i don't know if you ever check this site, but i hope you're doing okay. i know we aren't in each others lives anymore but i still wonder how you're doing and if your health has gotten better

how could you do me like that so many fucking times. i wish i never got involved with you. you have made everything in my life so much worse and it took me so long to realize that.

I can't hang out with you anymore, because of her. We used to be so close, and then I suddenly fell out of the picture.

A dumb little crush I developed in 6th grade... why won’t these feelings go away, it’s been 4 fucking years

I still kinda love you haha. You have helped me trough hard times. You’re so understanding and cute, that why i like you :)

first is the worst. i won't stop loving you until i find someone who i love just a little bit more. & that takes time

I’ve liked you since freshman year of hs. I had so much hope when we started talking. You ghosted me and that hurt. A lot. I miss talking to you and I want you to come back

I really think i'm falling for you. My heart beats quicker whenever we talk, and I panic and my words trip over each other. I think I love you....

Trevor, you literally made me so happy and I don’t even think I could imagine my self with anyone else in the future because I literally based my future off of you and what we wanted but I’m leaving that behind and moving on fuck you you are a whore

thank you for all the love, laughter, & adventures. i’ll care about you forever. i hope we reconnect again.

i know why you picked her i just wish you didn’t say i love you then leave it’s been over a year and it still hurts

i wish you the absolute best. i’m sorry for everything. i’m sorry for the way things ended. i’m sorry for the way i treated you. i miss you so much but it’s time to finally let go of you. goodbye trevor

you were one of the first men i felt comfortable with. i still love you even though you don’t feel the same :/

you're always on my mind. not a day has gone by where i haven't thought about you. no one is the same. no one makes me feel the way you make me feel. i know you'll never read this but there's something i really need you to know. you fucked me up trevor. im fucked up. because of you. maybe i should be mad about it right? i should probably hate you. but guess what. i dont hate you. and that's what scares me. i dont think i could ever hate you. i wish i could hate you.

I remember the moment I saw you in my class in 6th grade I knew right then and there I liked you but you didn’t feel the same. You went for the pretty girls and one of those pretty girls was my friend. She didn’t know I liked you since I kept it from her because if I wasn’t the one able to make you happy then at least she could. You use to call me names along with your friends and i’m pretty sure you started it. You knew how I felt about you yet you didn’t care because I wasn’t pretty. You made me cry almost every week about my looks because you’re friends reminded me. You made my middle school experience like hell that’s why I made sure I went to another high school so I wouldn’t have to deal with you again because I knew I’d always go back to you even after all the pain you caused. You’re the reason i’m insecure about myself, you’re the reason I compare myself to other girls, you’re the reason I don’t tell people how I fell. You were my bully yet I loved you through it all and I still do. I get butterflies from you. I think you’re perfect the way you are yet you couldn’t see that in me because i wasn’t pretty like the other girls you even gave me a nickname that reminded me of that the whole school used. I hate you trevor L. yet I still love you.

i would do anything to start over. i wish i could meet you the first time again. i can't love you with the baggage.

everyday when i wake up i think about how i was never good enough for you. i think about what i can do to change myself to be enough but i realize no matter how much i change, it’ll never be enough. i think about all the other girls you’ve chose over me. i think about how you only ever went for me when she wasn’t there. i think about how many times you blatantly got with her on front of my face. i think about how you would’ve went for her instead of me if she were there that night. i think about the fact that you can’t possibly care about me if you did me like this so many times. i think about how you probably never liked me but you knew i was always there for you to come back to. you put all of these thoughts into my head by constantly making me feel like i was never fucking good enough. yet every night i cry to the thought of you holding me in your arms. every night i think about what i did wrong. every night i think about what things would be like if we were together. every night i think about the possibility we will be together. every night i cry about all the pain you’ve caused me. i still see the good in you even through everything you’ve done and i hope one day you realize how down for you i was. i’m sorry

You ruined my life you took everything I loved and cared for you left me broken and helpless but I’m finally healing I wish you the worst in life

I wish I could tell you all the ways I miss you and our friendship. You made me feel secure in ways that I've never found in anyone else, and I could never thank you enough for opening my eyes to that kind of love. I'm sorry I kept your hoodie for two years, it reminded me of better times when we were kids in love.

