Unsent messages to OLIVER
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 11, 2021, 5:14 am UTC
I don’t understand how you could say you loved me so and then hurt me so bad over and over. I don’t understand why you wanted to hurt me over and over. It was a choice you made every single time. And when I realized that it broke me. Pinkies though that I have healed so much since the last time you hurt me.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:01 am UTC
I love you so much. I want to spend years with you. I always dream of being there with you, playing with your hair, and telling you about my day. I just want to be there for you and keep you safe from all the dangers in the world. I just want you to be mine forever.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:09 am UTC
I miss you buddy:( it’s cool tho ig, I hope you know I’ll always be here for you even when she isn’t tho bc I’m an idiot
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 7, 2021, 12:31 am UTC
i wanna be close to u again, i want u to feel the same way i do about you. but you’re happy and i can’t ruin that just for me to be happy.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 6, 2021, 11:08 pm UTC
I don’t know if your still with me but pls stop leaving me on delivered you told me you loved me but then proceed to break me wtf
dude
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 5, 2021, 10:21 am UTC
why did you run from me, at the park? were you scared?
my brother is the age i was, now, when you first asked me out. it makes my skin crawl.
but i think you know how wrong it was. and that's why you ran.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 4, 2021, 7:01 am UTC
i know i messed things up between us because i wasnt in a good place but i love you so much and always will. i think about you almost every day even though its been a year and im sure this will carry on for many more.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 4, 2021, 4:40 am UTC
hi, thank you for cutting my bagel in half. you're kind of annoying but you're funny and look like you give good hugs.don't make me like you or whatever though
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 3, 2021, 5:31 pm UTC
I really did like you for a while. I genuinely thought we would make it through, together. I think we were both messed up though. I spoke about you to my mental health counselor, even now, more than a year later. She says I have trauma. She also says that "it might sound crazy, but maybe, he was a blessing." she justified that by telling me the bad parts of our relationship forced me to grow up. it hurt to hear but maybe she's right. so, thank you. and also? how dare you.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 3, 2021, 7:51 am UTC
I wish you were still alive. I wish you read my last text. I was reminding you of how much I adored you
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 1, 2021, 9:43 pm UTC
i wish I could tell you I’m over it and I promise I’m trying but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t still love you.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 1, 2021, 3:06 pm UTC
i saw a new side of me. you made me want to be better, i never once told you but i love you, from the very bottom of my heart.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 1, 2021, 1:54 pm UTC
I still have a massive crush on you after 6 years. No matter how hard I try, I can’t get over you. This sucks.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 1, 2021, 2:50 am UTC
you lied to me. hurt me. and i hate how it ended but i really had no choice. it was emotionally draining me.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: January 1, 2021, 1:57 am UTC
Pinkies.My first love. 2 years. I would have continued to love you and give you a million chances just so that you would stay in my life. I now realize how one sided that was. And how wrapped up I was in helping you grow - and pushing myself aside. I was all about you-everything for you. Every thought centered around you. Every daydream about the future including you. And yet, you ended up letting me down again. And breaking my heart in the worse way possible. At this point I have realized - I am thankful you showed me how much you didn’t care about me. I am thankful you shattered my heart worse than ever before. Because I would have never walked away from you. Because I loved you so much. And now I can move on to someone that does care. I know I’ll find someone who loves me back as hard as I loved you. I hope you realize one day that I was always there for you. That I stayed with you every time you hurt me. I hope you realize that you walked all over the girl that would have done anything for you. I am leaving you in 2020. I am leaving all of my tears cried over you in 2020. I’m leaving all of the hopes of you coming back in 2020. Pinkies.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 29, 2020, 3:57 pm UTC
I love you still but I’m not Inlove with you any more. I wish we could get that feeling back.
I’m in a better place mentally now, I’d be willing to give it a go. But your too stubborn for that
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 26, 2020, 1:34 am UTC
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I see no reason to live, i have nothing to live for. I dont know you, yet your the one im living for. And i wish i had as much inportance in your life as you do in mine
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 25, 2020, 11:50 pm UTC
even tho we met in seaside, u made the trip sm better and i would def want 2 see u again even tho we live in diff places
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 23, 2020, 10:28 pm UTC
Hi bubs, haha well uh, i love you and i won. ur adorable, i miss u ur my bestfriend and my little lover man
xoxo little turkey
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 22, 2020, 8:01 am UTC
When you told me you liked me I couldn’t hear because of my phone. I texted you telling you I liked you back...you never responded.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 22, 2020, 7:45 am UTC
when did "i can't do this anymore" go from meaning "i can't not be with you" to "i want to break up"?
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 21, 2020, 5:26 am UTC
i know we didn't last long but i can't help but wonder what would've happened if i was enough for you
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 17, 2020, 11:20 pm UTC
i love u, i will always love u. i’m gonna miss u so much, i already do and u haven’t even left yet. i’m empty without you
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 17, 2020, 1:38 am UTC
im sorry for what happened. and im sorry if it was all in my head. but I don't think I've ever liked anyone the way I liked you. you made me feel and I still think about you
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 16, 2020, 8:32 am UTC
I don’t even remember when the last time we’ve talked was. Why did you leave me? Tell me what I did wrong, please. I miss you so much. We were so close and you just disappeared. Please tell me what the hell I did wrong. I want to hate you but I can’t. You’re the first person I have ever had a real connection with, but then you left me hanging. At least come back and say hello. I waited for a message from you every day. Please come back. I miss you dearly.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 14, 2020, 5:29 am UTC
you might not have fallen for me the way i did with you, but just know i would do anything to see your eyes and your smile one more time. i hate the way things ended
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 13, 2020, 5:37 pm UTC
why'd you have to go and become such an ass. u had a lot going for u. i miss the old u, and i loved u.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 12, 2020, 9:57 pm UTC
hi. we haven’t spoken in a while.. i wanted to tell u something and if we see each other again pls don’t let this make it awkward but when we were in primary school i had a hugeee crush on u? was it super obvious lmfaoo??
