Unsent messages to DEREK
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 11, 2026, 12:24 am UTC
I got stuck in an avoidant obsession loop I think, but I realized I don’t even know who you are anymore and I was honestly just embarrassing and pitiful.I hope you stay safe and stay happy.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 10, 2026, 11:45 pm UTC
Happy for you, sorry I forced you to be around me. I’m sorry for being the way I used to be and being so persistent. Stay safe. I promise I won’t ever come back. Also I think that I’m saying this as a friend. I know you pitied me, and the moment you found other people you’d realize you’d be happier without me.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 10, 2026, 12:20 pm UTC
You can be open with people & create a support system. Take care of yourself. You're gonna be okay. Stay safe. Focus on processing things. We can’t change the past. You’re gonna be okay, just don’t self-medicate.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 9, 2026, 8:18 am UTC
Hey, I’m sorry she was holding you back. I know you’re gonna be okay.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 2:27 pm UTC
I’m sorry, I’m really sorry. I hope you have a good life.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 1:59 pm UTC
I’m really sorry. I hope you stay safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 1:47 pm UTC
I want you to be okay. I’m sorry. I wish you well and hope things turn out okay for you. You never have to contact me again. I hope you stay safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 1:44 pm UTC
I’m sorry for being immature and petty. I could be too stubborn and there’s a lot of ways I was shitty. I fucked up, but I hope you have a good life.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 1:39 pm UTC
I don’t hate you. I’m sorry for not communicating like an adult and backing you into a corner. Please stay safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: February 8, 2026, 1:34 pm UTC
I’m sorry. I hope you’re always happy.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 27, 2026, 7:38 pm UTC
I hope you’re happy and have a peaceful life. Thank you for looking out for me. I was blessed to meet someone as dedicated, committed, understanding, and empathetic as you. You have your faults, but your strengths and resilience don’t go unnoticed. Stay safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 27, 2026, 7:33 pm UTC
Nothing meant for you will ever miss you. New opportunities and doors you wouldn’t have explored will open up but only as long as I guess life is accepted for what it is. Regardless, I was really lucky in someways, so thank you for your kindness. I hope it was a learning experience for you. Sorry.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 27, 2026, 7:28 pm UTC
When I regret things I throw my hands up and say “it is what it is” and be grateful for what still goes right and what I learn. Nothing can be done about the past. Makes me happy to know you’ll find what you’re looking for one day. Be kind to yourself.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 20, 2026, 8:00 pm UTC
I know it sucks feeling used, and I hope you find people who can contribute more in your life. Sometimes when you’re overly self-sufficient it’s hard to give to someone who’s never had to struggle, financially. What could anybody give you that your parents couldn’t?
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 20, 2026, 7:54 pm UTC
I’ll become the person I should’ve been. I’ll carry your memory and the lessons with me, doing my best to be better than I was before because our past is a teacher not a scar to keep reopening. Be kind to yourself, stay present. Let the world in and I hope you feel the warmth from outside.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 20, 2026, 6:43 pm UTC
You’ll make a great partner eventually. I hope you accept yourself even when others don’t. You deserve lots of care and respect. Sorry that wasn’t given to you. I hope you find joy even on the hard days. Take care and take elderberry- it’ll help boost your immune system
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 20, 2026, 3:07 pm UTC
I’m sorry I was so distrustful. You did everything you could. And I’m sorry I rebounded and never waited for you and then moved on. I’m also sorry if how I treated you made you feel insecure. You deserved better than that.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 20, 2026, 10:12 am UTC
i hope i get to see you again one day for burgers- ik it’s unlikely but idk
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 9:32 pm UTC
If you could handle that bs, you can handle anything- don’t be with somebody manipulative or mean. I believe in you. You’re gonna be okay. Stay strong, you’re gonna be okay & you’re probably respected and admired in rooms you aren’t in so if you get anxious relax. You’ll be fine.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 9:29 pm UTC
dark, but remember one day you’re gonna die so instead of thinking about wanting to die, maybe try to make your life worth living. one day you’re gonna die, so why live trying to be liked- why not live being true to yourself as possible as long as you’re not being destructive.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 9:26 pm UTC
I ruminate a lot sometimes and I realized that the past is something fixed, people’s opinions are out of my control, and people who don’t want to change won’t. All we can do is learn from our mistakes & do better in the present moment with the people we do have around. You will be okay. I’m glad you’re healing.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 9:22 pm UTC
maybe i do think too much, and don’t communicate very well and need to be more self sufficient and comfortable with myself. thank you for being around. I hope you know that there’s plenty of people grateful that you exist.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:57 pm UTC
