today a year ago I realized that I was falling for you and hard...
but the you I saw in my eyes was what I wanted to see the good overpower the bad.
there wasnt much baby tho but think back to those little moment we had makes me sad i thought me and you would be something more than friend but that the thing from you point of view i was the girl you sat next to in math. it fucking hurt to say it still since i was so foolish. Today one year later some how your slowley crawling back in to my life when i just want you out goodbye,
Jackson

i miss u. i miss your smile and i miss hearing your laugh and your voice. i miss the way u used to joke with me. i miss when u used to call me your love and your everything. i miss the way u always made sure i ate something that day because u knew how hard it was for me. i miss u telling me about your day and how practice was. why did u leave? what did i do? u told me u loved me more than anything in this world, was that a lie? if u love someone that much, how could u leave them? i still pray for u and your family every night. i pray you're well and happy. i pray we find our way back to each other, because i really think you're the one i'm supposed to be with. i wonder how often u think of me, or if u ever do. sometimes i wonder if u left because your friends told u to, i don't think they ever really liked me. sometimes i wonder if our relationship was a joke to u, and u didn't really think i was beautiful and u didn't really love me, but if it was a joke why would u tell your parents about me? we used to talk about our future together and u told me how it's gonna be hard for u not to cry when u see me walking down the aisle on our wedding day. we planned on having four children, two boys and two girls because u always wanted a brother and your sister always wanted a sister. u would get scared when we would talk about having children because u are terrified of being a terrible father and not being able to be there for your kids. i know i shouldn't, but i still look back at our old conversations. reading through our texts, i remember how i felt in the moment. i remember blushing and smiling like an idiot when u told me u loved me for the first time. i remember the butterflies i felt the first time u called me your baby. i wish i could feel like that again. every night, i look through the pictures i have of u that i can't bring myself to delete. u have the most perfect smile i have ever seen, even though u hate it. i miss looking at your dimples and your cute little nose. i miss everything about u. they say if u love someone u have to let them go and if they really love u, they'll come back. i have a gut feeling that you'll come back to me, but if you don't, i wish u nothing but the best. u deserve endless amounts of love and happiness and if it's not me who gives it to u, i hope u find an amazing girl who will. i want to hate u for breaking my heart, but i can't. i could never hate u. i've loved u since the day we met and i will never stop loving u.

i fell in love with you at 11, and here we are. i miss you please come back but im glad youre doing well. i love you.

Despite you live 6000km away from me, I’m sure you are my soulmate. I hope we talk again soon. Te extraño

Despite you live 6000km away from me, I’m sure you are my soulmate. I hope we talk again soon. Te extraño

Despite the fact that you live 6000km away from me, I’m sure you are my soulmate. I hope we talk again soon. Te extraño

why did you leave me? what happened? im so confused and i just want to talk to you. please come back i miss you. :()

Jackson it hurt that you never reciprocated the feelings, but at least I know I made you laugh at some point in your life.

your'e back again but it doesn't feel like you wanna be. i just wish i didn't have to dream about u being mine. you said u would love me forever, what happened? why did u listen to them and leave me..?

I still think about you and what we would be like after 6 years together... if I hadn’t been so stupid I would know. I’m sorry.

I never thought I would love you because you were my best friend and you never thought of me that way, then one day you saw her and never looked back to see me becoming just memories in the back of your head.

i loved you but you kept pushing me away, you told me you do that on purpose to not get hurt but that just hurt me in the end.

ik your dating lily now, but i wish you weren’t. even though i might have said not now that didn’t mean not ever. it hurts a lot.

i love you but i wish you would understand i can't be with you right now. i don't want to hurt you anymore.

I really like you and i see us working out in the future (: I hope you feel the same. Even already I feel like i can be myself around you. ?

