Unsent messages to ZEKE

Even a small sorry would’ve been enough to make me stay. i finally dyed my hair pink now that you’re gone, and i like it more knowing that you wouldn’t.

i loved you for so so long you have no idea and now i moved on but when i think of you i still can’t stop and it’s so hard bc you are ugh perfect

I still love you..and my little penguino...it’s wrong to call you mine, but I don’t think I’ll ever get over you...in my head I’m always yours even if I’m with someone new..because with one text I’d always go back to you.

I remember the bonfire where you held her and I wished so badly it were me. Now it is and I couldn't be happier I always knew we were meant to be

We’re meant to be. I feel it inside of me that we are. Whether that be soon or in a couple of years or even decades later. We’ll come back to each other. Hopefully in this lifetime but if not the next. You are my person.

i have the biggest crush on you. you clearly don’t see me in the same way, however i like talking to you and just being in your presence so much that it doesn’t even matter at that point. you’re funny, nice, and most of all, compassionate. not to be cliche, but you genuinely light up my day just by existing. you probably see me as annoying or ugly, but i hope that one day you’ll see this because i sure don’t have the balls to text you this myself.

it makes me so sad that when i tell you i loved you, you doubt that i am telling the truth. i would have never picked anyone over you

i dont know why i felt the way about you that i did, but it took me longer to get over you than i ever thought it would

thank you for showing me the pain people go through but mask with their 'happiness' and teaching me to trust people. Thank you for teaching me how to live alone.

Thank you for showing me I can be loved and am deserving of it. That someone like you can love someone like me. Thank you.

The way i felt about you was crazy. I have never felt that way since and I don’t think i ever will. You don’t know how special you were to me and how in love with you i was and maybe that’s for the best. I will never forget about you.

I wish we could be close again like how we used to be. I wish I could read your mind all over again and have those nights. I love you so much. It hurts. You’re someone who I never wanted to lose cause You’re my best friend. And I thought I was ready to move on. I am. But you dragged me back. Why? I don’t know if I can prepare myself again. Don’t go into the army. Don’t leave. I can’t live with the thought of getting a call. Or living in the suspense of waiting. Cause despite what you say, I will think of you even when I’m wrinkly and old. I still have so much to thank you for. And many more to apologize. If you ever by chance see this, it is for you. I want you to be happy.

i wish i would’ve known you were going to hurt me but at the same time i’m glad you did because as much as it hurts you’re still the only person i’ve met thats made me feel something again

it feels like nothing it all means nothing since I've tasted you it's horrible but when he craves my skin all I picture is you get me out of this hellish limbo I call home

why was i not good enough for you? i gave my everything to you. i supported you in your worst times and in your best times and you still left. then you came back, played with me and left me again. and you did it over and over again. you know that im vulnerable and you know how i feel about you and you use it to your advantage. i hate you so much. please just leave me alone.

why was i not good enough for you? i gave my everything to you. i supported you in your worst times and in your best times and you still left. then you came back, played with me and left me again. and you did it over and over again. you know that im vulnerable and you know how i feel about you and you use it to your advantage. i hate you so much. please just leave me alone.

I love you so much lmao you make me feel so special. You get away with cheating because of your charms and you just want a quick fuck with cute girls. You hurt me so much without realising it but I still love you because you’re always there for me and you make me feel special. I know you talk to other girls but I like to pretend you don’t, it hurts thinking about it oh and I know you have a gf, you told her to keep the relationship a secret. So when are you gonna tell her about us? I feel so bad for that sweet girl but I can’t leave you, I need you to set me free.

i wish u were the one to tell me, i thought we’d remain friends. guess i thought wrong. i hate how lonely i continue to feel.

I will always love you, but I had to act out of control so you would leave me, because I knew I wasn’t what you needed. I still hope you come back but it was me who pushed you away so why would you....

when does it stop? i catch myself looking for you in every city i visit. i tell myself “i've moved on” but it’s clear that’s not the case. is it the same for you?

If we were closer to each other, would it have been different? Or did you just tell me that so I had closure?

I know I said I ”feel things” about you but the truth is I’m in love with you and I’m afraid you don’t feel the same