Unsent messages to MARCUS

i need you sooo baaad haaa

I'm sorry I can't express my feelings that well, I'm trying.

i want you back i just don’t want hurt like that again

why would you come back and say all that just to leave

Hi baby, i dont know if youll ever see this, but i love youuu

if you cared about me how did you lose feelings so fast?

I’ll be the best you’ll ever have if you let me :(

Wish you'd listen to my side and not end it just like that:( imy

i love you so much marcus

You lost a soulmate due to old habits

Take a chance with me :(

please let me tell you what i meant. i think the world of you

i miss you and the bond we had but i can’t forgive you.

Please take the hints. I wanna be your girlfriend

This is your sign. Call me.

i hate you for what you did but i miss you

i’m still convinced you’re gonna come back for me

I wish you would talk to me more…

i miss you so much, please comeback baby. i need you.

I miss talking to you goose

i keep on telling you i regret what i did last night and that i still love you, but im so glad that i did what i did. i'm sorry bub

you were my first love. i still get butterflies when i hear your name. i still wear your favourite colour when i know i will see you. you will never love me, and that is alright. you are happy with her. you are good and kind and you deserve this. my heart can love you in peace from a distance.

i tried to k myself and you think how i act is all about u. im not the selfish one, u are. is that what u wanted to hear? cause there u go

Hey watermelon sour patch remind me of you still . I’m sorry if I made things awkward and ruined our friendship. I didn’t have a crush on you right away actually btw. I’m over you but I miss you, I wanted to tell you that when we texted. I wish we were friends again

you’ll never see this because you left this Earth already but it kills me every single day that I will never be able to tell you all the things that were left unsaid. I felt ways when I was around you that nobody else has ever made me feel. It still hurts so much. Our memories replay in my mind every single day. I miss everything. It’s not right I wanted to see you do so much more in life. I love you.

you used me, but the feeling you gave me when we were together made me overlook all the bad you had in you.

how did things change so quickly? one night you’re on the phone with me, calling me the love of your life and the next im unadded.

i’m happy without you but i’d be happier with you. just not right now we both need to heal. you’ll always have my heart. please don’t break it, don’t get with another girl straight away (unless your sure that’s what you want). it’s always been me and you since we were young and i hope it will continue that way. i love you my idiot

i'm done thinking about you. you hurt me so many times and kept telling me you'd do better and never did. i thought we were gonna be those friends that last our entire lives, but my life is better without you in it

I didn’t lose you. You lost the only person who really cares for you. You lost the one who would have done anything for you.

it was hard being the only one that fell,because in the end it was the hope I kept for so long that really broke me.Blue just like the sky that night:)

i wish you thought about me as much as i you. those friendly actions seemed to mean a lot more to me then they did to you. comforting me about my dumb insecurities showed me that maybe, just maybe, you’re just a genuinely good person. i wish i wasn’t so ugly. maybe then you would like me a fraction of the amount i liked you.

i miss the old you. the person who’d dance with me whenever a song i loved came on. i want the boy who would bring me flowers and my favourite snack whenever i was having a bad day. i wish that person were still here. but instead it’s been replaced with who you are now, the person who left me for the one person you told me not to worry about. sometimes i wonder if she gets to see the person i fell in love with, i hope she does. however, i want that person back. i want the boy who bought me a ring and promised me forever to hold me.

you really hurt me at the time. you made me think “this is what couples and people do” but it wasn’t. i’m seeing someone so much better who likes me for me and doesn’t pressure me to do anything i don’t want to. he cares about my well-being unlike you.

I know I'm very naive to think we could ever be together. You always said that we were soulmates and that we would be so happy together but distance just makes everything hard, and the fact that you couldn't get over her really hurt me, you kept comparing me to her and it broke me. I know I'm not as good as her but I didn't need to be constantly reminded. I know you won't read that but I love you and I don't wanna lose you.

I understand that you couldn’t choose me over her. You said you loved both of us, but I can see it clearly now... the only problem is that I still love you, but you’re falling asleep next to her.

almost been a year now, every second month when i get my nails done, i get dark blue. it's stupid isn't it? the fact that i still have hope. the fact that every day i think of you knowing damn well shes the one you're thinking about. but hey, youre happy and that makes me happy. i miss you so much, i'll love you forever and always.. i promise.

it hurt me so much when you said her name. i know you didn’t mean to and i know i said i forgive you but it still hurts and i can’t stop thinking about it when i close my eyes.

i fucking confided in you, you knew everything that i had been through and i knew that everything you had been through. I was fucking falling for you and you just left and didn’t even explain why. I told you that i have never told anyone half the shit i told you and you fucking used me. I just can’t let go of you tho...

the way you spoke to me just plays back again and again in my head.i didn't know you were capable of that. I was already lower than low and you really hurt me. I really love you but that all just killed me. You hurt me so bad. I'm in the hospital now but I'm going home soon. Only I think I'm going home to die. I cant get the way you spoke to me out of my head Marcus. It hurts so much. I dont think im going to make it

every time you call me, i will answer without fail. i will always love you. you were the one who got away

you hurt me so much. you left me with nothing but pain. the most painful thing is that I had my first kiss with you and it was one of the best things that I ve ever felt in my entire life.
i know you are a good person after all, but this hurt me af...

I want to talk to you. You won't let me talk to you. You told me to give you time. I'm going to give you time. It's the hardest thing waking up each time thinking about where you are and realizing it isn't last year. But I can do it. I just wish I didn't have to. Sometimes I think you're leaving messages on the quiz I made. But I can't be sure. I can't embarrass myself like that again unless I'm sure. And I can't risk you hating me anymore than you already might. I just miss you.

if you really feel that way, REACH OUT TO ME. APOLOGIZE. actually change and stop being selfish and maybe we’d get somewhere.

You litterally ruined my perception of love. You broke me in ways I didn´t even know was possible. I just want to say thank you. At least now I know what love isn´t.

I just realized you're an asshole. It'll be hard, but it's time to let go. I also don't think I wish you well

its been awhile and you've moved on which I'm glad to see you seem really happy. I know its been almost three years but i cannot stop and think what I did wrong. I'm not sure i will ever get that closer but that's okay. I miss us talking everyday and making jokes. I miss the day we met. when I ran away from you. that day will always be a favourite memory of mine when I think of you. I love you.

Hey, just wanted to let you know that I do care about u still. I know I meet you once a week and don't really seem to even meet your eyes for a second. I know you still feel comfort in me, and thats probably why you still talk to me about things that are happening in your life, the beauty, the sad, the hate och the love. And even though I look away, I care. And I hope the best for you. I believe in you. You hurt me though, more than anyone ever has. I never saw it, living in that hell-type-space, but I see it now and I really do hope that you never do the same damage to other being. You messed up my whole life and I will never be able to take that back. But I do, even though its hard, remember all the fun times we had. How we used to talk, about everything. How we could go for walks for hours and never stop talking. I ofter forget those times, but when I do remember the, I also remember how nice it was. How nice it was having you I my company, even though my mom never liked you, or my dad. I really did, I loved you Marcus, even if it nearly killed me. And they say love love is exhausting, and it is, but I was never tired of you.

at this point, I'm just sorry for myself. i still like you and I'm so ashamed of it, but i'd do anything just to spend one more day with you.

Maybe you were my soulmate and maybe I will always a have a hole the size of you in my heart but I'll also be stuck with the emotionial scars uou left.