Unsent messages to JESUS

You took something from me that i cherished, because of you i now view myself as nothing but a useless object.

Why? Why did you leave me when you know I need you? why break my heart once again? Why did you stop fighting for us? Why ?...

you loved me in a way I have never been loved before. I can feel our love slowly fade and it honestly hurts so much, knowing there is nothing I can do. I will always love you and be thankful for you.

I got scared, I'm sorry I hurt you. But I never stopped loving you. I hope life treats you well, and I love that we can still be friends.

i hope you miss me and regret getting your dick sucked by another girl. i know you dont and thats the worst part.

i've been in love with you for months now and i'm sorry i didn't admit to it, im still afraid of my own feelings but thank you for showing me how to love

Yo sé que quizás te soy indiferente, pero esa indiferencia mi corazón no la entiende y sigue siendo un traidor que late por ti.

I got tired of begging you to love me. If you were to come back to me tomorrow and love me the way I love you, I would take you back.

Hablábamos bastante tiempo por las noches, nunca pudiste confiar en mi, nunca te vi de una manera como pareja pero creo que el problema en la amistad eras tú y no yo, abre los ojos, no te odio, ese es el problema

I think I actually did love you. Thinking back on it you really where so kind and sweet to me. I cherished all the times we had, however brief it was that we where together i enjoyed every second of it right up to the end. I think i realized i loved you when we where laying on the red couch watching invader zim on your phone. It was so mundane and unspecial but i felt so safe and happy and loved just laying in your arms. I've moved on, finally almost a year later. It still hurts me that you said we couldn't be friends. I made such an effort for you, I knew times where tough for you, but I told you how tough they where for me too. I told you I had been up all night while my mom was in the hospital and just seeing you or even having a boring little convo on snap would have made that long night just a little more bearable. But no. you did what you always did. Ignored me and treated me like an annoying pest, I was up for 48 hours, in a hospital parking garage unsure if my mother was okay. But why would you care? We where never friends in the first place. I was just some bitch you would fuck right? I can't imagine you seeing me any other way. You hurt me so much that I didn't think anyone could ever love me. I was convinced you ruined me others. I was unlovable. Useless. I see now that you where probably heart broken from someone that came before me. You want something that i do not have to offer or that no one can. I hope you're doing well and that you end up with all you desire. Eat some real food, you cant survive on hot chips and monster.

you were my best friend, i had so much love for you. thank you for believing in me and helping me get out of a dark place all those years ago. part of me hopes you'll see this, know who it is, and reach out but the other part hopes you never do because i don't even know what i would say after all this time. we're strangers to each other now but you'll always have a place in my heart.

you were my best friend, i had so much love for you. thank you for believing in me and helping me get out of a dark place all those years ago. part of me hopes you'll see this, know who it is, and reach out but the other part hopes you never do because i don't even know what i would say after all this time. we're strangers to each other now but you'll always have a place in my heart.

I spoke to you with my eyes thinking you’d notice but never did . I miss the good mornings and when you’d look me in the eyes. You can’t imagine how happy I was when you came back after 2 weeks..I missed you so much I ask about you but I always seem to bother you . I tried my best to always help you , think of you & reach out. I promise I won’t do that anymore .I have to stop thinking your this nice quiet guy. Your not mean , your just not interested I get it . I thought there was something idk what but we always would run into each other and I’d always hear your name I get it we work together but still I thought us running into each other was a sign that maybe you liked me too. I don’t think that anymore you’ve made it clear you don’t want my negative energy . You made me cry that day , you hurt my feelings I would never try to be mean to you .I just wanted you to know that I would’ve risked it all for you.

ᴵ ᵏᵉᵉᵖ ᶜʰᵉᶜᵏᶦⁿᵍ ᵐʸ ⁿᵒᵗᵉˢ ʰᵒᵖᶦⁿᵍ ᵘ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᵗᵉˡˡᶦⁿᵍ ᵐᵉ ᵘ ᵐᶦˢˢ ᵐᵉ. ʸᵒᵘ ᵒⁿᶜᵉ ᵗᵒˡᵈ ᵐᵉ ᵗᵒ ʷᵃᶦᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ʸᵒᵘ. ᴮᵘᵗ ᵘʳ ʷᶦᵗʰ ʰᵉʳ ⁿᵒʷ ᵈᵒ ᴵ ᵏᵉᵉᵖ ʷᵃᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍˀ ᴵ ᵐᶦˢˢ ʸᵒᵘ.

Lord please I beg let me let the thought of him go. He consumes my mind and heart, in both a lovely and harmful way. I cannot see his purpose in my life. Please let me let him go.

everyone tells me you aren't for me and i'm not for you, but no matter what, i try to convince myself there will never be anything between us but my heart still wants you. i try looking for other guys but they're just not you :/

I loved you whole heartedly Fermin.....You were my person.... I was here while you were off doing your thing...I cried over you because you kept putting me off.....you ruined me and you went with the girl who you knew wanted to ruin me and my reputation....and you helped her.......I’d still take you back....if you reach out to me I would run back to you I would leave my boyfriend for you.....I would be yours in a second but you don’t want me....

It just passed two months since you died. I'm so sorry you felt like that was your only option, I wish you would have talked to me about things and let me help you. You should have been here for us to turn 18, you were my best friend and I wish you were here right now, but I'll see you again someday. I love you and I'm sorry

Why did you act like you cared if in the end you were just gonna leave... I miss you and I regret getting used to you...

You don’t need to be afraid of what happens after goodbye. I’m happier now. Despite everything I wish for the best for u even when it’s without me.