Unsent messages to JOEY

i know i ended it but i still want to talk to you? i fucking miss you so bad but you considered leaving me for another girl. you're shit but i still love you.

hey. i know this is weird and that it really doesnt make sense but ive been thinking about sending this for a while now so please just bear with me. i really fucking like you and i know i shouldnt but i do. i never knew where i stood with you or what we were but oh my god joey, i cant get you out of my head. I pray every night hoping you'll one day choose me over her but now I'm just another one of your failed hoes in the background of your phone. Just one chance. I just wanted one chance to be with you. I know it probably doesn't matter anymore and that I need to get over it but i cant. please understand this and maybe youll want to reconsider me in the future. you and i both know how good i can treat you. just one chance is all i want.

you make me so so so mad, the worst part is that i know you use me but there is always a bit of hope that its not true. I always convince myself that its not true because I cant admit that you actually dont care about me. Im so tired, so tired. I just want you to appreciate me.

wow i havent talked about you in a while. i kinda just wanted to forget you because of the big impact you had on me. i think you were the first person i was "in love" with. i never really felt that strong vibe from anyone until i met you. i thought you were the one and i guess not. i feel like if you wouldve made more of an effort, we couldve still had something. then again, you have a completely valid reason on why you left. i totally get it. but fuck man. i really liked you. i could be truly myself with you and i have never felt that with anyone and i mean that. your humor, your laugh, you you you you. that was once mine. now its not and i have realized that. i guess this is my final goodbye and i will not feel anything next time i see anything of you. a step in the right direction. thanks for the memories. goodbye joey.

whew you are one toxic mffff. you are also HELLA a catfish! you did not deserve to be treating me the way you did. you are a dick. im VERY glad that you acted way different in person at the zoo than you did over social media. thank god. i dodged a bullet.

i can’t tell if i miss you or if i’m fine without you. i’m either perfectly fine or i’m absolutely miserable without you. i don’t miss you i miss the way you said my name. i always hated my name till you said it.

It’s been over a year and I can’t seem to get you off my mind. After everything you’ve done I would still take you back in a heart beat if you ever wanted to. I wish you hadn’t done all of that. I thought you were my one...

i’m in love w u lol.
i wish u didn’t have a thing w meg. all i wanna do is cuddle and watch xmas movies

thank u for making me happy and smile every time u snap me ur the only person who makes me truly happy even if ur being a dick i still love u ❤️

how many people have you done this to? i know i wasn’t the first and i’m positive i won’t be the last.

i almost fell for you once. it felt like we were partners in crime. but as time goes on ive become afraid of you. intelligent as shit manipulative scum. i hope you bask in whatever chaos and pain your schemes create.

i still cant decide if you really are manipulative on purpose or if youre just accidentally toxic and truly dont understand. you are a genious. you are so smart. i know youre capable of orchestrating everything. but i want to believe you. please try harder. i dont know how much longer i can hold on to you. be better.

i hope you know who i am. i hope you know that ive known youve been in the wrong from the beginning. ive just been too weak to leave. i know youve baited me into telling them about you during fights youve had with them. at first glance you look like wonderland but deep down youre just twisted.

YOU are the manipulative one. youve hurt so many people. youve constantly gaslit me and i wish i could break away from you but i cant. we were really close once. why cant it just be like that again?

You made me understand what real love is and i’m grateful for that. hopefully we get married cause i love you too much to let you go.

I wish you the best luck on your date. It tears me apart that you don't know I'm still not over you - one of your best friends

i’ll love u forever lol i miss u every fucking day i known u couldn’t give a single fuck ab me but i’m so in love w u it physically fucking hurts lol

being with you was when i felt safe, ever since you left i cant escape the darkness. your my first love. im afraid i wont ever find such a whole and genuine relationship again. being with you felt like that split second of peace when you wakeup. when everything's calm and none of your worries become reality yet. i miss you bubs.

You saved my life more times than I can count. I love you more than should be humanly possible. I pray for you without ceasing and I hope that one day you find your way back to me. You are the love of my life. It’ll always be you for me...

i hate that i can’t hate you. i hate that you have everything with her that we were gonna have. i hate how i can’t hate you but hate her when it’s not her fault.

Even now, after all this time. My future still has you front and center. I hope you can still see me in yours.