Stop being such a bitch bruh ?. Get your head out of your ass and realize she loves you before I take her from you

you were my best friend & my first love. i'll never forget or regret you, even if you did break my heart.

i’m sorry for making everything worse. all i ever wanted was to see you happy. and to be the one who makes you happy

you made me feel like i actually mattered, like i actually existed, like i actually had a purpose, you actually cared about what i said, and how i felt, no one else has ever shown me that kind of affection. being with you, hours felt like minutes, and all my problems would just stop. you were actually somehow able to make me happy which no one else has ever been able accomplish. seeing you upset literally destroyed me, i never ever meant to hurt you at all, i just really thought you only wanted her. i’ll never forgive myself for hurting you trevor. i don’t expect forgiveness from you, i just wanted to let you know that you did have such a big impact in my life even in such a short amount of time. so thank you for caring about me in ways no one else ever has and showing me that there are still good people in this world. i’m sorry.

i would’ve loved you forever if you let me. you still bring me so much joy and it took me forever to forgive you.

i would’ve loved you forever if you let me. you still bring me so much joy and it took me forever to forgive you.

i miss you. so much. i miss what we had. you were the j to my ally, and ive always wanted to have that type of connection with someone. the bond we had was like no other ive had. i don’t think i’ll ever get that the chance for another connection like that with anyone, so thank you for letting me experience that, even if it was only for a very short time.

i never told you this and it’s probably better off that way, but i love you. i wish you could understand why i’m the way i am and why i do the things i do, but maybe you’re one of the people who can’t just understand me. and i wish you could.

it would be easier if i hated you, but i don’t. i understand why you ended it. and i never told you that i loved you, but i did. and it’s okay if you never felt the same, but i just needed you to hear it once.

i fell in love with your smile, with your voice, with the way you said my name. i fell in love with everything about you. it hurts me so much to see you give that love to someone else. i love you, but i’m gonna love you from a distance.

You showed me love. The best type of feeling. But you also showed me hurt. The worst type of betrayal.

ur now one my best guy friends but i’m still in love with you even tho u don’t know. i love and miss u

you hurt me ,broke me basically it hurts to know you only wanted me for my body when im so much more than that and i was stupid enough to give you a second chance when i never ahould have or i wouldnt be in the possition i am now so a big fuck you for breaking me even more.

you and that girl are so full of yourselves. you're blind, and i think you know it. why else would u send that.

I cant sleep or eat or breathe I miss you so much. Why'd you come back when i was doing better? Why'd you say you still loved me and then leave me again? Maybe I'll never get an answer but I'll always love you. Im still holding on to hope that you'll find your way back to me someday. Forever and Always 50

You were the first guy I gave it all to and i wanted it to be just you for a long time but you took so much away from me when you left. I dont know why i still care but for some reason i still want you and youll never read this but i wish you would come back trev i wanna see your stupid permed hair one more time

i’ve thought about you almost everyday and when i finally messaged you again, you said it’s been so long you didn’t remember. crazy how i wasted my time hoping for you when in reality you could care less about me.

I hate that you came back when you knew i was happy. you hated to see me happy with someone else that wasn't you. I am happy i blocked you, but i will never regret being with you. our relationship was made up of things i believed were love at the time, but it wasn't. Thank you for everything, really. but you cant be part of my life anymore. when my kids ask about my first heartbreak, i will tell them about you.

You broke me, you hurt me in ways I’ll never understand, but for some reason I can’t seem to fall out of love with you.

I wanted closure, i got it. You said what happened w/ us was because we were both bored. But the truth is, i wasn't bored. But you were.. and thats what hurt me the most.

