You arent really my first love but i really liked your company and wished i didnt like you because i feel like it ruins our friendship since u dont feel the same way or at least i dont think you do! I really miss you though and wish i wasnt a pussy and just left. I love you not in that way i dont know nvm but i really love u and i hope u love me too ig i just want a hug from u and to tell me it will be ok and we can be friends again. I just miss laughing and smiling at someones texts messages and having fun now its like i lost interest in eating, im sleeping too much, watching a lot of netflix, sitting in the shower, listening to that song, wondering if u hate me and i hope u dont asher. i miss you but im too scared to reach out incase u hate me so come back and id let u back in my life any second.