Your never gonna see this but I’m gonna write it anyway. You were my first love. Maybe just my first attachment idk. I left you because I saw you weren’t happy and I hated to see you like that. I knew you couldn’t get better if I was in your life. I let you go to grow yourself in hopes that we could reconnect in the future. You got with a new girl 4 days later. I’m over it now but I’m ngl that hurt me a lot. The things you said to me were things I never thought I’d ever hear you say. And you let me apologize for being hurt by those things. You were manipulative and cold and just needed someone to fill the void inside you that you didn’t want to fill yourself. I genuinely have no hate or anger towards you anymore. I’m completely indifferent about the situation. I wish you the absolute best in life and I hope you can fix your issues and grow yourself. You just don’t deserve a place in my life anymore. Your always have a place in my heart though. Goodbye Jackson.

i know there are better things out there for me but I can't seem to let u go. my heart skips a beat when u call.

hey, jackson. i know life is hard. i wish i could be there for you. it was hard seeing you fall in love with emma while i was in love with you. i wish i had just a chance. i’ve loved you for two years now and my heart still aches at the sound of your name. i feel like we’ve drifted a lot but i guess it’s whatever.. i wish you knew that i would do just about anything for you. sometimes i stare at my ceiling and think about our memories. it hurts so much but i hope you’re happy even if it’s not with me. even just being in your presence is enough. i wish you knew. i’m too scared to tell you. i tried bringing up homecoming because i want to go so bad with you but you asked me how to ask emma. and it hurt.. a lot. i tried to laugh it off but it’s too strong. i love you. maybe i’ll be yours in another life.

hey jackson, i’m sorry about everything. ik things probably won’t go back to the way they were but i’m sorry.

you broke me. high school was hell because of you but a piece of me will always love you. and i just don’t know why.

I didnt know that me getting myself hurt would cause all of this but im glad that we are atleast talking now and i know i was a stupid person back then but ive changed now and i wanna try to fix what i did and try it again

i should despise you but i don’t i love you and i always think of you but ik you only think of her and i wish i could say i’m happy for you but i’m not bc you’re happy w out me :/

You were my first love. And I’ve loved you since. I really thought we’d be able to make it work this summer but we couldn’t and I think that’s ok. All I wanted in this life was for you to be happy. And if something happens I’m always here. And I’ll always love you

You were my first love. And I’ve loved you since. I really thought we’d be able to make it work this summer but we couldn’t and I think that’s ok. All I wanted in this life was for you to be happy. And if something happens I’m always here. And I’ll always love you

I just don't know why I have never been good enough for you or for us to be together. I wish I could change that.

I don't know if you're just my friend, or if I'm in love with you, but I wanna be by your side forever.

i love you. not romantically, but platonically, or wherever the place in the middle of the two is. i would do anything for you. i want to know everything about you. i want you to trust me and want to be around me. i want so much more than what we have. i know you probably don’t want that, and it’s okay. i just hope one day i’ll tell you how i feel.

hi j this is obviously hk i just wanted to check up on you. i hope you´re doing well. call me when you get this.

you told me i was too difficult to love. you told me i had too many problems and you just couldn’t deal with them. you told me loving me was like a full time job. imagine how i feel. i’m the one who has to deal with myself every single day and i’m the one who has to love myself or else i’ll simply just fall apart and die. you told me i wasn’t trying hard enough to be happy. when i was doing all that i could just to keep myself alive for you. fuck you.

Fuck you. you broke me after you promised you never would. i apologized for your mistakes. i hate that i still love you

You’re the first person I’ve had a connection with since my ex. I pray things work out. You’re amazing.

i’m so tired. so fucking tired. wish it was from staying up all night to talk to you like we used to.

i wish you liked me as much as you seem to like her. i wish i was good enough for you but i’m not and i need to accept that you only want me for my body.

