I love you and I'm not ready to let you go but I think I have to. You deserve to be happy without me.

Isaiah I wish you would talk to me more and actually care about my feelings. I always feel like i’m bothering you and I don’t mean anything, and maybe I don’t to you. You’re special in every aspect and mean so much to me even if we don’t talk everyday. I try and try to talk to you but I always feel bad about it. I wish you knew how much you meant to me. Even the smallest messages make me excited, we have so much in common as well. I can only hope we’ll be together one day and I would do anything to make you happy and smile.

its been five months and i still think of you. i dont know why i cant get over you we were nothing more than friends.

i never get attached to anyone but ive gotten attached to you,,,i know this is selfish but please dont leave me.

I fell in love so hard. It'll be awhile before I actually say it to your face but everything about you makes me happy

I wanted you to love me so bad I let you push me around and berate me and you did it knowing I would stay quiet because I loved you and that makes me hate you

9/30 What the fuck Isaiah. It was supposed to be me and you forever. Me and you before anyone else. You fucking promised! I’m sorry for blocking you and I following your etc
But I just couldn’t see you with her. I couldn’t see you without crying. Your going to her house and meeting her sibling. Like wtf. Do you know how my heart broke. She’s over her talking about how she’s in love and wants to have kids. THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ME! But I mean i get it. I can’t really be mad at you for choosing her.
She’s perfect. If I could change myself I would. Or at least if I could just choose someone besides
Me. I hate you bruh. So fucking much. Your the only person I’ve ever fought so hard for. Your the only person that I wanted to stay. I didn’t care about anyone or anything else except you. But now I lost you. Shit man. Ion even know why I excepted this
Time to be different. I saw this coming and I was so insecure about it. I knew that if it came time or her you’d pick her. Fuck you. I talked god about you. I talked to the stats about you. For gods sake I talked to my cousins about you. Do you how much shit I could’ve got into. I loved you so much. You don’t even fucking understand. I hate myself for not being enough for you. Sure I was insecure then but I couldn’t look into a mirror with crying today. I couldn’t be alone without crying. I couldn’t think without thinking of you. You said it hurt your to see me upset but your literally broke my heart but I guess this if goodbye. Hope she makes you happy. I hope life’s goes amazing for you and I hope
She gets to give you lil baby Delilah. At least one of us will
Make it??

you are an absolute fcking asshole, and you ruined my trust, and i hope you one day own up to what you did to me.

When you talked shit about her while i sat there and listened i never thought you would go back to her. My question is why, why wasn’t i good enough.

Its your fault not mine. For the longest time i felt all this was because of me but it was because of you. You treated me like shit. I've been hurt but not the way you hurt me. I finally let go 3 days after my birthday and was happy. Now for some reason i can't forget you and it hurts again. All because of you

I wish I had a clear reason to hate you, but in the end we were just kids, and I'll live on trying to repair what you've tampered with. I feel like I can't love her because of you. I'm sorry, but I'm not.

If I could go back in time, I never would have cut things off. I can make a thousand excuses as to why I did it at the time, but none of them will bring you back. I know it’s selfish of me, I do. But I love you, and I’m sorry I got too caught up in my own head and the trivialities of life. I don’t want to have to wait four years to be allowed to openly love you again, but if that’s what it takes, I will. I’ll always love you. And I’ll keep trying until I get it right.
I’m sorry and I miss you,
your once lovebug

you kept my notes in your wallet. “so they will always be with me.” that’s what you said. i still remember the feeling i had when you said that. in the middle of that chaotic classroom, it felt like time stopped. it was just you and me.

I have loved you for so long, I want to be there for you always. But I know you won’t feel the same way....

you’ve finally pushed me to a point where i’m ready to let go and move on from all the pain you caused me

I wish you loved me as much as you kissed me under the night sky at knotts. I feel like your last priority now. Our relationship has changed so much in a bad way. I wish you would just hear me out when I try talking to you. You're slowly breaking my heart. I feel like giving up now..

i want to stay with you, but idk if that's the best for me. I'm getting torn into pieces because of you

I never got the chance to even properly tell you I liked you even after finding out you did too. I still sometimes wish it was you in front of me when he does the things that remind me of you

why can't you fix the things that bother me the first time I tell you. i hate having to tell you over and over.

hey Isaiah I know it’s been years since we had our thing but I still think about u I thought I was over u but then I feel like I’ll never be over u.You were my first love

everything with you feels so right but i’m terrified of being hurt. i appreciate you being so patient with me

no wonder you ex did what she did I mean bitch i would to if I was dating someone with that hair cut and pls stop putting up gang signs sir you're a CHILD. I'm sorry but every time I look at you I can't help but laugh

i know we’re not in the best terms right now but, you promised me we’d spend our life together lol. see you then !

the hardest thing i have ever done is forgive you when you did not deserve it. i still ask God to help me not have a bitter heart towards you. i associate the color black with you, because i was light when you found me. i was pure. then you touched me and left me filthy. you made me lose my sense of worth. and forgiving you for that is the hardest thing i have ever had to work on. you stripped me of everything i had, humiliated me, and have caused me to live my life in fear and shame.

you made a huge impact on my life and i will always love you, but i let go and i moved on. i hope you do good in life

im honestly happy i unadded you im so much happier not worrying about how you feel about me anymore :) wish you the best in life tho

why did you cheat on me? I loved you so much you were the only thing keeping me going. you'll be the reason I'm dead by tomorrow

you always made me laugh. and since i was a preteen, i didn’t even feel heartache when thinking abt the fact that you liked another girl. bc she was skinny. and i was fat. the only thing that hurt was when you yelled at me and when you made up things up about me to the teacher. you were an asshole for that. but it was nice because it was one of the least painful experiences i had when it came to falling in love. thanks for being nice to me most of the time. i remember talking to you after a traumatic experience when i was late. that’s random but wtvr.

i love you but you don’t and that hurts me so much. i just wish you could open your eyes and see that i’m the one for you.

