Holy shit... I miss you so much. I hope you realize now you didn't have to take your own life. Everyone misses you so much. Not only did I think of you as an older brother but someone to look up to. That smile, wow I just can't believe its gone. Looking back at it, you could walk into a room and smile and everyone was so happy, but now it's gone... I will never understand why, why did you think that was the only solution. Im mad but I feel like I don't have a right to be mad at someone who's not here. Im so afraid of what happened after. You missed so much, and I want you to just come back. I want to know why you did it, why?