Unsent messages to AIDAN

you are my best friend. You're the only one who gets genuine laughter from me, and I used to be in love with you. I'm not sure what you are to me now, but I know that to you I am only a friend, and that's okay. I tell you about the girl I like and you tell me about your girlfriend and that's enough, but I cant help but wonder if I had told you how I felt all those years ago when I first felt it, because i know you did too, but i let it die out, and you're happy now.

I fucked up real bad. But if you're going to get angry at me over something we've joked about before then you can go shove a dildo up your ass. I like you a lot but now I'm not so sure. You say you like me but you fucking don't. You like your best friend, not me. I was put off when you said you got rejected by them awhile ago anyway.

Sometimes you really upset me. I don’t say anything because i don’t want to ruin things with us. It’s because i love you i don’t tell you what’s bothering me, you don’t listen anymore . Treat your girl right guys don’t make her think she’s doing everything wrong

Thank you for ending it. I don’t think I would of been able to leave you. I am much happier without you in my life.

Please treat your next one as you treated me minus the lying. I wish you all the best. I still love you but it’s better this way.

also, even though i highly doubt you’ll ever see this, have u ever wrote one to me ? just curious. the ones under my name r all so different. yes, it’s me btw:)

it’s nice to hear from u every once in a while. i’m still sorry. i wish things with our friendship could go back the way they were. sometimes i even feel like they can but they shouldn’t. i miss u. i wish i could know how u truly felt abt the whole thing. i wish i could know how u truly felt abt me. i wish i could know if i mean or meant anything to u and in what way. were u even affected by me ? am i overthinking it ? am i just someone you’ll forget in a few years ? am i just that one girl u used to know ?maybe one day i’ll see u again. maybe one day all my questions will be answered. i hope u get what you want in life. you deserve it.

I wish we stayed friends, I miss you. I wish I never broke up with you and I still cry to this day. It’s been 10 months, I’m sorry.

Some days I still think about us, the way I hurt you is unforgivable though. I know you’ve moved on and you’re happy now, and I’m happy for you. I hope she treats you better than I did because you deserve the world.