he’s so fucking- oml. perfect boy.
perfect human
perfect- everything.

just looking at the pictures of him make me feel safe and warm, a warmth i haven’t felt since i saw cj. it feels like a hug to me. it makes me cry how he’s just so- amazing. everytime he texts me tears come to my eyes and i can’t help it, he’s just so amazing and i’m so- proud of him for being there for me even at times where i could really get clingy, angry, aggravating, and annoying. i really care about him, i really do. in a best best BEST friend way, istg he’s so perfect. i could never be as perfect as he is. and yk what? i’m actually ok with that and always will be- his eyes make me feel just- so fucking needed.
his chuckle warms my heart like a thousand fires just started in front of me. everytime he texts me my heart skips a beat or two, literally. i stop breathing for a moment when i see him typing. he means so fucking much to me. he gives me energy and strength to fight off the anxiety and negative thoughts and i just- love him so fucking much. SO FUCKING MUCH, i swear. in a bsf way ofc!- he makes me so happy everytime he says my fucking name, everytime he just- does something. anything. he’s always perfect at it and i love it. well- except his spelling, haha, he’s kinda bad at that. if i ever saw him- like irl or just a picture of him, i’d never take my eyes off of it. he’s so amazing and he makes me so happy ALL OF THE TIME, just seeing him text brings a huge smile to my face, a smile that’s actually real. if he ever left me idk what id do, i wouldn’t be able to even stand correctly tbh. he just- means so much to me and i’d give him the world if i could, i’d do anything for him, even if it meant dying. when i say anything i mean it, EVERYTHING. i love him so much- in a best best best best BEST friend way- and i always will.