Unsent messages to AUSTIN

I wish we never ended and how our relationship would have been today. sometimes I still think about you I wish you weren't with her. come back

I miss you and the way you held me and the things you whispered in my ear when i cried how you wanted to be there everytime i cried so you could comfort me.I love you bud

dear a,
I wish u were upfront w me about what we are. everyone says we should date , but you have never took that step. please do. you won't regret asking.

I still love you and I think I always will. it's weird knowing that you might never feel that way about me again

simply fuck you. you traumatized me and i will never be the same and you took my mom away from me so fuck you

You are a piece of crap and if you see this I'm leaving you on read for a reason. Take the hint and leave me alone I can't stand you

I wish you were the person i wanted you to be , not the person i thought you were cause those are two different people

i'll never hate you. i hate that i wasn't the one you picked. i'm not ready for the day i see you with another girl. i miss the old you so much and i'd give anything to have him back. he was my soulmate.

i used to stare at your ring finger and think one day there would be a ring on it from me. i can't do that with anyone else. you're still my one and only. i wish you were a better person.

I miss you. I think I really do, I miss feeling better around you and not thinking about myself. I miss the way you would steal my water and we would end up sharing the ice at the bottom of the cup. I miss the way you would stay up with me all night and forget to take your contacts out and your eyes would be sore. I miss lying with you and playing with your hair while you lay on me pretending like it was comfortable. I think about when I was resting on you and you said "I like it the other way" and decided to be the one receiving the cuddles. I like how you would take my hoodie and the way it fit you better than me. I miss how you would come and sit on my bed and say your stories with the look in your eyes when I would laugh. I'm scared you don't like me, you just want to have somebody that likes you. I think about that night and you hugged me like I was going to disappear, like you needed it. You put all your weight on my shoulders and let me hold your soul in its truest form. I went to leave and you said "I really like you" and it felt more genuine than "I love you' ever could. You put ur hands on my neck and kissed me on the forehead, but I had already turned away. I wish I hadn't. I think about you replying to a photo "You're too pretty" and I don't think you even remember but it made me smile. I think about how different it would be if I kissed you back. I'm so sorry, but you would think it's for the best. You tucked my hair behind my ear and looked at my face as I fell asleep and then your lips were so gentle. I'm scared because I don't know how you feel.

i'm so sorry for all the stuff i put you through. even though i'm currently dating someone i still can't get over some of the memories we had.

our puzzle was almost done, and then i messed everything up. and while i was supposed to be putting it back together, my peice grew. i grew without you, and i think we both need space to grow on our own. and weather our peices fit together or not anymore, i still love you just like the day i first saw you.

im bisexual, and i think i might be she/they i want to tell you, but im not sure thats the right thing to do.

everytime you comment on my body, my heart hurts a little more. im starting to think you only love me for my body

What we have is toxic, and i know that we both know that. but i dont know how to start that conversation. and im scared well be trapped forever.

fuck you is really all i have to say. making me feel like i never meant anything to you, and dropping me in a day like our friendship meant nothing. really showed me your true colors and i really hope it comes back to get you. k.a.r.m.a.

After all these years together, I say I’ve forgiven you but I really resent you. You never really gave me a reason why you lied to me and wanted her back then but I still stayed, that’s why I find myself slowly building walls and pushing you away.

I wish I would’ve taken the chance with you when I had it, because I would have never let go of you. I just wish I could go back.

I stopped believing in love a long time ago. And I never believed in forever. You made me realize love is real and hope to god forever is something that can happen. I’ll never say the word forever to you, but every time I look into your eyes I’ll think it.

Yknow how we always stare into each other’s eyes? I wish you could know what I think about when I look into yours, all I can think about is how perfect they are and how I wish with everything in me I could be with you forever.

I still have a soft spot for you. My heart calms down when you let me stand next to you, but I don't still love you.

I really don’t know why I’m here. Probably to vent but... we’ll see how this goes. You broke me, and I took the time to fix myself, but I don’t ever think I can be fully repaired. You were my life for years, I loved you. I sacrificed my mental health, grades, and feelings for yours. I was just your toy to play with whenever you saw fit. I was so young and manipulated into being your rock, when I didn’t even have one to depend on. I will never fully recover from the ways you broke me. But thank you for making me stronger, for teaching me how to stand up for myself, and thank you for being my first love. The lessons you taught me mean more than you know.

This is the green I remember from your eyes. I love your laugh and every conversation was memorable. I know my feelings for you have passed but sometimes I feel like we're kids again and I still care for you.

I've noticed you've been distant. I need you the most right now, yet I feel like I'm just driving you away with all of my problems. I just want you to call me, check up on me maybe. I just miss how you felt about me at the very beginning is as all. I wish I felt butterflies about you instead of crying about you.

