Unsent Messages

so you’re probably gonna be like ‘oh this won’t be about me’ but chances are it is so just read this.
u did so much wrong , not just to me but to the other people there.
i know that i was wrong too but i do believe i am a good person and the fact you said such horrible things then chalked them up to anger is realllly shitty.
but in the end, there is nobody to really blame - it was just a heat of the moment anger thing.
i don’t know how much of what you said that night was true and what was just lies due to anger but that doesn’t really matter.
i think what you called me was unfair because i did those things as a distraction from the pain you caused me
i lie awake sometimes completely unable to fall asleep no matter how exhausted my mind and body are.
i hate how you acted, made me feel and the people around you. but that was all in the end- at the time, you made me feel like nobody ever had and like nobody could ever replicate again. i don’t want to give up hope but i think i need to. you are nothing like i’ve ever felt before and i don’t think love is the word because it went beyond. all the happiness you gave me daily has just disappeared and i feel empty and purposeless . i have no motivation without you. i don’t miss the others. i only miss you. i only want you. it will always be you. you are the only person i’ve ever felt this way for.

if you think it’s you text me
i will wait for you until the end of time, until my next life.