Unsent messages to AUSTIN

hi luv. i miss u a lot. we had matching pfps of our roblox characters a few days ago haha. but u decided to match with some other girl. why do u beg me to stay? just so u can cause me more pain? i literally want to quit all social media but you keep begging me to stay. it’s like your not the reason i want to leave. i cant believe i still love you after all that. can’t believe i took a break and u decided to cheat on me. we were almost at 1 year. guess you lost feelings.

you finally helped me forget him... please text me before his ghostly reflection comes back while I sleep

I betrayed you and I hurt you. I ignored you and I was not ready for everything we could have ever had.

I’ve always liked you and you knew that. You even asked me out and then said just kidding. You always had to tell me when you were fucking some bitch. I stopped liking you and then you said I was yours. You would call me your girlfriend and call me pet names. I made it clear that I didn’t want you anymore and that’s when you decided you wanted me. I honestly fucking hate you but there is still a small part of me that cares for you. I fucking hate myself for that.

that night, you said you wanted to be with me. and i believed you. but you used me. and now that i'm finally happy with someone else (after a whole year of waiting for you), you decide that you miss me. what the fuck austin.

i wish to erase you from me. we never met. we don’t exist to each other. your life will remain easy & mine will be calmer this way. i refuse to think of you anymore, goodbye

I saw you at a party the other day. Man do I miss you. You seemed happy in you’re new relationship and I guess I’m happy your happy but I wish you were happy with me instead

We were young and I lost myself in loving you... you were what I needed at the time but time passes. I’ve learned what loving means.

We were young and I lost myself in loving you... you were what I needed at the time but time passes. I’ve learned what loving means.

I wish i could tell you how i felt. Maybe if i got the courage i could explain that i think every little chance i get to speak to you is a gift.
i wish i could know what you think, or feel. idk, this is stupid lmao.

i still listen to those songs you showed me, maybe i should’ve listened to the lyrics when we were still together

i still listen to those songs you showed me, maybe i should’ve listened to the lyrics when we were still together

you were the top recommended person when i would send people a post. seeing your name every time was the hardest part.

sometimes i still listen to the music you showed me, maybe i should’ve listened to the lyrics when we were still together

You ruined me. Because of you, I can’t trust, I can’t stand up for myself, I can’t respect myself. You destroyed everything good in me. You put me in a place that I would never wish on anyone. You broke my heart.

Yet you never actually cared enough to notice.

You ruined me. Because of you, I can’t trust, I can’t stand up for myself, I can’t respect myself. You destroyed everything good in me. You put me in a place that I would never wish on anyone. You broke my heart.

Yet you never actually cared enough to notice.

seeing you with someone else was so hard, but i'm happy that you're happy. though i miss our talks and our friendship, there's a part of me that wishes we never met because i still think about you a lot and i wish i didn't. i hope you're doing well.

i don’t think i could forget you if i tried. even though you didn’t like me, i loved you. maybe i still do.

i cant wait to grow old together, youre my soulmate and the past three months have been better than i could ever imagine

You were my first crush and then you moved away. I never knew you. I just want to know who you are today. I just want to see who you are. What type of person you are. Who my first crush was.

I never really knew you and then you moved away. I just want to be able to know you. I just want to know who my first love is today.

you broke my heart entirely and put me in a place I fought so hard to get out of but I still love you with all of my heart but you found someone new :(

You left me and I'm more broken than I've ever been. But I can't be mad at you. I miss you everyday and part of me believes you're going to come back. I'm not going to give up yet but I'm scared that you will move on when I'm still waiting. It was too good to end that abruptly. Please come back, I love you.

i don’t understand how u let me fall in love with u and u love me one day and leave me the next a thought we were forever

i don’t understand how u let me fall in love with u and u love me one day and leave me the next a thought we were forever

I was the one who broke off the relationship but yet I was the one left broken inside and you carried on with life like nothing had ever happened.

i miss our friendship. i could come to you about anything and you would listen. you never, ever judged me. i miss you. can you not see that? can you not see that when i look at you in the hallway at school? can you not see that when i wave at you? i know that we’re both in happy relationships, but man, i miss being your friend. come back.

I actually really like u. I wish i could go back & act like i did like u instead of pretending i didn’t. maybe it would’ve changed things. I don’t wanna ruin our friendship & it’s too late now

I actually really like u. I wish i could go back & act like i did like u instead of pretending i didn’t. maybe it would’ve changed things. I don’t wanna ruin our friendship & it’s too late now

i wish i never added you back that day. i wish i woulda said no. everything reminds me of you and it hurts to think i loved you

Why did you leave me when I needed you the most? Did you ever love me as much as I loved you? I’m such a fool for thinking that we had the same idea for our future.

