Unsent messages to BRANDON

I loved you for 3 years straight. You threw our friendship away, all for some shitty guys who hated me. Even when you ignored me, when you called me mean names in group chats with the same boys, I still wanted you so bad. I cried so much over you. I still tried to rekindle our friendship, it ended in you blocking me. You are why I am a lesbian now LOL.

We were finally friends I finally accepted that’s all we were going to be why did you have to ruin it. I miss being your friend

im sorry dude i regret breaking up w u & im rlly bad at showing affection but ong bro ilysm pls d8 me again i'll do better

Dude, i dont know anymore. I mean i love you so god damn much bro, but then again there are so many things to did wrong! honestly you saying the n word, r word, f word isnt something i want. But then again you make me happy.. i dont know anymore-

I've always liked you its weird that we never got really close but I've always loved you , You don't care though I'm just you're friend right? That's fine but if you read this I want you to know I could never accept the fact I was in love .and now I do and I'm here writing a love letter for you. I wish we could get closer one day and talk to each other like we used to because I care for you so much and I never wanna let you go, im gonna put it as white because I think white means still figuring out something in the blank. I love you Brandon and I wish one day you can realize that.

I don't know why, but after 3 years, I still think of you. We barely knew each other but you were genuinely a great person who I would have loved to get to know more of. I miss you as a friend and I wish we stayed in touch. I won't lie, I was hurt when you stopped talking to me but I guess that was because I still had feelings for you. I really do hope that you're doing well. Who knows if you will ever see this but if you do, I wish I could have said goodbye to you that day when I last saw you in-person. I still regret how everything played out.

i’m so sorry for what i put you through, it wasn’t right and it never will be, i’m sorry that i’m still such a shitty girlfriend sometimes I’m so sorry but I love you, god I love you so much but I still act the way I do and I don’t know why... I cant control it.

yk, you really didnt seem like a shitty person at first. we were best friends and i cared about you more than you probably ever cared about me. that three hour call was a waste of time. youre such a bitch. manipulating people isnt cool. at first i felt bad, now i just feel pure embarrassment everytime someone mentions your name.

Part of me wishes I never met you. But I'm thankful for the time we spent together, even if you don't want anything to do with me anymore.

Jesus I was such a cringe child. I’m sorry for causing you trouble because I didn’t know how to handle my emotions properly.

was everything you said to me true? how could you go from saying i love you to treating me like a stranger so fast.

I have almost no problems with our relationship, but I just feel like you aren't "the one" I will always love you very much though.

If I said I wasn’t hurting i would be lying. i am in love with you but I can’t do this anymore. it’s the same. nothing will change. you won’t change and I’m deluding myself if i think it will. I’m not sorry, I need to move on for me, it’s been a year and a bit now. Someone needed to finish it and you won’t, so I will.

I hope i never held you back from who you are while we dated. i love you and i always will. thank you for being my first love . rawr xd

dude you really need to get over me . it’s making me uncomfortable because you keep on texting me saying you miss me and shit and i never know what to say . so either block me or stop sending me that shit . i don’t care about you anymore i’m sorry .

maybe you’re my right person, just at the wrong time. twin flames. i want to feel your lips on my forehead one last time.

You’ve fucking traumatized me. I look at everything completely different now. You were so awful to me but I can’t bring myself to hate you. I just hope you move on with your life and stop haunting mine.

It took me forever to get over you. I loved you since the first moment I laid eyes on you. And I loved you more after we sat together in front of that pond and looked at the stars and talked about our lives. You held so much weight in my heart, so much power. You shaped me into an amazing person. I thought I'd never experience the feeling I had felt with you again because it was so raw and pure and genuine. It was something you experience once or twice in a lifetime. It was a deep soul connection that I never wanted to get rid of. I was too young and damaged to be with you and I hated myself for that, but now I realize that it was neither of our faults. It just wasn't meant to be for us. You showed me what a real man was supposed to look like and how a real genuine healthy relationship should look. Everyday I prayed for you to come back, but it was selfish because you were happy without me. Now, I'm only happy for you. Wherever you are in this world and however you're doing, I'm just really happy for you. You deserve the best in life and thank you for being such a big part of my heart.

its always been u. even if i said i liked anyone else it was always u. ur my person. bc of u i ate again, i woke up, i did homework, i did everything i stopped doing. u might not even acknowledge me. when the summer comes dont forget me. by the time june comes ill have to say goodbye but know ill never forget u brandon

I haven't felt genuinely I love with a person in the longest time. Thank you for making me feel these feelings again. I felt like we could have married each other and we would've had adorable kids.

it’s been 2 years and i still think about what if i didn’t get scared and run from you, what if i stayed?