How somebody treats you isn’t a reflection of you- it’s a reflection of them. How I treat you, or a bully, or family members are a reflection of them and their character and their ability to communicate and their ability to be compassionate towards themselves & others. Stay safe.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:54 pm UTC
I’m sorry if I made you feel not enough, unable to be accepted with your flaws, and for being like your dad. I’m grateful you stayed as long as you did when you should’ve cut me off a long time ago. I’m grateful you were reliable and kind and tried your best with what you knew at the time.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:11 pm UTC
Please take care, I’m sorry. I hope you stay safe and find shore where you can. I processed more and more and I’ll avoid the same pitfalls & mistakes & patterns in the future. I hope you know how precious you are to people, and if you experience chaos that you also experience peace in the midst of it. You shouldn’t have to earn unconditional love.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 11:22 am UTC
I’m sorry, thank you, stay safe & stay outta trouble. Thank you for choosing what was best for you, and I’m sorry I didn’t meet your needs and made you feel exploited. Take care of yourself. I’m not going to keep doing this, but it’ll take me time to learn and get in the habit of- but I hope you are always happy.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 7:39 am UTC
visited this place called G park, you could see the stars and the falling leaves. it was pretty
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 5:04 am UTC
Thank you for being kind to me and my friends even when we weren’t the best to you. I wish you well. I gotta figure my stuff out for myself & work on being better in a lot of ways. Keep healthy boundaries & stay safe. I hope you get to go camping while it rains again.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 19, 2026, 4:52 am UTC
I’m sorry for stabbing you in the back and assuming the worst. Kinda gotta grow up and give people benefit of the doubt a lil more, while ya know having standards & boundaries but giving some grace. Take care of yourself & stay safe. I hope life treats you well.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:41 am UTC
hey sitting in the shower is nice, but if you have enough space you should stretch. The hot water will relax your muscles and it’ll help your back.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:39 am UTC
you’re a good conversationalist, talking to you feels movie-like, and i just hope it’s not because you feel anxious to just be how you’ve always been. It’s okay to just talk about history. You should watch Jack Black movies
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:35 am UTC
I love when you write but reading it makes me cry
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:35 am UTC
Thank you for being a reliable friend and an empathetic person, your sensitivity is a strength
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:34 am UTC
Thank you for treating me well. I hope you find someone that’s ready for you now
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:33 am UTC
i hope that you get better and take care of yourself
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:32 am UTC
i hope you’re always happy and that you have good days
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 10:17 am UTC
I don’t know what you want other than for me to stay which is like me eating coconut cookies knowing I’m allergic to them. stop eating crumbs. If I baked you a cake I’d just bake it wrong. Go in being vanilla and come out as an orange.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 9:13 am UTC
How To Say Goodbye- Marina
Goodbye-Marina
Goodbye, my friend. May Alice’s frog break its chains and feel indifference as if nothing ever mattered.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 9:03 am UTC
The reason I don’t voice my actual worries is because it’ll sound like I expect the worst and I don’t want my anxiety to become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Stay away from me, I’m a lemon pie with a side of orange juice in a house full of cats.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 8:51 am UTC
sorry i was just being delusional again 😔
you definitely wouldn’t play mind games with me in… you’re an open book. You pour out every page, not closing off to stare at rain while i//dream of you
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 8:42 am UTC
I think what I really need to say is I’m sorry for the way I treated you and I’m grateful you showed me where to grow & what some of my standards should be, and hopefully have standards in my new relationship. My self-esteem isn’t shitty enough to fall for your bs though.
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 8:34 am UTC
And I never told you, but my dad liked you and said he understood your parents and that I’m a bitch. I guess you two share something in common now besides you potentially liking kids which i hope to god that you don’t, at least not like that. Cuz then my mom really was right
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 8:31 am UTC
uhm, in all honesty i’m okay if you hate me. have fun with that, this makes me actually think everything you did was never genuine, it was a puppeteer pulling on strings and not out of love. It’s a “nice guy” in disguise. My mom used to say you reminded me of my dad
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 18, 2026, 8:01 am UTC
you connected the dots before they made sense, but why stay just to have the high ground? ur weird. not gonna say you underestimate my power- i’m just gonna look at you confused like “but why go through all that effort”- that’s kinda weird, like no seriously
From: ABC
To: derek
Date: January 17, 2026, 4:12 am UTC
People love being a popcorn gallery to everything, keep your sanity