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 12, 2020, 8:53 pm UTC
I know you're not in love w me but I just wanted to say that your smile, you style, your loving eyes, your character, the smile and motivation you give me is everything and I would do anything to hug you just one time. I love you even though we barley speak to each other ... please never stop giving me butterflies.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:34 pm UTC
I just wanna lay in your arms, smell your sent and look deep into those beautiful eyes of yours, you are and always will be my yellow
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:08 pm UTC
I miss the old you and I don’t think I will ever be able to get the old you back .I miss the excitement I had when I told my friends and family about you. You made me feel a way I’ve never felt before but this is my last goodbye I love you Oliver
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 12, 2020, 12:36 am UTC
te extraño, ni yo sé por qué si nunca hablamos mucho pero de verdad te quiero mucho y aún espero tumensaje
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 11, 2020, 9:33 pm UTC
im sorry. i shouldnt have left you. im just not okay for the moment. im falling everyone. please dont hate me
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 11, 2020, 5:11 am UTC
you were not my first love, but you're the one who impacted me the most. every day I think about you, and I don't think you fully realize how much you still mean to me. you're my entire world.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 11, 2020, 12:43 am UTC
I guess i knew even from the start it was never me but her. I wish yout hadn't lied and gave me hope. There was no reason why i still feel this way about you, god knows id stop it if i could. Now I cant look at your face without butterflies in my stomach that remind me you were never mine, but even though you hurt me without, i think I'm falling in love with someone who understans me. You will always be someone to me but now, I'm starting to get happy so please, block me on everything. I don't have the heart to do so and let me be happy.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 10, 2020, 7:48 pm UTC
you promised you’d love me forever, you were all i had and you knew it. yet you decided to leave anyway.
i’m over you, but if you’d come back one day i would take you back in a heartbeat. and i hate myself for that.
i hate myself for giving you everything, even my virginity.
you even took me on vacation with your family, you were so in love with me wth happened
fuck you anyway
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:50 am UTC
actually nvm i take back what i just said here. UR SUCH A BUTT. DUNNO WHY U AFFECT ME SO MUCH BUT U DO. ANGERY ANGERY ANGERY GRGRGRGRGRGGRGRGRGR SHUT
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 10, 2020, 5:45 am UTC
sometimes i think you're someone i could love. like really. maybe i have since we've become friends. i wouldn't ever tell u. but! maybe you'll catch on someday maybe. i hope so. bc sometimes i think im someone you could really love too. lobe u oliver
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 9, 2020, 10:28 pm UTC
I wish I had realised earlier that the soft spot I had for u was more than that. I wish I was brave enough to tell u how I feel. But most importantly I wish I was ure happiness, not her.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 9, 2020, 10:28 pm UTC
I was so stupid. U were right there in front of me all that time. I was so blind. Im happy ure happy, I just wish I was the reason why.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 8, 2020, 7:02 pm UTC
I love you . I miss us. I was so happy with you. I wish you would come back. you was my world and now you’re gone and I don’t think you’re ever going to come back to me. I miss you.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 8, 2020, 3:23 am UTC
I thought about kissing u today. And the day before that. And I’m not looking forward to doing the same tomorrow. I’m so confused.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:24 pm UTC
after everything you did, i still don't regret it, because now i'll never let anyone do that to me again. sincerely, k.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 5, 2020, 9:13 pm UTC
the only thing I keep trying to tell myself is what's meant to be will be, I don't want you back rn but I can't help but be upset
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 5, 2020, 8:59 pm UTC
you think I wasn't effected but I cry when I realise I don't have you to call at night I cry when I think abt London or queen and slim, the first three to five months were the best and lockdown really ruined us
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 5, 2020, 8:42 pm UTC
it hurts me the most that you moved on after you said you’d wait for me not because i knew whether i wanted to be with you again but that the way you changed how you felt and acted made me feel so alone
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 5, 2020, 8:40 pm UTC
ik i hurt you with what i did but know that it hurts me just as bad i wish we could’ve had more time like we did before lockdown but ik that’s not possible rn
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 4, 2020, 12:50 am UTC
Why doesnt it feel like it should.Why doesnt it feel right,well that's what my gut is telling me.Theres no spark,no connection.What's wrong why cant I commit to this.Its either the fact I'm still stuck on someone else or that I'm too closed off emotionally to be in that kind of relationship. You could change my mind if you want.
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 2, 2020, 5:22 am UTC
i really thought you cared about me but no u didnt, i hope you're happy and have a nice life
oh btw Nina is alright:)
Lola x
From: ABC
To: oliver
Date: December 1, 2020, 8:10 pm UTC
you are my first kiss, my first hug, my first everything but sometimes I think that i'm not your first love.
