Unsent messages to TOMMY

i hate that i still like you. i hate that you always ditch us to be with her. i hate how you chose her. i hate u and love you at the same time...

Sometimes i look at your height you marked on our bedroom doorway and pretend like i’m still looking in your eyes.

I thank you for everything you’ve given me. I’m sorry if this ruins our friendship. Everything you’ve done for me is something i will never forget ever in my life. Thank you.

i miss you. probably more than i should tbh. you literally ruined everything for me lmao. but i still miss you. i crave our friendship. i know you probably dont think about me but i wish we could talk just one last time. i miss you so much thomas. but i also hate you

you forgot the nicknames we gave each other after all that time. it hurt but maybe it was for the best.

I don't know why you tried so hard to get me to like you. You tried to relate to me so much when we were polar opposites & we both knew we had nothing in common. I miss talking to you sometimes though, when I would talk to you hours felt like minutes. I remember the last time we talked for a while it seemed like you didn't want it to end. I didn't either but I know deep down you didn't like me so I started sending short messages... because if you like someone, you want to be with them and only them, not just fuck around with them till they find someone better. I wanted you to like me though I really really wanted you to like me.

you’re such an amazing person. i don’t deserve you. i don’t think i’m capable of being in love. i just don’t feel love. if i did i know i would love you. i would ruin your life. you have an amazing person and i don’t want to come in between you and her. i’m so sorry i did this too you. if i could love you i would

After we hung out Sunday, I wrote a poem about you;
Arms curated around my body
The latest feelings of warmth are easy
When I'm with you I feel warm.
I really like you and I'm excited to see where we go.

Tommy, I liked you so much and it hurt so bad when you let me go so easily. I know it was my idea, but I thought you would at least fight for me. I’m so conflicted because I’m doing so well without you. I’m learning, growing, and loving myself without you, DESPITE you and the pain you caused me. Yet, I still want you back. I thought you were the real deal, I still think you might be...but I guess I’ll never know.

Where did i go wrong? I’ve always wondered if you really cared about me or if i was just another one of your many girls. i thought what we had was real, but if it was then how did you leave so easily and never look back?

We were so young but i’ve never felt the same way about someone that was did about you. i miss you, you made me laugh and smile endlessly. i just wanna talk to you again

although we never said it, we both knew we were soulmates. it’s always you, in any life it’s always been you

I miss you. I know we were this brief thing but you were more than that to me. you felt like a breath of fresh air after i was holding my breath for so long. I know you’re out there bettering yourself for me (i’m bettering myself too) but you were perfect from the start. i’ll be waiting and if or when you come back i won’t let you go again

You had me thinking you loved me but it turns out you was just controlling my life the way you wanted it to be...

i know you think of me as just a friend, but thank you for showing me that i have worth and i deserve love, thank you for showing me that it’s possible for someone to care about me even just a little bit.

i used you and led you on. that was unfair of me. i appreciate how much you cared, i just couldn't reciprocate and for that i am sorry.

tommy it hurts to know you but you dont know me. it hurts to hear you find interest while im over here fawning over you from across the world. i hate how i fell for a minecraft streamer who yells at his monitor. please just if i could show you the love i could give you then maybe you would notice me.

It's okay if you didn't like me back I just want to know why. You even told someone you liked me to I thought I had a chance.

i need to stop trying. I love you to the ends of the earth. you don't even know me mr innit, but I would honestly take many many bullets for you. you don't even know who I am. but I know that out there somewhere there is a special person you will spend the rest of ur life with. I want more than anything for that to be me. I would leave everything behind if it ment I could be with you. even for a brief moment... everything. and yet you will probably never ever ever ever know who I am. you wont even know I exist. I want to join the smp and leave everything in my stupid life behind. if it ment I could be with you...

its stupid but i’m like in love with my comfort streamer on twitch .. they’ve really helped me and they don’t even know who i am.

I just get insecure so easily but I feel like you don't care. You told me to talk to you whenever I'm sad or not feeling good but when I tell you you don't care. I now you love me and I have so much love for you as well but I dont know if Im still in love with you...