I wish I could tell u to ur face what I really feel. But this will do, I like u. I like u a lot. I wish u and I were something!

i remember how you hated my ex equally as much as i did. turns out you were equally as shitty as him. you just had that side of you covered. fuck you.

You managed to fuck me up so bad that i won’t be able to be in a relationship for awhile. So fuck you

I love you. Took me long enough to figure out, but I know now. Why did you like me then? Why not now? I guess I'll leave it to God now.

I can’t believe you’d be this way. I looked up to you. You were the reason I was living. You gave me that reason. You looked me in the eyes at that show and gave me a reason to live. Turns out your like everyone else in the rock scene. A jerk.

i could’ve loved you. i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough, i tried the best i knew how. i hope you’re doing better, i’m not.

We had so many fun memories together, thank you for teaching me a lot during the toxicity.You’ll always hold a special place in my heart

3 years we spent together. i broke up with you because i knew you deserved better. it wasnt that i stopped loving you. i will never stop loving you austin.

Why are you sending mixed signals? Do you not like me at all? Please let me know so I can back off. Please don’t string me along, i’m not capable of dealing with that at the moment. Talk to me. Let me know what is up. Has there never been a connection? What did I do? Stop being dry plz

I made the background blue because like you said that one day we walked ur dog, it was your favorite color. i notice all the small things you do. and the way ur eyes light up when you have a genuine smile. i don't mind sitting at the skatepark and just watching you bc everything you do just makes me think about how lucky i am to have you. i know i prolly annoy you a lot with how insecure i am and all the shit i have in my life, but thank you for helping me. im learning to love myself after years of hating every part. thank you. now when we stargaze i rarely look at the stars. i just lay on u and think about how life can't get any better than that moment. thank you for being my stars. ik if u find this ur prolly gonna think abt how ur gf is dumb from all the times she hits her head and she writes too much and thinks too much but ive always loved writing about things that make me happy. and rn, thats you.

I hate you for making me kill our baby then not being there for me after. I should’ve kept it. Fuck you

I wish you would talk to me. I just want to see you one more time. You made me laugh. That’s all I’ve ever wanted.

i wish you were really the one for me and act ur age and stop carrying about sex so much and bragging about how many girls you have and come back to me so we can be actually happy together.

I hope you always remember how good of a person you are. That you aren’t too hard to love or care for and that you DO deserve to be happy.

we got so close and we drifted u promised a lot of things that ik you’ll never return and u are the reason why i cant see myself with anyone else unless it’s u. u hurt me to an extent where i questioned myself everyday in mirror. i used to pass by ur street, i always go down ur grandmas, i go to the place where we met in hopes that one day i might bump into again. and if i do ig it’s fate but u always said we were soulmates and we could run away and conquer the world together, but i’m sure u say that to all ur hoes don’t u. i miss the old u. the hero who rlly swept me off my feet. u truly were unexpected and i wouldn’t trade a second we spent together for anything else. u taught me to focus on myself and showed me what it’s like to be loved by someone, but if u rlly were in love w me then why did u leave. u left. with no context u left me wondering whatever i did wrong. i trusted u when i trust no one. and when i look at u my stomach drops and my stomach fills w butterflies as if it were the night we met all over again. when i said no to dancing with you. when u liked her to get to know me. when u watched me leave and didn’t run after me. when i had never had a pop tart and u bought me one, everytime i see one i think of u. and i wanna know why u left and why u hurt me last summer. the things u said when u we’re drunk that i never called u out on cuz i knew that u would leave if i told u. but why did u? u hurt me more then anyone’s hurt me before. but i always think of u in the back of my mind in situations sometimes in my dreams or when i hear a blink 182 song and cigarette daydreams, when i go to the cliffs ur always there in the back of my mind rent free. and i know u don’t feel the same and it’s my stupid self for thinking that u actaully ever fell for me but. i will always be there for u like u once said. and i hope u had a great summer and i had a bday present for u but maybe “when we’re older” i’ll be able to laugh and be in my arms once again.

I still love you. Even if all we can be is friends I want it. Anything is better than this uncomfortable silence we've been in for 6 months. Please.

why the fuck don’t you pay me any attention anymore i know the cards have flipped and now I miss you but you’re too busy being a bitch to notice. fuck you!

u are literally the most confusing person I ever met. but i'm pretty sure that's what u think about me, right?

this is the color of the hearts you'd always send me. turns out, you sent them to a lot of other people, too.