Unsent messages to BRANDON

Can u just be straight forward with me? Just tell me ur not interested instead of me waiting hours for u to respond, I put so much effort and it seems like u don’t.

Le premier gars que j'ai jamais aimé. t'étais tellement gentil avec moi. je me rappellerai toujours la fois où on étais dehors à l'arena et on jouais sur la glace. tu m'a fait découvrir la sensation du coeur qui saute, qui veut sortir de ma poitrine. j'aurais pu fouiller dans la couleur de tes yeux pendant des heures et des heures.quelque chose avec cette couleur tellement foncée que j'avais de la misère à distinguer ta pupille de ton iris qui me rendait nerveuse mais tellement confortable. quand tu as déménagé, i guess que je voulais pas m'avouer que tu allais me manquer. mon premier amour partait, ne sachant pas si j'allais le revoir un jour. nop. i miss u brandon!

i hope you're doing well c;
i miss you even though we aren't so compatible.
i want to send you an xmas card, but i think you'd think its weird. idk.
i miss you.

We knew we liked each other and nothing ever happened instead what ended up happening was that you broke me and it hurts still to see you almost everyday and act like you did nothing to me how do you think it left me I thought I was the problem and that I had to better myself for you, you made me go through the hardest times and you just laughed with your friends

you are the love of my life, i’ve known it since the moment we met. unfortunately i know that while we are meant to be in the grander scheme of things, we are not meant to be in this life. i hope i will find you in the next

I can't believe how worthless you made me feel. I can't believe you had so much power over my emotions to the point where I believed everything you said about me, because I thought that you knew me better than I could ever understand myself. I can't believe how much hurt you brought me, and I can't believe you did all the things you promised you'd never do. Maybe it's my fault for getting so attached and giving all my love to you, when I couldn't even put half of that love to myself. I was so overwhelmed. Was I too much for you? Did my emotions scare you? Did you think I'd leave? I wish you could understand me the way I understood you. Maybe that's also my fault, trying to understand every single thing about you, figuring out what made you you. Maybe we're all broken. Maybe we all just have different ways of ignoring it. But mine was you. And when you left I thought that there was no possible way I could be happy or get that same feeling again. And maybe I won't, maybe I haven't. But I think now I'm able to understand why my friends hated the parts of you that I never could. I wish we could forget all of this and try again. I have never had a connection like that with anybody, please come back.

i really miss u. i know things were for the best when we stopped talking but i miss u. ill always have a place in my heart for u.

NO words can describe how much and long I had feelings for you. I wish we would have talked and got to know each other but we are past that point already

I wish you could see how much I wanted us to work. It hurts me when you talk to other girls and make time for them. I wish you would care about me and that I was worthy of loving. I think it’s time for us to say goodbye. And I won’t ever see you again

This is yellow because you brought me happiness, i'm sorry i sucked at doing the same i miss and love you

i’m starting to miss you again. i want to text you so badly but i’m so scared but i think i’ll do it please don’t hate me

My phone is full of notes that I wish I could have sent to you but I just can't cuz I see your so happy with her I wish I was her.

I just want the best for you. I want you to be happy in life, whether that's with me or someone else. You deserve the world. I'll always be there. I love you so much.

i miss you dummy. you mean more to me than you know, and have actually shaped a lot about the person i have become for better or worse. maybe we can talk about it in the future, idk.

You taught me to love myself again and I can't wait to grow old with you. I'll see you in the stars, love.

I don't miss you anymore. I realized that I hadn't felt the same way about you since last August. Since when was a camping trip three months long? We talked, and it was pointless. Even though I wasn't coming back, we could've been friends. I usually have small crushes, simple ones. For example, I would have a crush by glancing at someone in a hallway. You were different. You shared stuff with me and were someone I could trust. Even when I left, you still talked to me, only because you thought I was coming back. All has changed and now you have a mullet. I don't regret our summer calls, I just wish I got a signal.

theres still something but I cant let you walk all over me anymore, I wish it didn't end like this, I wanted to be with you but I guess you just couldn't figure out your feelings.

I wish you think ab me like you used to and as much as I think about you. I wish everything comes back from like it used to, I don’t wanna lose you and seeing how are you acting I think i did something wrong but you told me everything is all right, I don’t know what to think but I love you Brandon I wish you’d be clear with your feelings and everything

hey love, I miss you and wish things worked out. we are friends now but your not texting me back, I'm getting worried that you don't want to be my friend anymore. anyway, see you when I see you, just know I still love you.

you made my life feel like it wasnt worth living. i will never forgive you for treating me like i was a object, piece of shit, and someone to take your anger out on.

I really did love u, but at one point u forced me to think the amount of love I gave was not enough. that’s when i thought i wasn’t enough for u. eventually i realized that i can not change how i feel. u did everything u could i just didn’t feel the same any more.

I wish I knew you cared for me the way I care for you. I’d give everything for you yet I seem to be one of the last things on your mind. This state of confusion leaves me in so much pain.

I shouldn't waste my time on someone who doesn't feel the same, and yet I spend every waking moment dreaming about loving you.

hi babe i feel like you dont care as much as you use to and feel like im bothering you. i really love you i love you so much and i dont know where id be without you. you mean everything to me and i really wish that you can see the worth that i see in you. i love you so much babe.

I miss you so much I'm just sitting here crying on the floor, I wish I didn't lose feelings for you, I just want someone to be there for me, someone to hug, and that someone is you, but I need space but at the same time all I want in life is just to be in your arms. I just miss you....