You arent really my first love but i really liked your company and wished i didnt like you because i feel like it ruins our friendship since u dont feel the same way or at least i dont think you do! I really miss you though and wish i wasnt a pussy and just left. I love you not in that way i dont know nvm but i really love u and i hope u love me too ig i just want a hug from u and to tell me it will be ok and we can be friends again. I just miss laughing and smiling at someones texts messages and having fun now its like i lost interest in eating, im sleeping too much, watching a lot of netflix, sitting in the shower, listening to that song, wondering if u hate me and i hope u dont asher. i miss you but im too scared to reach out incase u hate me so come back and id let u back in my life any second.

i miss you and i know i was wrong i should’ve listened to ur words but instead i was rude and it’s all my fault

you were my first love. i still think about u after years gone by, i’m not a thought in your head. i love you

I love you. Thank you for sticking with me through everything we are going through. You are my first soulmate love. There's so much I want to do with you and I always dream of the day we get to be in a little apartment after college with our dogs. I can't wait for our future. It's you.

I really wish you didn't move halfway across the world. I miss you everyday and although I never told you this, i love you.

were you just using me? i hope you know you really hurt someone in the process of figuring yourself out

i miss you so much it hurts ):
you said you wouldn’t leave me but you did the next day. was i not enough? i just want to talk to you. please text me i love you.

thanks for being there when no one else and for rlly caring ab me but ever since u left nothing has been the same :(

I am so in love with you. even with all the pain you have caused me I still am and always will be. I still look at my phone waiting to hear from you but deep down I know you are gone forever. thank you for teaching me what love is

i believed u. u said u changed. but u lied , why do i love you when all u do is use me, we were better off as strangers

the night on the porch , when u held me, is something i cant forget. i loved u , and for a minute it felt like u did too

stop telling ppl i took ur virginity. stop telling ppl i’m crazy. you were a liar not me. i meant everything i said.

i'm finally over you and i am so disappointed in you. i thought you were different, but turns out you're just like everyone else.

Dear Brandon, you pinky promised you would never leave me then lied and cheated you broke me into so many little pieces and i still want you i still answer your texts and the pain right now hurts really bad i cant even imagine the feeling if you're gone completely. I wish you never made that joke, i wish you never kissed that girl, i wish you still loved me like i will always love you. I am so afraid i will never be able to find someone because of you, anytime i think of someone you come into my brain and everything goes to shit. I cant take this, its not how we were supposed to turn out ,things were supposed to be different with us. Im trying to convince my friends you are still good for me even though im not convinced myself. I love you brandon.

You left me emotionally and I physically left the situation two different ways of coping. And somehow I don’t ask much of you but a second chance because I love you

i wanna be honest. i don’t miss you, but i miss the connection we had. i hope everything works out for you and i hope you’re staying healthy and stay safe please.

I wish things weren't so complicated for us. maybe we're just too young and immature. you'll always have a piece of my heart, even though she has yours.

She told me that I've never done a worthy thing in my life and am not good enough to even be a partner and I realized how true that was. 22 years of nothingness.

I will always be too good for you. I wish you felt the same pain I did. Never upset, just disappointed.

I can’t tell if I’m in love with you or the idea of you. You’re so sweet and funny but we don’t talk one on one enough for us to get close. I’m happy just having you as a friend if it means you’re in my life.

you made me realise how beautiful life is, you gave me a reason to keep going and to stay alive. you came into the middle of my storm and held an umbrella over my head, you helped me out of the storm in my head. but now youve found someone new, its hard without you in my corner but i wish you the best. i miss you.

aunque estes con alguien y me duela, estas feliz es lo único que me importa, te quiero y te querré siempre:(

Se que es tu color favorito, tambien espero que encuentres a una chica que te trate como lo mereces, es muy poco tiempo el que tuvimos Brandy, pero terminaremos de ver la serie de la que te hable, y seras el novio perfecto de otra chica, porque temo decir que no soy, te quiero y gracias por dejarme conocerte, sos alguien maravilloso. S

i think it's ironic that i'm dating a guy with the same name as my kindergarten crush. i hope you still think of me, it's stupid because i'm in highschool now but you really were my first love. do you still love LSU?

Emm, fui muy mierda con tigo, y con muchas personas, la verdad lo siento mucho y quiero que sepas que te extraño, fuiste mi mejor amigo toda mi vida y me dolio que nos dejemos de hablar tan repentino, cuidate enderman

do you remember the time you told me you were mine? the time you told me you wanted a future with me? we're not together anymore. you're no longer mine and i don't want to go back to you. you blamed me for texting you but we got into an argument because you said i didn't text you all day hence "ghosting" you. why did you expect so much from me but i expected so little from you and that was still "too much" for you? if you didn't want me or was ready for anything then you could've just stayed out of it from the very first.

i went back to you no matter how many times you hurt me. i wish you'd say sorry and come back to me already. i miss you my big baby.

I loved you even though I knew you'd never love me back. Sometimes I still think I love you even though I've convinced myself I'm over you. I can't tell you how much it killed me when you moved away.

You liked me and I didn't know. Did you know I liked you back, but you were already dating my friend Nicole.