Unsent messages to SPENCER

Spencer, i know you most likely wont ever see this because i'm too much of a bitch to send it but honestly i know that love apparently isn't a thing for people our age but i think that's a lie. i'm in love with you. i know you have your flaws but to me you are perfect. i know you don't want me anymore and that you have molly and if your happy i'm glad you are but this is eating at my heart and i miss you so much. i was trying to better myself for you and make everything last because your different and special compared to anyone i have been with. i was trying to fix my mental health and stop using unhealthy coping ways for you, i still am. i was trying to not be as clingy as i usually am and i usually move super fast and have sex within the first month of dating because that's all ive known and thats all guys other than you have wanted and i was so terrified to fuck it up. i really hope you come back to me one day, ill wait as long as i have to.

i thought u liked me but i’m sure you’ve moved on lol. it doesn’t matter anyways cause i never showed interest in u when i actually did

Why did you reach out if you just going to leave me again? Real best friends choose to work it out, regardless of the ups and downs in your relationship. No one is perfect. You will have disagreements with everyone you meet, big and small. But you’re supposed to work it out if you truly care about each other. Communication is key, and I never wanted to argue. I was just trying to understand.

i believe we are soulmates, even though we haven’t dated. i love you, and i know i love you cause i’ve never felt this way about any “crush” before.. i know you probably don’t feel the same but i still think that we are soulmates. i love you. i always will but you will never know.

i believe you’re my soulmate. even though you probably don’t feel the same about me, i love you.. i always will... we haven’t even dated before but i just know we are soulmates... we have to be. i love you but you will never notice that

You're perfect to me. I want you all for myself. Be with me or I'll make your life a living hell. I deserve you.

As much as I try, I still cant get over you. There is something about you that I just cant seem to let go and its killing me.

Hey, idiot. That girl loves you more than you know. Just talk to her. This is just a big misunderstanding. Text her and tell her the truth so you can move forward.

hey it’s Z, you are the only boy i love. and even after everything it’s still only u i want to be with. please come back to me. i have broken up with my past 2 boyfriends because of how much i love and miss you. i pray to god you will come back and we can start fresh. i really want your family to like me again. i’m sorry for how things ended it was all my fault. i’m so in love with you. please come back

I always wanted to be your friend. I was never trying to block you out of my life, I just wanted communication. There’s more to the story than you know, which is why I tried to talk to you about it. I was never trying to make you feel bad. Some things you can’t forgive and forget. However, I cared about you so much I was willing to forgive you and move forward in our friendship. Best friends are supposed to last forever. Can we at least talk?

I always wanted to be your friend. I was never trying to block you out of my life. There’s more to the story than you know, which is why I tried to talk to you about it. I was never trying to make you feel bad. Some things you can’t forgive and forget. However, I cared about you so much I was willing to forgive you and move forward in our friendship. Best friends are supposed to last forever. Can we at least talk?

I love you so much I just want to get back together I miss you, ur literally all I think about, I hope in the future maybe we could be together but a day and a half after we broke up why did u already start speaking to other girls, is that how little you loved me, I just want to be back together with u I miss you and I miss when we were happy together

I know you’ll never see this but I wish you cared about me as much as I cared about you. Best friends are supposed to last forever. Can’t we just talk?

You make me see life in color again. You've shown me what real love actually is. I feel safe with you. I'll be there soon smoosh. I promise.

sometimes i wish i never met you. i wish i didn’t love you. i wish you never held me in your arms and i wish i never knew the sides of you that no one else did. i wish a notification didn’t just pop up on my phone with your name on it. i wish we weren’t just friends now. i wish you could realize everything that has happened with us, isn’t just random. i wish i was yours or i wish we were never anything at all

i hate how I can't ever seem to get over u. u act like you want something with me one day but the next ignore me. i hate u. but i also don't. maybe one day.

I think about you everyday, but I don't love you anymore. Fuck you for making me overthink and cry myself to sleep every night. I didn't deserve that. After you broke up with me, I can finally listen to my music again, and I can be happy again. I thank you for the memories, but I know how I should be treated now. By the way, I'm partly into women now, so i'm going to find myself a princess.

xoxo, have a fantastic fucking life dude.

i miss you so much. this month has been terrible without you. i’m broken and i miss my best friend. come back to me.

you're happy with M and I wish you the best but there is still and will always be a part of me that wishes I was her...

i still think about you a lot..and i still love you. i just wanna know what i did wrong and why you said you loved me back