I could write a book about you. If i'm being honest, i should hate you, but i don't. I could never hate you, ever. You're too precious and special to me. I love you. even tho we never got the chance to see what we couldve been.

the last time i saw you is still engraved in the back of my head. i’m sorry things had to end this way. i guess it really is time to let go of you so i should really stop writing to you on a website that you would never see. thank you for everything. goodbye.

I would’ve chosen you over anyone, but you always choose other girls instead of me. Part of me still loves you and has hope. My fav white boy❤️

Maybe in the future you will stumble upon this maybe not. I told u this many times, but I will forever regret ruining us. It’s been 3 years and I haven’t gotten over you. I love you and you were a good friend to me. We tried working this out and it didn’t work but I have the hope the someday it will. Take care baby❤️ I hope you’re happy. I love you.

I love you Soo much and I miss playing basketball with you. I'm sorry we were pulled away from each other and I know that in the future you will see this and hopefully we will have a family. Until then I will always love you.

we’re just best friends, but i know we have a deeper connection than that. you are the only guy i’m able to be myself around and i hope one day we both realize that we’re meant to be together.

I was 14 you were 17 I loved you but you didn’t love me I supported your dreams but you didn’t support me I hope you are
doing well in life

although we will probably never meet, i will always love u and pls remember ur surfer girl in cali :) ps. i'd listen to country for u

Unfortunately, you have not crossed my mind. Enjoy thinking that my world revolves around you, though!
xoxo,
Ramona Flowers

P.S. purple isn't my color either but I suppose that doesn't fit your perception of me

wish i could go back in time so i could be the one to reject YOU for once. or at least be the one to breakup with you. but no, i let you be the one to hurt me..once again. i did everything for you ya know. you were the only thing that mattered. the only person i wanted to talk to. everytime i was upset or bored i waited for you to text me. sometimes you did. and sometimes you didnt. i guess its just hard for me to process that its all over. when i saw you yesterday you were like a completely different person. yet so familliar, because ive seen you like that before i was just too blind to realise. all the attention you gave to me was the same as all the other girls. i felt special until i saw the way you gave attention to all of them the same you once did for me. only this time you ignore me, and pay attention to them. i know that you dont care about. youre probably over the breakup. im just so fucking stupid and i will forever regret not gettinf back at you for the way you made me feel. and those times you made me feel like i would never be good enough, like i needed to change. i had the chance to hurt you. twice. but i didnt wanna do that to you. even tho i was unhappy you didnt treat me right i would shut up because you were all i had. i just wish i couldve been good enough for you. i know that i deserve a lot better than you. all my friends can see it. no one seems to like you, it was kinda embarrasing for people to find out we had a thing. but now its even more embarrasing because someone like YOU ended things with ME. can you imagine how stupid that makes me look. its so hard to see you talk about other girls. and the way youre a whole different person to me now. its like i never meant anything. now is my time to accept that were over and i dont need you. i dont need those regrets, i dont need to be insecure, i dont need your attention, i dont need to prove to you that ive moved on, i dont need you at all. now its my time to heal. also fuck you haha. i was way too hot for you anyways. i just hope you know that if you ever try to come back into my life i wont be as stupid this time and im rejecting ur ass. keep that in mind when things dont work out with your whores. oh yeah, the same whores who youre gonna do the exact same thing to them that you did to me. because you know what trevor, you will never be able to have one and only one person. youre going to treat them all the same. i honestly feel bad for anyome who shows intesert in you. because wow are they in for a heartbreak. not like many girls like you anyways. not with a personality and looking like THAT. i lowered my standards and gave you a chance but no ur still a dick. everyone can see it trevor. everyone. well anyways, im so over it i dont wanna spend another second thinking about you. its time for me to move on and also fuck you! i cant believe all the shit i did for you, or trying to get ur attention. well i dont want it anymore. i cut off relationships with people just to be with you. but you played me. fuck you and fuck off. i hate you. i hate you so much you asshole. okay now im actually done. goodbye forever trevor. idc if we never talk again because i dont need you and im going to be fine without you.

i wish i knew what was happening at the time that it happened. you were my first fake love that i still don't forget.
fuck you for your manipulation.