You are an amazing person and idek why I lost feelings for you, I wish I didn't, I wish you were still with me, I want to be in your arms again, I miss you so much, unfortunately that can't happen anymore, Im sorry, I just wanted to tell you that I love you...

He visto fotos de ti y parece que eres más feliz que antes. Que por fin eres esa persona que siempre quisiste. Ojala pudiera verte un poco más de cerca.

i gave you my everything and it still wasnt enough. ill never forgive u for the hurt u put me through... how could you do that to me?

Hey Brandon its donyelle I hope you see this someday i really like you like I'm in love that's why i told Chloe that I'm in love with u

i messed up so bad, i gave you a second chance and got scared. I want to tell you i messed up but i know it’s too late and you moved on. i will always love you even though i never told you, you made me so happy.

you made me feel something during my darkest time. I will love you forever and always. right person wrong time.

When you told me you like another girl my heart broke. But I stayed because I didn't want to lose you as a friend

Tu sabes que fuiste mi primer amor, siempre te he amado como no tienes idea, te extraño mucho, solo quisiera que las cosas fueran como antes, te quiere A

Hola aguacatito, ha pasado un largo tiempo, aun te extraño a veces, extraño lo que sentía por ti; ya no dueles, espero que soluciones tus cosas y puedas ser feliz algún día

you promised me a future, just to leave me shattered in pieces for me to fix it when i didnt want to anymore. i hate you.

Pudimos ser la mejor historia de amor pero yo no iba a estar con una persona que me mintiera de tal manera como tú ,te amé demasiado pero ahora solamente queda el aprecio que te tengo ,quisiera que las cosas hubieran sido diferentes

There's so much I want to tell you but I hope we never speak again because I would do it all over. I cared about you so much, I wanted us to work. I tried so hard. I was tired though, tired of trying to get you to see how much I cared.Tired of waiting, tired of being your second choice. I was just so tired. And then at one point you acted like you cared, like you really cared. Finally everything I'd done was worth it and I wasn't tired anymore, I was happy. The first time you came over I was so nervous but I was willing to risk everything. Whenever I think back to that first day, I cry. The way you held me while you slept, I'd never felt something like that. It was like our bodies fit perfectly together. I felt safe and comfortable in your arms. We didn't do much but sleep but it was the best time I've ever spent with someone. That last night before everything went bad, I remember it all the time. It scares me Brandon, it scares me how little I cared about myself and how much I cared about you. At that point I knew why you had acted like you cared. I knew you got what you wanted and nothing was ever going to be the same. I had to let you go because I was slowly killing myself. After you left, the bed felt extra cold. I miss you but I know everything happened because it had to. And I know that you don't miss me. But If you ever do come back I hope you're the person you convinced me you were. ?

You know I'm not surprised that you never rly cared for me the way I cared for you. Maybe it was because you weren't mature enough yet or maybe I simply wasn't your type. I chassed my self up and down walls for you for almost two years and when I broke free, you're back and you already have me in tears after one word. Maybe we can come back together when you have matured or have a change of heart, until then I will continue to blindly fall into love and crash back out. No matter how long it is, you will always be in the far back of my mind, and no matter who i'm with I will always chose if you if you just simply asked.

I hate how it feels without you, I can’t wait to feel your arms around me again- but I wish it was before the next day dies

I love you. I love you and your smile that lights up the whole room, I love your smile and that laugh that I hear every time your name is said, I love your laugh and your contagious laughter that comes with it. I love our memories and no matter what I will always love you.

You have been in my dreams every single night. I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. Even though there was nothing more I could do, I still think of all of the what if’s and where we would be now had things been different..

i would always make fun of you because orange was your favorite color. now whenever i see anything orange, i think of you. i still love you.

Friends don’t look at friends that way.

Friends don’t act like that with friends either.

Lets just try, please?

I thought you changed but you didn’t fight for me, you didn’t fix things when I felt unhappy. I always thought we could work out again but I guess not. I can’t seem to get you out of my head from time to time, but I now know that I must move on and know that we were never meant to be. You failed to treat me the way I should be treated. After so many chances, so much disrespect from the past, I was so in love. I Loved deeply. I thought you’d be different this time around but no. I was just running around in circles of hurt. Hoping you’d turn around the car and just stayed with me for a little longer. Not caring about anything else. Wishing u well in the future, always.

You lead me on, gave me hope for an actually happy life and then chose my best friend, now I have to watch you 2 together everyday and hear about what you’re doing for your 1 year anniversary. That could’ve been me

i wish things ended up different between us because i wanted it to work out between us so bad but you are just selfish person, you never cared about me and you lied to me and i hope you realize that how badly you screwed up

I've liked you for the last five years, and I know it's not mutual, but I can't get you out of my head. You are so amazing, and you make me so happy.

you have this special place in my heart. the thought of anyone having what we had with you breaks me and tears me to pieces. i thought i could never live without you i can but it’s hard and the thought of you is always in my head. i love you and don’t think ill ever stop.

i’ll love you forever. i’ll do anything for you. i’ll always care about you. i’ll always miss you. you have the specialist place in my heart but i don’t have a place in yours

It really hurts how you claim to like me but don’t attempt to talk to me. I don’t get it. I know you’re busy sometimes but shooting a quick text back doesn’t take that long. I really like you but seeing you talk to other girls more than you talk to me doesn’t give me a good feeling.