Unsent messages to ISAIAH

I wish we could start over, i miss you but you moved on and i should too but its hard. You broke me so much and you just don't care, i shouldn't be surprised. For now, goodbye.

i miss you more and more everyday. i believe we are the definition of right person, wrong time. everything reminds me of you and i wish i could just talk to you. you might have not noticed but i did like you so so much. it crushed my heart when reality set in and i realized i wouldn’t see you or talk to you again for a good amount of time. i fell in love with you. i am in love with you. but its too late. it truly hurt me that you decided to go to other girls and lied to me about it. you didn’t even want to talk about it or fix anything you just went and told them you liked them and pretty much the same things you told me which completely crushed me. hopefully when you’re mature and ready for me God will put us back in each others life. it truly sucks bc as soon as i was ready for you and to try things w u it was too late and you were gone. one day i hope to get the closure we both deserve or to be part of your life forever. we have so much potential for a relationship but the timing and everything was just so wrong and you weren’t ready either. i love you and i hope you’re doing good and i hope you like your new school and make new friends. if we don’t reunite like i hope to, i hope you get everything you want out of life and grow your relationship with God. i love you so much and i just want you to mature and not treat women like objects. you’re a good person and ik it, just watch who you surround yourself with they have a big impact on you and everything you do. don’t lie, be honest. i love you and i miss you.

i'm still in love with you. we may be soulmates but it wasn't meant to be. our relationship was the definition of "right person, wrong time."

everyone thought we were great but then we were bad, everyone thought we would be bad but we ended up the best we've ever been.

You loved me and I felt you falling out of love. But now I know that you're just using my body. I missed the old you

hey i hope you’re doing well. i know u txt me once and a while to make sure im alive. you really made me feel special and i appreciate you for that but also u made me feel empty at the same time. You made me go through things and made me feel so numb your the reason im scared to love. I don’t think you ever loved me but u loved her. A girl i basically call my sister and i know u think i dont know. I know you don’t care. I just never got to say what i wanted to say to u for months. So yeah, bye ig.

You really led me on i thought you actually liked me but then you left I wish things were different but then I realized you never really cared

It’s been awhile since we talked how are you. You probably didn’t know this or maby you did but I had the biggest crush on you all through grades school.

we always talk on & off. I know you feel the connection I feel too. we gravitate towards each other.

I miss you so much :( I put all my effort into us, I tried so hard to make it work between us. You made me so happy I can't even put it into words honestly. You made me so comfortable, which is big for me because I have such bad anxiety and you know that. I gave you my everything and sacrificed so much for you just to lose interest in me :( & got a new girl that same day. That hurts lmao... Am I not enough for you? :/ You were the first boy I ever told my mom about and she loved you so much :( she asked about you all the time. I went so long thinking I was incapable of loving anybody because I'm so picky. But I picked you and I fell in love. I let my guard down. I felt like I could finally be myself around someone. Im so sorry I wasn't enough for you :/ I still love you even after all you've done to me :( I'll always love you my sweet isaiah

you made a huge impact on my life and i will always love you, but i let go and i moved on. i hope you do good in life

I have loved you for so long, I want to be there for you always. But I know you won’t feel the same way....

you are like ivy in my soul, i welcomed you in too soon. knowing your enchantment would deceive me and poison would fill my veins, until i no longer recognized the blood as my own.

last night was harder to sleep knowing you were gone, but it was easier than all those restless nights trying to get you to stay.

It’s funny because I knew from the first time I saw you that I would fall, I told myself over and over that this would happen and yet It was okay. I know the day will come when we no longer talk and I know I’ll be completely shattered, I also know I don’t mean as much to you as you do to me but that’s okay. I know how the movie ends but I’ll still watch knowing I’ll be left broken. Thank you for being you -

when you asked if i wanted to just be friends or something more...i should’ve said friends. now i don’t have you close to me & you’re no longer mine. thank you for being my first love & showing me what happiness really was.

i know i would never be able to text you this so im doing it on here. i hate the way we ended things. i've wanted to text you that i'm sorry every day since we stopped talking. the day you texted me my heart stopped, until you said it was just your cousin. i never told you that i loved you because i was scared i would get hurt. isaiah, when you first came into school as a new student i would have never guessed in a year you would even be in my life. the day our math teacher sat us next to each other i knew i liked you. you are a great person and i am so thankful for you. i hope you see this but also hope you don't lol. if you see this text me i miss u whore.

you always made me laugh. and since i was a preteen, i didn’t even feel heartache when thinking abt the fact that you liked another girl. bc she was skinny. and i was fat. the only thing that hurt was when you yelled at me and when you made up things up about me to the teacher. you were an asshole for that. but it was nice because it was one of the least painful experiences i had when it came to falling in love. thanks for being nice to me most of the time. i remember talking to you after a traumatic experience when i was late. that’s random but wtvr.

everything with you feels so right but i’m terrified of being hurt. i appreciate you being so patient with me

you’ve finally pushed me to a point where i’m ready to let go and move on from all the pain you caused me

From you, I learned that love is only a made up concept to make us feel less lonely. Something only real in dreams and fairytales.

I don’t know if the timing was wrong or the voids we filled for each other were overdue. But I hope one day I see you and you look at me the way you used. After all we are “Bonnie and Clyde”.

I will forever love you. But I know you are no longer good for me. I hope you can learn to love someone as much as I loved you instead of making them feel unwanted.

(hope blue is still your colour) if it were meant to be we would have. it’s not that either of us deserve better but that we need somebody different, the love for me had too much anxiety attached

You hurt me in a way no one else could. You used me and lied to my face. U made me feel like I was nothing and then came running back when your ex didn't want you and made my life a living hell.

Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you. You were always there for me no matter how bad things got.Thank you for everything

You made me feel so worthless. You walked all over me for 4 years saying you were scared of commitment just so I can find out you did with with a random girl. The problem is I still love you and I can’t stop. Why am I not good enough for you

i’m sorry. i don’t think i’m good enough for you so i act strong. but the truth is all i want is you.

Thank you for being a real bro. I love you so much and your extroverted personality makes me love you so much more. Thank you for always making an effort with my friends. You're a beast and I hope you have a fantastic life

i mistook manipulation for love. you broke me and you loved knowing you had me wrapped around your finger

you are amazing. thank you for all that you did for me, i hope you find someone who makes you as happy as i was with you :)

you deserve better. it makes me sad that our time together expired a while ago and i pray that things got better for you.

9/30 What the fuck Isaiah. It was supposed to be me and you forever. Me and you before anyone else. You fucking promised! I’m sorry for blocking you and I following your etc
But I just couldn’t see you with her. I couldn’t see you without crying. Your going to her house and meeting her sibling. Like wtf. Do you know how my heart broke. She’s over her talking about how she’s in love and wants to have kids. THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ME! But I mean i get it. I can’t really be mad at you for choosing her.
She’s perfect. If I could change myself I would. Or at least if I could just choose someone besides
Me. I hate you bruh. So fucking much. Your the only person I’ve ever fought so hard for. Your the only person that I wanted to stay. I didn’t care about anyone or anything else except you. But now I lost you. Shit man. Ion even know why I excepted this
Time to be different. I saw this coming and I was so insecure about it. I knew that if it came time or her you’d pick her. Fuck you. I talked god about you. I talked to the stats about you. For gods sake I talked to my cousins about you. Do you how much shit I could’ve got into. I loved you so much. You don’t even fucking understand. I hate myself for not being enough for you. Sure I was insecure then but I couldn’t look into a mirror with crying today. I couldn’t be alone without crying. I couldn’t think without thinking of you. You said it hurt your to see me upset but your literally broke my heart but I guess this if goodbye. Hope she makes you happy. I hope life’s goes amazing for you and I hope
She gets to give you lil baby Delilah. At least one of us will
Make it??

I love you and I'm not ready to let you go but I think I have to. You deserve to be happy without me.

Thank you for not treating me like something that could break with the slightest touch even after everything you knew about me. You were the first person I ever truly loved and I wish you nothing but the best. This is me letting go so thanks for everything kid.

9/29 hiiii babyyyy. I just wanted to tell you I love you. I will always love you. I know your going through things right know, I get that I can’t really help with those things but just know whenever you talk about it I try, I may not be good at it but i try. You mean the entire world to me. You have no idea how happy I get when you text back. My heart melts everytime I hear your voice. I hope that it works out with you. You have no idea how much I want it to work out with you. I wish god would talk back to me sometimes. I want him to promise me you’ll stay, I’m always praying and talking to him about you but he can never actually promise. Whatever happens, just know, it will ALWAYS be me and you. It me and you before anyone else. I just wish I could see you right now. You have no idea how much you mean to me. I just wanna lay down on the grass at the park. Right now would be a good time. It’s 4:34 am. It would be dark and quiet. I just want to hold you and play with you hair. I just wish you could stay with me forever. Goodnight baby. I’m pretty tired and my eyes are all red from crying. You are literally so perfect and I wish you could see what I see. Your the most amazing person I’ve ever met. You don’t deserve what’s happening to you right now. Just know it will get better. I promise.??

I remember the first time I ever saw you on morning announcements in 6th grade with I lived by one republic playing every single morning. Till the last day I saw you walking on stage to graduate. I’ve had a crush on you since middle school and never got the courage to talk to you and now you’re in college :( I haven’t been able to fully get you out of my head for years. I still think about you till this day. It’s so crazy to me because I don’t understand why I’m so drawn to you. I hope that if we are meant to be, because it truly feels like a soul connection to me, that this universe somehow allows us to cross paths again and aligns them. Even if I have to wait even longer I just feel like you’re worth it. I think we both have some personal growth to do so maybe the time will do us well. I trulyyyy wish the best for you and want you to achieve everything you hope and desire for because you are so so special, and I’ve said this since we were young teens & I still believe it.

i thought you were my best friend. my bad for thinking someone actually cared. turns out you were just like everybody else

i understand why it ended and i felt it coming, this time i’m not paralyzed but rather content. i love you always will

i dont know how to describe in words how much i love you. but i truly do love you. you were eveything to me. but i wasnt to you. i hope you are happier and find the one though. thank you isaiah w. thank you

We haven’t talked in almost six months. Even though we only knew each other for a short time, I still think about you a lot. I saw that you have a girlfriend now. She’s stunning and I’m sure you guys are really happy. Thank you for making me happy for the short while that you did. You showed me what it’s like to have a guy who genuinely cares about you and that isn’t always easy to find

why did you cheat on me? I loved you so much you were the only thing keeping me going. you'll be the reason I'm dead by tomorrow

im honestly happy i unadded you im so much happier not worrying about how you feel about me anymore :) wish you the best in life tho

no wonder you ex did what she did I mean bitch i would to if I was dating someone with that hair cut and pls stop putting up gang signs sir you're a CHILD. I'm sorry but every time I look at you I can't help but laugh

burn in hell you fat ass bitch cheating whore imma burn yo mf house down.. this is a joke for legal reasons

whenever i go to type these i never know what to say bc there's never enough words I could type that explains how I feel about this whole situationship

thank you for reminding me what love feels like. i wish we could’ve been something but it just wasn’t our time

i wish you were the same as when we met...i don’t like the new you but i’m not gonna say anything. you don’t want my help so i can’t force you...i jus wish we were the way we once were....