I know you hated that nickname, you hated the informality. It still breaks me though that you chose to use a nickname when you broke me

dude you and hailey are seriously my bestfriends. i wish we lived closer to each other. can't wait to get a pic of da three musketeers one day :))

i was there for you all the time and u never chose me but after 8 months i’m finally over you and that decision you made really helped me get over you you were such a waste of time

Tommy,
You're one of the nicest guys I know and I will never stop loving you. Even though you love her.

Hey Tommy, i think i still like you, even though you have a girlfriend i still have feelings for you. you make me feel special and i can't explain the feeling that you give me, you give me butterflies

I’m sorry I didn’t try harder and that I let you go without letting you know how much you mean to me. It’s been 10 months and I still cry at the thought of you. I miss you so much. You are my first love, and you always will be. I hope you are happy wherever you are.

I dont really know if I can trust you if I met you through me friend and now since you and her cousin are close.

Hey, I know you don't know me but I know u and have for a year now. You seem so nice please enter my life when when Al thinks its the right time
Thanks x

i wish you didn't use me for your own needs and then break my heart.. i expected more from you but you're just like everyone else

i wish u wanted something for urself but u don’t. i think i’m in love with you and i can’t even speak to u

I wish I could tell you how I feel. I’ve never felt this way for someone but I’m scared. I wish you knew.

Do you believe in right person wrong time? I've been thinking about you lately. I want to start over. I want to talk to you like we used to. We were doing good but I got scared and left. But I'm ready now. Promise.

I know you don't feel the same for me as I do for you, but I'm so glad we met. You made my life really great for those 3 months.

i know you will never see this but maybe you were the right person, wrong time or maybe we were just meant to be friends. i think it wouldve been better if we stayed friends, you jealousness and my sensitiveness couldnt go together. you really hurt me though, i cried for days and ended up in a mental hospital because i lost all self confidence and forgot my meaning in life. i will always remember you but you'll never be introduced as my first love.

you def have feelings still. funny you think I’d find someone better than you. I choose what’s good/better for me. i don’t think we end up that bad we do always see contact each other after a while..that’s a good thing right?

we’re difficult but i always said id rather try 1000 times w u then start over. idk why you’re with her. Why can’t you show me?

I’m supposed to be moved on too it’s not any easier seeing you with her. Every thing goes back to you. Me too

i love you. i wish you didn't hurt me and i didn't hurt you, you deserve the world. ill miss your smile forever

you were my right person at the wrong time, i'll always love you, maybe one day in the future we'll meet again

you really broke me. i know you’ll never understand. i don’t love u anymore but you’ll always be my first love

i love you because you are good. i can't even be mad at you because you respect me and see who i am and treat me well. you are good and polite and smart and caring. and it hurts that something futile divides us and i miss you.

you made me the happiest person in a time i thought i’d never smile again. i can only thank you for that

you made me the happiest person in a time i thought i’d never smile again. i can only thank you for that

i'm sorry for the way things ended. i wish i'd tried harder not to let my own shit get between us. you were the first person who made me feel loved, and i genuinely wanted a future with you. you deserve the world, and i hope you get it with her. i wish it was me. i'll always wish it was me. goodbye.

i liked u, but u never knew. i was always trying to be close to u and i cared about u! but u neve did...now about what happened friday...i think i might need to trust u and u in me

we only talked for 2 weeks but every guy i talk to i compare to u and it made me realize that no one will ever compare to.

I trusted you. I told you everything and you manipulated me you hurt me I was there for you when you had no one and for what? What do I get? I get nothing. Nothing. Fuck you. What

I trusted you. I told you everything and you manipulated me you hurt me I was there for you when you had no one and for what? What do I get? I get nothing. Nothing. Fuck you.

i’m sick of reminding you to love me like you said you would. you say we’re toxic yet tell me not to leave with your manipulative words grabbing me by the throat. i
love you.