You broke me. I loved you and it was the longest relationship I had ever had. It only lasted 1 year and 7 months, I was the one who ended it. You cheated on me once and lied to me saying that she came onto you. I trusted you even when I found out you were the once who came onto her and said you would fix it and change your ways. I believed you and stayed with you until I caught you in bed with another girl. I thought you were the one and I'm finally getting better. Goodbye Joey.

I like how were my 6'7 teddy bear before, now its too late to have you again anyways. you're taken...

I like how were my 6'7 teddy bear before, now its too late to have you again anyways. you're taken...

thank you for being around for some difficult parts of my childhood, even if we never spoke about it. i hope to see you again sometime soon.
love from a

you were the one who always had my back, my first true love, you put me in my happiest self, you taught me to grown as a person. being with you always put a smile on my face. I could never justify my feelings for you, they were just so strong and unbelievable. falling in love with you was unspeakable, that feeling like was so amazing. I always knew you would have a piece of my heart.

You were always too good for me and I took advantage of that, I'm so glad you're able to be yourself and I'm sorry for being so hopeless,, no one has ever loved me as hard or as amazingly as you. Do you remember the first Christmas we spent together? I do.

joey, tonight, right now, would be the most perfect time to be with you. just because i can’t sleep and i know that if i couldn’t sleep and i was next to you, you would try and comfort me, and if that didn’t work we would watch something or i would watch you play games because i like seeing you happy. or you would just sit there with me holding my hand bc that’s how you are. if only we were together. but you didn’t choose me.

I’m sorry for failing you. I’m still in love with you to this day. I still have hope we will start over again in the future. I can’t say goodbye yet.

I really did care about you... you just weren't ready for anything. not one day goes by that i dont think about you

you are such a good person whether you realize it or not. don't underestimate yourself. you matter so much and you my homie.

i hope you know that no matter how many times we say fuck off or i hate you i'll always love you and wish we could start over

I miss you so much. We wanted to be together but the universe didn't want us to. I hope we cross paths soon. I love you forever.

Why did you hurt me ? Out of everyone u played why did u always have to come back and leave me confused I thought we had something, I'm still hurting but I have to let u go now..

I hope you know that sometimes you make my life a bit easier to handle. You’re such a nice person. Thank you.

I feel like you’re such a genuine and kind person. I really hope I can learn more about you. Wishing for a lot of memories with you. :)

You’re a dumbass for still thinking about them when it’s almost been a year. Just delete those songs off your playlist

the I love you mean more than you think. I'm not allowed those thoughts though. they always find a way in anyway.

maybe you were the one. we don't fit like we used to. you got mean. military changes you I guess. it's okay. I forgive you. I'm sorry, too. I'm not the person I was either. I will always miss you. always my penguin. I hope you get to follow your dream. Im glad I didn't hold you back. please be happy

Nevermore. No more messages. No more feeling. Our love has been dead a long time. No more wishing. No more mourning.It all stops today.

Every person who falls in love with me so quickly... makes me angry you couldn’t and we spent years trying... I hate that I wish it was you... and it never ever will be. I hate that I close my eyes wishing you’d come back and you never really cared...

You hid the truth and told lies...you blamed me when all along it was you. You can’t love someone with a revolving door.

After everything I know... finding out it wasn’t real for you.. why are you still haunting my dreams?

every time i’m with you all my problems go away. you make me so happy and i want to be with you forever. i feel like i’ve finally found the person i can be myself around and you are the person i want to be with 24/7 u have honestly changed my life and you are exactly what i needed in my life and i love you for that

i wish i’d danced with you when you asked me to

and asked if you were okay when you teared up at the end of the film

i wish i’d said and felt what i meant
i wish i hadn’t put a wall up, because that isn’t like me

feeling comfortable was so alien, i let myself hang around in space
and now it’s too late

im so happy you found someone, i really am, and i hope she gives you all these things.
you’ll probably forget about me, or already have

but i wish i could tell you how much you mattered to me

i miss what we had. we’re complete strangers now. you have another girl now. we haven’t talked since last year, and all i want to do is just call and ask if you’re doing okay. i’m sorry my depression got bad. i love you forever and always joey. i’m sorry.

I failed you. im sorry i went left you out of nowhere, i did love you. by the time i got back you had a girlfriend already and that crushed me.

you are the only person in the world who gives me hope for myself. I don't know what to do without you here.

i'm terrified that now you've gone again I won't be important to you anymore, and I'll never be as good as your other, better friends. I miss you so much.

i loved you and you left me. i’m doing fine without you but i fucking hate you for making me how i am now.