Unsent messages to OLIVER

i wanna get rid of you and i physically cant bring myself to
this has been the hardest 5 weeks of my life, i never thought we'd go so long without talking and i know the number of weeks is just gonna morph into months and years
i miss you so much i just want you to come back and pretend it never happened so i can have my best friend back
did i mean nothing to you, you said i meant everything to you when did it change
everytime i think i'm getting better and over it i go back to freezing whenever i think about you and everything makes me think about you
i said all the pain was worth it cause i got to be with you and now what
what was it for
just more fuckign pain
god i fuckign hate you
why did you do this to me you said you loved me
i know love exists, i've seen it and i've felt it but i just dont think anyone will feel that for me
i thought you did and we see hwo that fuckign turned out dont we oliver
you stupdi fuckgin abstard
i want to scream at you and hit you and hurt you but i still want to hug you

I know that a few weeks ago we loved each other so much but..for personal reasons I just moved to another city, I cried because of you so many times but now, I'm depressed for my situation of life, so you left me when I needed you the most...

how could you leave so easily? after everything we´ve been through, like it didn´t matter, like i was nothing

i know what happened between us was just a game for you, but i genuinely wanted you. i wish i never became so infatuated with this fake version i created of you. i wish i didnt lie awake at night pondering on what couldve been if you hadve just wanted me back. why didnt you want me? why wasnt i enough? how can i be enough for you? i hope one day you recognise that you lost an abundance of beauty, which is all i am, and all you are not. you are simply just a puppet master with tens of hundreds of girls on strings. i wish i could break free from the ropes you have attached to me, but i know i will always and forever want you. no matter how much it pains and kills me, i still want you.

I dont know how you do it, youre my friend and act like nothing ever happend. Im not mad, im jealous really. But how? We had soooo much, or atleast I think so. Dont you ever just wonder if it woulda been better if we just stayed togheter?

i love you and i miss you but i also hate the way that one day you loved me and the other day treated me like shit

You've hurt me without saying a word, I know its all in my head but it feels real. I love you and I know you love me too but sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough. You have dated girls who are so much more than me in any other way and I wish you could understand that I'm not as pretty or perfect as they are.

I like you a lot . I couldn’t stop think about you all day and all night I would imagine a life with you a guy who would actually like me and guy who smiles and looked at me like nobody else did it made me have butterflies in my stomach I wanted to cuddle with you till the wee hours of the morning watching Netflix I wanted to hold hands with and eat lunch with you and just be wanted.

you make me so happy, i hope we last for a while. you're always on my mind its like u live their for rent free. anyways even doe i never say this, i love you.

du är den första på länge som har gjort så jag har fått fjärlilar i magen. och jag vill att du ska veta att jag kramar om en kudde på natten och önskar det va du

Look, I'm not the best person ever. But I'm nice, kind, funny and will love you. I love everything about you. I cry over the fact that you won't love me, but it's okay, love is overrated ♡

your my first ever love and i cannot imagine myself for being with anyone else... thankyou for saving me

You stopped caring about me, so I did too. I was there for your darkest times and you left me in the dust.

you didn't enjoy hanging out together nearly as much as i did, but we were perfect- our minds matched like a puzzle piece.

You told me I fear emotional connection. Your right I do but you did nothing to help me open up. All I wanted to do was tell you everything and I never did :(

i never cared that i "deserved better." i only ever wanted you. and even now you're still the last thing on my mind before i go to sleep, and the first thing i think of when i wake up. i just want you back.

We are about to be everything and I cannot wait to tell u I like u very much as anyone before.
But, I'll need to wait, I don't want to be the person to make u “forget” ur ex, that doesn't goes that way, no matter that it was always me...

Tú fuiste realmente mi primer amor, aunque nunca llegamos a nada. Sigo pensando en ti siempre, aunque duele todo menos ahora. Espero encuentres a tu verdadera otra mitad algún día. My first and last.

sometimes i think you’re someone i could love. like really. anyways. im sorry i didn’t kiss you on the slide. your chest felt nice tho.

sometimes i think you’re someone i could love. like really. anyways. im sorry i didn’t kiss you on the slide. your chest felt nice tho.

