Unsent messages to JOEY

idk why u couldn’t just tell me why lol ts is haunting me

i wish you didn’t treat me like a stranger now. i wish i hadn’t have freaked out and broken up with you.

you were the first one i said “i love you” to, but we never loved each other. you were just a way for me to hurt myself.

You weren’t my first love but your were my first something. My first person I really had feelings for and I am forever grateful for that

You couldn't treat me better if you tried. I'm sorry it's hard for me to reciprocate, but i do truly love you.

Maybe i wasn’t good enough
Maybe i did mistakes
Maybe i broke you,me,us
But i loved you more than you’ll ever know

i still listen to the mixtape u made me but now it's only sad memories. i wish we had more time together but u fucked everything up.

I never told you, but I really did love everything about you. Thank you for making me feel as if I were exactly who I was always meant to be.

Why do you still ask around about me ? Do I take it to seriously or is it bc you were the first guy I loved

i like you so much. you’re ethereal and i think i’m in love with you. you’re so amazing and funny and i stay up at night thinking about you. for years every love i have won’t ever compare to what i feel for you now. i wish you felt the same.

I hate that my parents were right about you and her.. but I still can’t bring myself to be upset at you. I genuinely hope you’re happy, I miss our friendship. Our relationship was amazing, but it’s your friendship I really miss...

No still means no even if you’re dating. I’ll never forgive you for not owning up to it and ruining my first time. We were to young for you to do that unprotected and you’re where my fear of men started.

i think about you a lot and how you cut me off with no explanation when we both liked eachother. we were best friends, whyd it have to end?

I want to be with you forever but it won’t happen. I should be scared it won’t last forever, but I’m not. I’m already at peace with the fact that we might break apart tomorrow or in years.

It's been three years and there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about you. I miss you more than anything, even though you were an asshole to me. I wish things ended on a better note. I hope your current relationship is going well. Wishing the best for you always.

I saw a message under my name saying “I’m always here for you”. I really hope it’s from you, but I’m afraid I’m hoping too much. I hope it is you

Friendly reminder that your paranoia is right, everyone IS lying and does hate you, and they're going to leave you one day. Kill yourself to avoid it. (:

I loved u so much. I would have done anything for u to stay but u wouldn’t have done the same for me.

i know you get upset and pull away at times, but i wanted to help. i tried being there for you, saying good morning or something nice, but you never responded and just pulled away. everything was fine, but why? was i suddenly annoying or bothered you? but then why Christmas?

I think about you a lot. I can’t help but wonder what we would have if things were different. Maybe in another life I guess.

i've been in love with you for nearly five years, and you still play a big role in my life, as big as you once did years back. i wish you loved me as much as i love you. but im just so grateful that we're friends.

I look for you everywhere I go. You’re always in my mind and heart. I will always love you, and miss you terribly.

if you're reading this yeah its about you I really wish that you could choose me over them but its okay I know you're just going to hurt me in the end I don't care about that as long as you'll talk to me forever

I fucking hate you so much, we used to be so close but now we aren’t and you are choosing to be a bitch. Hope to never see your dumb ass again. Wish you the worst ;)

They said the best friendships started with us hating eachother, and that’s how it started and 7 years later that’s how it ended, actually i don’t hate you, i don’t think i ever could but the way you hurt me is unforgivable and you blamed everything on me when you could’ve told me what was happening with you. I cried every night and that make up call made me want to end it all. A big piece of me died when you didn’t seem to care that our friendship was over. I needed you more than ever this year and you were gone, I don’t think i can ever forgive you for those texts and what you said. I’ve left all hope behind, that’s all.

3000 miles away and we still managed to fight everyday. I’ll never be able to explain why I still miss you to this day.

3000 miles away and we still managed to fight everyday. I'll never be able to explain why I still miss you to this day.

I don’t think you realize how much I care for you. I met you not too long ago, but I think i’m starting to catch feelings. And i’m lowkey embarrassed bc i know you don’t like me back. But it’s okay. Ily as always, n I cant wait to see you

I don’t miss you anymore but I’m still in love with the idea of us and how it could have worked out but didn’t

you were my happiness and helped me with what i was going through and still u left me without any warning just up and left knowing how bad i could get again because of you i’m stuck in this hole again

remember that night coming back from boa where we were both texting each other at 3 am, looking out the dreary windows of the coach bus with our friends asleep on our shoulders? i wish we could text like that again.

Honestly, I thought were meant to be and some part of me still thinks it. I don't ever want to say this to you but I wish I could know if you ever felt the same.

