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Hi Casey I miss you. I hope you're doing well I wish I got to know you longer.I hope someone you know I'm typing this or something but the first time I met you I was told I had to make you a ham and cheese sandwhich with ketchup on it.I thought it was weird at first but I just went with it.I thought I screwed it up by putting too much ketchup but you said it was the best sandwhich you've ever had.The first time I said hi to you, you greeted with me with a nice hug.The hugs you gave were the best hugs I've ever had .I remember in the summer at the pool and I was too cold to get in the water you would say I believe in you, then eventually I would get in.The last time I saw you, you snuck by my moms car and you said to my mom hit me up to call you then i watched you walk away. Not knowing that would be the last time I ever saw you.It was the night of the first day of fifth grade and i was doing my homework out of no where my mom gasps and i still remember the feeling of my heart drop. And I asked what happened and she told me that you had passed away. I hope you know I think about you at least once everyday.I'm now in 8th grade and I would say my life is good but it isn't the best. Sometimes I still wonder why you did it but sometimes I feel like doing that to myself too.I get it and it's terrifying. But I'm pushing through because a little part of me knows that even 4 years later you still believe in me. I miss you.