Hi!
I have been trying to figure out what to say to you but there's no other way to say this, I like you. I know we don't know each other like at all but I think we could become something. I don't know why I'm feeling this strongly about you but this feeling makes me believe that this could truly be something great.

Even though you may not even think of me for the slightest second, I think of you every second, and it kills me

Even though you may not even think of me for the slightest second, I think of you every second, and it kills me

You motherfucking eshay dog cunt motherfucker. You are so rude and up your own ass its so ridiculous. You deserve my foot up your ass. But I love you and you were so special to me

You hurt me so badly that at one point, all I felt was numb. I didn’t feel happiness, sadness, or anger, I just felt numb.

You hurt me so badly that at one point, all I felt was numb. I didn’t feel happiness, sadness, or anger, I just felt numb.

when we broke up i realized i had lost feelings for weeks. i realized that maybe it just wasn’t meant to be and that was ok. but i never stopped thinking about you since. when you texted me and apologized, i felt an emotion i could never describe. i wish we could talk every single day but it feels like you don’t want that. that’s fine. i’ll always laugh at your jokes and i’ll always be there if you need anything. thanks for everything

oli, i’m sorry for never letting you see my face. i’m just so insecure and i know you love me but i’m still scared. i hope you can still love me /p

I still remember all your favorite thing and your birthday, even if I wish I could forget. Is it stupid that all I can think abt rn is how much I want to see your face and laugh and smile like I want to be mad sm I tried to hold onto that feeling but I just fucking can't not even bc anger is a tiring or secondary emotion but bc when I do get mad it just goes away and I'm left feeling numb or crying. You were the first good thing in my life for such a long time and it hurts so much to have you still in my life but have to ignore how much you hurt me.

Thank you for teaching me what I don’t want in a man. You hurt me so bad but I will be forever thankful that u were the ass u are

I still love you, it's been 2 years and I still can't let go. I miss you, I know you probably don't even think of me

I liked you a lot I just didn’t have to strength to show you now your with her and I’m even more weak

i know we're best friends but I wish I was the one you were talking about when your eyes light up, like when you're talking about her

i hope you never see this but there will always be a place in my heart for you and ily no matter what

I don’t love you anymore. I hate you. You used me. “I’m gonna f*uck her so hard! I don’t even love her! Haha” fuck you.

Thank you for what we had, I cherished every moment. I’m glad we’re still friends, we don’t talk a lot but I love you. I always will because you changed me and showed me life has meaning

Ol,
I miss you so much and I hope you always remember the love I have for you and always will have for you. You are strong, kind, amazing. never give up on yourself, okay?

I thought you were the love of my life... turns out u weren't and it's okay
I will always love you❤️

your gaze is burnt into my memory. i still make room for you on the bus. i wish we said goodbye, i wish i thanked you. you were a great friend but clearly distraught about something. i hope you got the help you needed. i hope i’ll see you around, though only 10 minutes away, i’m starting to forget your face. fragments of our conversations visit me sometimes, i guess you’ve pitched your camp in my mind for the next while. it’s okay. you know where i am. let’s not be strangers?

hi, i'm scared to tell you i liked you and i know you liked me too. i was just scared to know what will happen after and i also don't want to tell you because i know we won't work.

i hope ure doing well. i wish things didn't end the way they did but it was for the best, you simply didn't care about me and that's ok. we always did bring the worst out in each other, anyways, always rooting for u -

I relapsed I'm so sorry. I wanted to ask to call you but sadly we don't ever call plus there is no way you are awake at 5am

You like her and it hurts me to see her reject you. If you see this just know I would do so much better...

I know you like her but i still like you. It hurts because you’re my best friend and I’m here for u to vent to and you talk about her all the time. I can’t help but get a little jealous and mad that it’s not me. It’s ok though. Im her best friend as well and i know she doesnt like you back at all :)

there’s so much love between us but it’s not the right time. i want you so bad. i think about you everyday- what we could’ve been. you are my sweetest downfall. i hope you’re okay.

when you said to kiss you, did you mean it? I wish i did. I wish a lot of things. Mostly I wish you'd explained what happened.

I didn’t know I could still get excited about things. I still get excited about you everyday. I love you.