain it, the way we talked ig. im excited for saturday, the 5th. our one month. im also nervous though because what if i dont get a chance to text you- to tell you how much i love you, how much ive missed you-. idk if youre going to see this at all.

hi bubs :) i love you so much and you're all mine >:( also sofia has been on repeat for the past 15 minutes SJDKFBHA i miss you a lot and today was a hard day for me and we didn't talk much but im proud of you for eating today tehee. i don't know if you're ever gonna see this- prolly not- but you are my everything. you have been there for me and you always let me rant to you. i feel as if i can tell you anything without any judgment or anything. i hope you know that you can always come to me with anything too- i know you don't like to talk about things and it's gonna take a while- but i'll wait as long as i need too and don't ever ever feel like you need to tell me something. also the country playlist you made me is v cute hehe. you notice all the little things and every time i hear your voice or look at you, i fall a little harder every time. i am just so in love with you and it's crazy because we haven't even known each other for long- and it feels like we have moved so far. and i know i know i need to stop overthinking- but i need the reassurance. it's hard to explain. ALSO if you ever see this- text me tehee- doesnt matter if u hate me, love me- just text me. most likely i'll want you to text me. and i know you don't like texting me first because you have said you feel like it makes you "clingy" and "desperate" and u think it "bothers" me but it doesn't. i love you so much- you could never bother me baby- and i LOVE it when you're being all cute n clingy tehee. anyways this is getting super long but i love you. also i might tell you to look on here just for fun SDJFNKHBA.

ur the only person ive ever wanted. im sorry i couldnt be that for you. ill love u always, my moon.

i just wish u would’ve told me why before u blocked me. why wasnt i enough for u?