I love you so much. We don’t talk anymore but any interaction stays on my mind for days. I hope that in time we see each other again. I know that you moved on. and i did too. but you truly showed me what it was like to be appreciated. I still love you, you might not think about me or whatever. But i really do hope you make it out. I hope you accomplish your dreams and put our city on the map.Sounds corny ik yada yada yada. But i really would like to see you again. your hugs are the best. it’s weird cause i was looking forward to you telling me happy bday and w/e and now i keep rereading it. i’m always one call away. i’ll always be here for you. i hope that someday if we do meet again i get to tell you. It sounds dumb but it would be nice to just sit and talk about everything. if you ever find this it will be a miracle. but overall i just wish you the best. May the universe have so much in store for you. love you always.

I hope the things everyone’s told me about you since we’ve broken up aren’t true, but it’s hard not to believe them these days... starting to forget you. I wish you would’ve saw what was right in front of you. I want to know what she has that I couldn’t give you, hope you’re doing well even if the rumors are true. Miss you. #bluepencil

i don’t know if the thought of me and what could’ve been crosses your mind. i don’t know if you even give one single fuck about me. you’re still constantly on my mind, i just got better at hiding it. it still doesn’t make sense to me. was i really anything to you other than a chance to have a girlfriend? i know what i did wrong and it’s my biggest regret but no matter how long we’ve gone without talking and how long we decide to ignore each others existence, i still love you and care about you. i would still do anything for you. i don’t know if we’re ever going back to how we were. the sad thing is i still have hope we will even after everything i went through after you chose to throw away 3 years for someone you barely know. what’s wrong with me? everyone made it so hard on me when i would hang out with you or even talk to you but i just ignored it because i really liked you and i’ve never met anyone like you. i had a special connection with you but i’ll never know how you felt. i wish we could’ve actually told each other. i wish you luck and i want you to be happy, but not with her.

If we had gotten one more night together before you ruined it, I would have told you something like this... “ I know that you’re going to live such a beautiful life and be so genuinely happy it’s unreal. you’re gonna be so successful in all aspects of your life and you’re gonna have a gorgeous wife who you’ll love more than life itself and probably few kids running around who will bring you such joy. i also know that uou are so smart and you have so much potential and such a good heart, you really do. and you are so deserving of all these good things that are gonna come your way. the world truly isn’t ready for all that you have to offer it.” Part of me is glad I never got the chance to tell you this because even though I still think it’s true, you don’t deserve to hear it from me.

I know we haven't spoke in a while, tell Alice I say hi. I miss you, but I know you don't love me back again. Because you never did.. If I could go back in time, to our first kiss, or our first sleepover, or even the time we sat on a tree over the river I would without hesitation. Every moment with you felt like heaven and i miss it. I miss YOU... if only you didn't lie to me for a reason to break up with me. If only you didn't start being distant. If only you was honest... I'm sorry I loved you.
Goodbye again.

we shouldn’t have ended like this. We shouldn’t have ended. your promise u made was broken by YOU. how do you think that makes me feel. I feel great. Your name makes me sick to my stomach and idek why.

hey man, i just wanted to know if your alright, i really miss you and i miss the old days, come back please..

The first night I met you we stayed up talking til 5am, then fell asleep on the floor. I’ve loved you ever since. [k]

i miss you so much. i watch you move on everyday and it hurts me terribly. maybe if we just tried a little harder... i love you "cutie".

I truly believe that you are the one for me. You understand me completely. I'm sorry that I blew it last summer and I know we have a good thing about being friends now but I just miss you so much. You treated me like a person. A real living person. You mean so much to me, more than I mean to you that's for sure. I wish I knew back then how I know I feel now. I wish I wasn't so afraid of being vulnerable and intimate. Anyway, I'll always be here for you. I swear -

sometimes i think about what would happen if both of us now, as 2 different people, got back together before i remind myself that u never changed.

thank you for coming into my life. you saved me and i can’t be more thankful for you. i’m so blessed. i love you more than anything. you’re my entire world

I will never forget you. Ever. I wish you appreciated me more and I’m sorry for everything I did in spite of that.

i remember our first kiss wasn't perfect but it's always going to be my best memory of us, we've both moved on and i wish things wouldn't have fallen off the way they did. It didn't feel like this was supposed to happen.

It’s difficult for me to feel comfortable. I never thought you’d hurt me, yet you did. now I think everyone close to me has bad intentions.

PLS why are all the boys named joey toxic I went thru to find the ones I wrote for him and jesus theyre all the same huh LMFAOOOOO

I’m proud of us for getting cutest couple in highschool. We were the cutest. I forgave you a long time ago, please take care of yourself

i used to think everything was your fault but we were both bad for eachother, nonetheless, 11 months with you were fine. i know im not a good person. i was toxic, and you were in love with someone better for you. im glad you two are happy, i hope its not toxic or anything.