Unsent messages to CASEY

your my everything and it hurts me to know that you never really felt the same i love you and i always will

I haven't written to him in a long time. appreciate the concern tho luv. not too sure why ur here either? u cheated on me more than once lmfao if I can get oner it you damn well can as well. leave me alone bro grow up

i.g: please stop writing to me, it makes me uncomfortable and ties me down. I moved on, don't torture yourself and try to let go.

it's not good for you to carry all of that negative energy around. I hope you can find better things to do with your time.

cs, please stop writing to me. you're wasting your energy. we're different people now. we never would have worked and i've accepted that, you should too. you can blame me all you want but just try to find peace, please.

hi casey. blue was your favorite color, right? i love you and i hope you are safe wherever you are. i miss you so much bby :(

i wish i could explain everything to you, maybe you wouldn’t even listen now. but, if you’re reading this, know that i have no excuse for the way i treated you, and you didn’t deserve it. i just couldn’t bring myself to watch me hurt you. that’s cliche, i know.
M

i miss you more than i can express. you made me feel like something more than what i was worth, but somehow you still humbled me? how did you do that?

i miss your movie recommendations. i think i loved you. maybe i still do.
M

honestly you kept me alive and you leaving, well it broke me in thousands of ways and yous together. it just made me realise that there’s nothing i can do to get you back. you block me last night i was in tears and deleted all social media, but my best friend hates me now. even though yous go out a week after we broke up i’m fine. i tried to kms last night the first time since march i really hard the urge to do it because i felt as if there is no reason to be here because he was the only way i would stay alive and after he left me i was over with this life.

we've been so distant ever since you started dating her. i dont get why youre only being distant to me. you dont even bother to send me goodmorning or goodnight texts or check on how im doing anymore. its always me who starts the convo and you try to end it so soon. i dont even bother telling you about my day anymore or when im upset i dont wanna tell you because you never truly cared from the start. we met 4 years ago on the bus, we were the kids who got pushed around a lot and we bonded over that. you were my other half. until you decided to replace me because of a relationship. im starting to hate you so much and writing this is the only way i can let out my emotions because nobody cares about me anymore now that youre not my true friend anymore.

You loved me but you had to go for your second option since none of us wanted to make a move. I feel like a Hermione while you’re my Ron and your girlfriend is Lavender. We’re best friends too. I really do hope I’m Hermione and that you’ll still love me.

I found out that you liked me after I recently got you and your other crush together. If I weren’t so oblivious it could’ve been me holding you close. Now your relationship is ruining our friendship I miss you so much I just wish I had the chance to shoot my shot since your crush shot her shot a day too early. I just wanna kiss you, hold you, date you. But now I’m alone with my stupidity.

I miss you. I miss you hugs.Sometimes I wish that even though you're gone I wish I could get one more hug and a goodbye.Give me a sign you're watching over me please.

incase you search your name up hoping to find my submission..here i am. you were my rock. you taught me so much babe. i mean cmon we studied for earth science every day with each other. i'll always cherish our moments in the closet in band.

your dad always freaked me out babygirl..and i cant believe hes the reason you moved. everytime i see the cheerleaders at my game i think of you. and dont worry i still listen to our song all the way through when it plays on the radio. (and ps even tho you told me blue was your favorite color ik it was red)

Hey man. You fucked me up. No one can seem to compare to you. But I keep finding out that you weren't entirely honest with me. I don't know if your feelings changed during quarantine but bro some of the shit you said about me hurt. I still listen to our playlist, not because it reminds me of you, but because i put a lot of thought into it and i'm still in love with your music taste. i think we can be friends again. i know now tho that we weren't in love. and i hope you've moved on by now. is red still your favorite color? i still care about you.

it's been years now and i still think about you every day. sometimes i think about messaging you again but i'm in a better place now, i can't let you make me feel like shit again. i was and am more than a placeholder.

I'm so insanely proud of you and how strong you are. You don't realise but I actually look up to you heaps. I'm always here for you no matter what and I'll love you forever :)

one day we’ll be able to see each other, and i’ll show you the spot where we can commit arson and vandalize

hey dumbass stop living so far away. :( ur breaking my heart man. let’s make apple pie sometime tho okay?

You fucked up so many times, everybody told me to just end it, im sorry.. im so sorry i love you so much

Thanks for letting me waste 4 years' of a one-sided friendship for you when I didn't get the same energy back.

i know things aren't working out because you are not here with me and the fact that i really miss you and i want you to come back to life and one more experience and share all the memories that we had together and i want you to know that i really miss you and i will kill myself just to get to you i really wish that you were still here i love you. im literally crying in tears just because i miss you

i love you so much it hurts. i love everything about you, you’re perfect. please don’t ever leave my side.

someone told me you liked me and i had never thought about you in that way but now i realize i like you too

you were boy halsey talked about in graveyard. i ran so hard after you and you never stopped to look back.

I really hope u never try to reach out again. I don't care for you anymore at all. leave me alone forever pls :)

Hi Casey I miss you. I hope you're doing well I wish I got to know you longer.I hope someone you know I'm typing this or something but the first time I met you I was told I had to make you a ham and cheese sandwhich with ketchup on it.I thought it was weird at first but I just went with it.I thought I screwed it up by putting too much ketchup but you said it was the best sandwhich you've ever had.The first time I said hi to you, you greeted with me with a nice hug.The hugs you gave were the best hugs I've ever had .I remember in the summer at the pool and I was too cold to get in the water you would say I believe in you, then eventually I would get in.The last time I saw you, you snuck by my moms car and you said to my mom hit me up to call you then i watched you walk away. Not knowing that would be the last time I ever saw you.It was the night of the first day of fifth grade and i was doing my homework out of no where my mom gasps and i still remember the feeling of my heart drop. And I asked what happened and she told me that you had passed away. I hope you know I think about you at least once everyday.I'm now in 8th grade and I would say my life is good but it isn't the best. Sometimes I still wonder why you did it but sometimes I feel like doing that to myself too.I get it and it's terrifying. But I'm pushing through because a little part of me knows that even 4 years later you still believe in me. I miss you.

every god damn day is worse than the last because of you. you deserve all the pain this world has to offer, casey.

You broke me in ways i could have never imagined. I always said your love was intoxicating, but never realized just how toxic it was. I still question my worth because of you. I hate how you made me feel, I hate how I can't get over it. Everyone tells me to forgive, but I can't. Why did you do it?

Theres no way we could have been together, but a part of me will always love you. I can’t stop smiling when I remember the way you would hug me from behind, or put your head on my shoulder. I remember when you wiped my tears and told me it was gonna be ok. I was never anything to you, but I wanted to be so badly.

Sometimes I still go to our spot in the woods just to feel innocent again. but then i have to open my eyes to my reality. that is what you took from me.

I'm so so grateful that you chose me. You're my everything and I can't believe how lucky I am to have you as my first love. You help me to believe in myself and make me so happy. I
love you :)

I fall deeper in love with you every day, I'm so proud of you. Thankyou for always being here for me xx

i know we don’t talk anymore but i really wish for you to stop being so harsh to yourself. you should give yourself more credit for all the things you’ve done!! try to stop pushing away the people you love most because being isolated is only going to make things worse for you. love you always ?

i shouldn’t love you anymore but i can’t get rid of it. we haven’t talked in months but i still wish you the best after everything you did. good luck casey. i’m always here, but i know you won’t reach out. thanks for the best 5 years of friendship turned into love. i’ll always love you ?