hey i havent spoken to you in a while, but i just want to say that i miss you. i miss you so much. i miss us being together, i miss us talking us even being in each others lives. at the start of this "thing" i was confused, no-one has liked me and wanted something like you did, i was unfazed but then i realised. i really felt loved and safe with you, im sorry i let my nerves and in-experience get in the way because i know if i were able to, we would be in a different spot to where we are now, or at least where i am. i miss your touch, your smile, the effort you put in to me whether it was a text, something you said or even just a small gesture. i know it was a long time, i knew i didn't put in half as much effort as you did but just know i regret every moment . everytime i see you my heart drops, memories come back and i wish it were different. i want to be yours, im ready. im sorry, about everything, for even wasting your time i was just un-sure if what you felt or what you wanted was real as i had never had someone want to be with me, or even like me, the way you did. i hope soon, or one day we could get back to that, start over.

you finally made me feel alive. I was so happy. why'd you have to leave. I told you everyone that comes in my life leaves and you told me you never would. you lier

I wish I would've listened to everyone. I should've listened to you when you said people never change. I hate you so much but I miss you.

I wanted to be there for you but I dont how to be and I am tired of waiting for you to care for me the way that I care for you. I love you with all my heart and thats what hurts the most.

You were the first guy I ever truly liked. I still walk by you every day, but it’s not the same anymore. We’ve both changed and grown, some ways for the better, and some for the worst. I miss the butterflies I got when you looked my way or said my name, but I know that I was childish back then. I know you’ll never read this, but I hope you’re doing well.

sorry i fucked up so many times. you're better than me in so many ways. i'm jealous that you've figured out what you want. maybe at least we can be friends.

Sometimes I think of how much had to happen for us to meet, how many stars had to align and all the infinite factors that went into it. I wonder how long it took for the universes plan to finally work. How did I manage to be there at the exact same spot as you, at the exact same time looking at the exact same view with the exact same thoughts. I’m so lucky I got the opportunity to love you and I don’t know if I’ll ever stop.

Im sorry I messed it up - I was just insecure and overwhelmed. Id do anything to go back to those days

you were most definitely not my first love, i realize that now. but i still think abt you sometimes. not necessarily miss you because i also realized that i made most of the memories up of what i wish would’ve happened. i just hope you’re doing okay and allie is doing good too. i miss her.

I miss you and I miss being loved by you. He isn't as good as you, no one will be. I hope you're happy with her, I'm sorry I broke your heart.
xZ

i thought you were different, i though this one would work out. but instead you turn on me, i fell for you smile, your laugh and the way your face lit up when i just started giggling. i miss talking to you so much, this is my fault for messing things up. none of this is your fault and i hope you don't feel bad at all, i want to tell you so many things. i want to tell you i miss you. but deep down i know i'm doing the right thing, no matter what i did. you never changed and that will always be something i will think about. i hope this world shows you nothing but the beauty of it because that's what you deserve. you may have not treated me the way i wanted, or at least given me a little sense of respect. but i guess this is where we leave all those conversations. i miss you, but this is where it ends for us. so long jackson

I barely remember that period of time, but I remember parts of you before you left. I wish you had stayed.

You were always so perfect, but in the most complex way. Although it hurt, I chose to stay friends with you rather than open the possibility of losing you by telling you how I felt. In the end, you left anyway and I wish I would told you in case that would change your mind.

I haven't seen you in a year but i still remember the last time i saw you at that foot ballgame. i still remember the shirt you were wearing. what you said as you best friend scored a goal, your smile as she walked by, the smell of your cologne as i walked by and passed you for split second, i miss you, you destroyed me, you drained my psychically and emotionally. i thought you were really gonna be the one i ended up with but things change i guess. Even after all you've done to me if you would turn you head back at me in the slightest angle i would find myself falling again. I miss you.
love, t

When I see you all I think of is what i did. when I talk to you all I wanna think is what you could've done.

i don’t know when my name got replaced with hers in all your social media’s. i don’t know when you took my pictures down to put hers up. i don’t know why you didn’t want to try to make it work with me. i don’t know when you decided i wasn’t good enough. all i know is i still miss you.

i think im finally over you. even after you said we could be friends you never talked to me again. thanks. i was better off without you. oh also... different = bad if you know what i mean. ill take my soul back thank you :)