Unsent messages to SPENCER
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: October 12, 2023, 11:00 pm UTC
don’t put this on me. you knew this would tear what we had apart as you did it and now it’s gone.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: October 12, 2023, 2:17 am UTC
I had a dream you hugged me last night and i cried when i woke up, i miss you
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: October 11, 2023, 3:43 am UTC
ill miss you but i know you'll blossom - be sure to stay in touch
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: October 9, 2023, 2:33 am UTC
i will wait for you till the end of time, cause i know we’re meant for each other
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: October 1, 2023, 3:22 am UTC
i think im falling for you again and i really dont want to.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 26, 2023, 4:25 am UTC
I wish you were who you told me you were
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 26, 2023, 12:35 am UTC
I’m finally seeing life after you. I found happiness. I hope you can say the same.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 21, 2023, 5:22 am UTC
i still think about you sometimes too bad you chose the wrong side
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 21, 2023, 4:03 am UTC
i think i’m starting to love you but you are so confusing me
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 21, 2023, 3:39 am UTC
I know that somewhere in the cosmos it worked out. I’m afraid my art might always be about you.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: September 5, 2023, 2:31 am UTC
please tell me I meant something to you, I miss you so much
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 28, 2023, 10:56 pm UTC
Why did you hurt me so much?
I loved you.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 28, 2023, 4:07 pm UTC
Why did u have to leave, I loved u. I still do
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 28, 2023, 12:59 pm UTC
it has been 156 days and i still miss you
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 24, 2023, 9:46 pm UTC
i’ve missed talking to you, i’m glad that we’re okay now.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 24, 2023, 9:00 pm UTC
please come back pookie. you’re still my forever boy
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 23, 2023, 5:27 am UTC
i'm sorry and i forgive you. you'll always be my best friend
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 18, 2023, 10:25 pm UTC
you're all i've ever dreamed of and more, always & forever
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 14, 2023, 2:22 am UTC
it’s me and you against the world, my love.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 14, 2023, 12:00 am UTC
i'll miss what we had but i will never miss u, pinky promise
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 7, 2023, 9:38 am UTC
i miss u
u never deserved any of that bub
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 7, 2023, 2:57 am UTC
I’m sorry too. You’ll always be a part of me
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 5, 2023, 2:29 am UTC
take care, take time, ill still be here no matter any changes
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: August 2, 2023, 2:00 am UTC
i can feel you falling in love with me. i think i am too
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 23, 2023, 10:01 pm UTC
I know it will always be you. I can feel it.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 19, 2023, 7:06 pm UTC
If you’re done, then I’ll be done too.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 19, 2023, 5:41 pm UTC
come back pookie. The pink is for love❤️❤️❤️
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 19, 2023, 3:57 am UTC
you just don't like me like that and that's ok
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 18, 2023, 10:35 pm UTC
i love you spence you treat me so well <3
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 14, 2023, 3:45 am UTC
you hurt me so much but i still love you. through and through.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 12, 2023, 10:33 pm UTC
my luv,
Please come back to me. I miss u already.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: July 11, 2023, 6:07 am UTC
you’re so cutie pie i love you so much
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 17, 2021, 9:45 pm UTC
I will never say "I wish I never met you" because you were exactly what I wanted at the time. All the shit you put my through stuck with me and I will never forget, but some nights I wish we could still have those late night talks and I could watch your streams. Im sorry, but I felt I was putting in 5x as much effort as you, and it was exhausting.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 16, 2021, 9:29 pm UTC
i hope you know how much you hurt me. but i also hope you know that id let you do it again. i miss you. please come back.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 16, 2021, 2:14 am UTC
so you’re probably gonna be like ‘oh this won’t be about me’ but chances are it is so just read this.
u did so much wrong , not just to me but to the other people there.
i know that i was wrong too but i do believe i am a good person and the fact you said such horrible things then chalked them up to anger is realllly shitty.
but in the end, there is nobody to really blame - it was just a heat of the moment anger thing.
i don’t know how much of what you said that night was true and what was just lies due to anger but that doesn’t really matter.
i think what you called me was unfair because i did those things as a distraction from the pain you caused me
i lie awake sometimes completely unable to fall asleep no matter how exhausted my mind and body are.
i hate how you acted, made me feel and the people around you. but that was all in the end- at the time, you made me feel like nobody ever had and like nobody could ever replicate again. i don’t want to give up hope but i think i need to. you are nothing like i’ve ever felt before and i don’t think love is the word because it went beyond. all the happiness you gave me daily has just disappeared and i feel empty and purposeless . i have no motivation without you. i don’t miss the others. i only miss you. i only want you. it will always be you. you are the only person i’ve ever felt this way for.
if you think it’s you text me
i will wait for you until the end of time, until my next life.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 14, 2021, 5:17 am UTC
I can't tell if we still have chemistry in our relationship, you've gotten so distant. I hope we can hang out, make more inside jokes, and I can see you hazel eyes lighten up when we make eye contact or the way the make my heart melt when you look at me, with the sun shining down and it makes them look liking flowing honey. I don't know if you see in me what I see in you, but I'm hopeful.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 14, 2021, 4:26 am UTC
i dont remember much of anything from june or july, i just remember being hurt so i forced myself to forget. i'm sorry.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 13, 2021, 1:42 am UTC
3/4 years of high school I have loved you. I shouldn’t though. With you in college and me going to college there should be no reason I have stayed madly in love with you. I can’t keep doing this. I’ve tried everything. I’ve written on here once before. I’ve unfollowed you on all social media. Now what? Now what do I have to do? I just want it to stop. I want to stop thinking about you. Checking up on you, dreaming of you. Maybe I need to put myself out there again. Maybe I need to tell you how I feel. I don’t know. I use to wish at 11:11 for you to be my soulmate. Now at 11:11 I wish for you to be forgotten from my mind. I do still love you, and I always will. But this is goodbye, and I’m not saying goodbye for you. Because we all know that you have moved on. But I am saying goodbye for me. This is it, I’m done and I need to focus on me now. I wish you the best, and I love you to the moon and back. ANS
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 10, 2021, 10:41 pm UTC
you literally suck lol i can’t even look back on the good times fondly because none of it seems genuine
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 10, 2021, 10:10 pm UTC
I wish we could’ve talked things out before you left, but obviously you don’t care enough about me to do anything other than leave.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 10, 2021, 4:47 am UTC
I hope one day you realize what you lost. Every day we grow more distant. Thank you for wasting my time and leading me on.
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 9, 2021, 2:48 am UTC
i never had a type before i met you, but now i'm going to be looking for a little piece of you in every new person i meet
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 9, 2021, 2:44 am UTC
i would literally give anything to have you back here with me... i'm sorry my sadness got in the way of forever
From: ABC
To: spencer
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:38 pm UTC
i loveee u !!! talking to u rly brightens up my day immediately :) thx for putting up with me talking abt white men all the time