My stomach hurts every time I think of you. Your smile gives me reason, I get butterflies whenever we talk. Being able to see you again is beyond what I can imagine. I can't picture myself physically being next to you again, but I have hope. Just wait love, wait for me.

i know you're the one. i know this because i can't imagine my life without you. without your smile, your voice, or your laughter. not only are you the one but you're also my soulmate, my best friend, and my person. i want to spend the rest of my life with you stoopid. forever and always

im sorry i wasn't good enough for you. i miss you lol. i wasn't happy with myself until i met you & all those compliments you gave me, which made my heart warm.

Ever since July I have walked to the park we met at almost every single day. It just reminds me of you and I wish I could’ve said goodbye

Hope you feel good for what you did. I sincerely hate you, but not only do I hate you. In an odd way, I appreciate you.

I told you what I been through and you went and did the same thing like all the others. You lied and hurt me just a week later you went to another girl and is happy with her because I gave you my best but that wasn't enough

You and I called for many nights staying up to watch dumb shit just to be with each other. You live so far away and idk if i still like u. You and I connected in only a week and u barely knew what i looked like, still u liked me. U didn’t care what i looked like u liked me for my personality. I wish i didn’t take those nights for granted. I wish i could see you, hug you, even smell you but we can’t. Ik you’ve moved on with ur new girlfriends and i need to get over myself. Ik you’ll never see this but i needed to say this.

um you led me on and had me believe that we could actually be something for me to accidentally find out you’ve had a girlfriend this entire time and tbh it made me cry for hours. i can’t believe i thought that we had something. you’re the reason i no longer believe that you can truly love someone ??

Hey I really like you but you never like me back but it’s ok cuz you like my best friend but I hope your happy because she cheating on you ?

Holy shit... I miss you so much. I hope you realize now you didn't have to take your own life. Everyone misses you so much. Not only did I think of you as an older brother but someone to look up to. That smile, wow I just can't believe its gone. Looking back at it, you could walk into a room and smile and everyone was so happy, but now it's gone... I will never understand why, why did you think that was the only solution. Im mad but I feel like I don't have a right to be mad at someone who's not here. Im so afraid of what happened after. You missed so much, and I want you to just come back. I want to know why you did it, why?

I love you. i have always loved you i cant remember a day i went without thinking of you. i fucking hate that you messed up what we had. but yet when i came back you pushed me away as if i was the problem :(

It's been 4 months since I saw you last and I miss you everyday. I wish I could get to New Orleans to see you again.

Why did you listen to her? I just wanted to love you and be with you. She didn't let us be happy.
I still love you.

Here I lay in our home yet I’m all alone, a single heartbeat quite and faint, I drove you away with my problems of loneliness and my yearn for physical love and affection, suffocated you to the point of leaving me to sleep alone, I’m sorry. All I wanted was love, was I asking too much? For a single tongue or a single fuck or even a kiss or two. Too much. I’m sorry I drove you away. My problems proving king to everything else, cry myself to sleep even with you here yet no comfort in sight. “I’m sad” I told you, I try to explain myself and still no comfort, no love. I’m still waiting for the lust in your eyes to come back but I’m sure now that it’s gone. It makes me cry, am I wrong to want these things? Perhaps you can’t fulfill my unfulfillable needs and I stay empty for eternity. Maybe a bit dramatic but my heart spit it out, gross and gooey full of emotion and hurt, I’ll feel better eventually.

i still keep an album of memes, tweets, and videos i think you'd like. i wish my heard could say goodbye as easily as my mouth did.

I hate the fact you don´t love me like you used to. I also hate the fact you chose someone who doesn´t take the time to make sure you are okay.

i miss our friendship. i wish it didn't change. i miss it man :/
but its jus different now, like we still talk but idk.

You fucked me up in so many ways and left so many permanent scars on my heart. I want to hate you so badly, but that will never be the case. You will always have a place in my heart, but I am finally healing and let go of it.

i met u at summer camp. i think i fell in love. you might be a shitty person, i'm not sure yet. but i get butterflies every time you text me. i miss you, until summer camp

I miss you all the time & idk why. I just want to see you but I don't think that's possible. I promise I didn't know

I’m still trying to let you go, yet dream of you from time to time. I’ll never forget how much I loved you.

You’re gorgeous and so funny and kind, but i see all those other girls you talk to, they’re so much prettier

I just want you to know that even if we stop talking that you’re always going to mean something to me.

i feel so comfortable talking to you, to bad it’s wrong to love you and ik you’ll never see me as anything more than a friend.

i feel so comfortable talking to you, to bad it’s wrong to love you and ik you’ll never see me as anything more than a friend.

I was young but I still know what love feels like I was raised in a house full of love but when I saw you I felt something like a connection but it meant nothing to you bc it didn’t hurt you to call me rude names :(