I miss you so much :( I put all my effort into us, I tried so hard to make it work between us. You made me so happy I can't even put it into words honestly. You made me so comfortable, which is big for me because I have such bad anxiety and you know that. I gave you my everything and sacrificed so much for you just to lose interest in me :( & got a new girl that same day. That hurts lmao... Am I not enough for you? :/ You were the first boy I ever told my mom about and she loved you so much :( she asked about you all the time. I went so long thinking I was incapable of loving anybody because I'm so picky. But I picked you and I fell in love. I let my guard down. I felt like I could finally be myself around someone. Im so sorry I wasn't enough for you :/ I still love you even after all you've done to me :( I'll always love you my sweet isaiah

I’m so in love with you. Your heart. Your brain. You think you’re so dumb and useless but in reality it’s you’re nothing like that. I’m so glad you’re here and I wish we were can meet this summer. I love you goober

we always talk on & off. I know you feel the connection I feel too. we gravitate towards each other.

You meant the world to me, I only wish I could have given it to you. But now I think it's time for me to let go. I'll miss you.

i know i would never be able to text you this so im doing it on here. i hate the way we ended things. i've wanted to text you that i'm sorry every day since we stopped talking. the day you texted me my heart stopped, until you said it was just your cousin. i never told you that i loved you because i was scared i would get hurt. isaiah, when you first came into school as a new student i would have never guessed in a year you would even be in my life. the day our math teacher sat us next to each other i knew i liked you. you are a great person and i am so thankful for you. i hope you see this but also hope you don't lol. if you see this text me i miss u whore.

i will love you till the end. But it was best for us to separate. don’t lie to the next girl, love her to the moon and back. make sure you are loved too. Maybe a better time, or even a new lifetime we will fall in love again.
love, z

It’s been awhile since we talked how are you. You probably didn’t know this or maby you did but I had the biggest crush on you all through grades school.

You really led me on i thought you actually liked me but then you left I wish things were different but then I realized you never really cared

Your were my very bestest friend. I wish we had kept in touch and I wish that I had some way to contact you. I want my old life back. Even if it felt like love back then (which it wasn't) that's one of the bets friendships ive ever had. Thanks.

We haven’t talked in almost six months. Even though we only knew each other for a short time, I still think about you a lot. I saw that you have a girlfriend now. She’s stunning and I’m sure you guys are really happy. Thank you for making me happy for the short while that you did. You showed me what it’s like to have a guy who genuinely cares about you and that isn’t always easy to find

Hey, uhm I don't know how to start this but I wanna get everything out since I am tired of being stuck on you. I started watching criminal minds again and I remembered how we used to sit on the phone and you would clown me for it. I miss it, you making fun of me for watching it. There's so many things you ruined for me that whenever I think about it I become upset or cry. Falling asleep otp with you while hearing wild n out in the background because that's what helped you fall asleep. Hearing your mom yell at you to read a book for school or do anything and you responding back with a laugh. I miss it. You were to busy for me and it makes me think we had right person wrong time type of relationship. I am not sure though, but looking back you helped me through a lot. My past, my relationships, everything. When I think about you I don't cry anymore. It was hard and I still miss you and have moments where you come into my head and make me upset. I am feeling better now, I miss you.

damn, i miss you alot. why’d you just give up on me like that? like i was nothing to you? i want it all to go back to normal, where it felt like you cared about me. i always used to wonder why you cared so much about me before and now i wonder why you dont care about me at all. i loved hearing your laugh, now i can’t even remember it or your voice. its all faded. you’re different now and there isn’t anything i can do to change that, i miss the old you heaps. you didnt even care about losing me, the old you definitely would’ve been lol. idk what to do anymore, it just hurts. please come back, i need you.

i dont know how to describe in words how much i love you. but i truly do love you. you were eveything to me. but i wasnt to you. i hope you are happier and find the one though. thank you isaiah w. thank you

(hope blue is still your colour) if it were meant to be we would have. it’s not that either of us deserve better but that we need somebody different, the love for me had too much anxiety attached

hey i hope you’re doing well. i know u txt me once and a while to make sure im alive. you really made me feel special and i appreciate you for that but also u made me feel empty at the same time. You made me go through things and made me feel so numb your the reason im scared to love. I don’t think you ever loved me but u loved her. A girl i basically call my sister and i know u think i dont know. I know you don’t care. I just never got to say what i wanted to say to u for months. So yeah, bye ig.

i understand why it ended and i felt it coming, this time i’m not paralyzed but rather content. i love you always will

i thought you were my best friend. my bad for thinking someone actually cared. turns out you were just like everybody else

you remind me of him so much and i wish i could tell you that. i love the pics you send me haha and although they were short i miss our convos.

I remember the first time I ever saw you on morning announcements in 6th grade with I lived by one republic playing every single morning. Till the last day I saw you walking on stage to graduate. I’ve had a crush on you since middle school and never got the courage to talk to you and now you’re in college :( I haven’t been able to fully get you out of my head for years. I still think about you till this day. It’s so crazy to me because I don’t understand why I’m so drawn to you. I hope that if we are meant to be, because it truly feels like a soul connection to me, that this universe somehow allows us to cross paths again and aligns them. Even if I have to wait even longer I just feel like you’re worth it. I think we both have some personal growth to do so maybe the time will do us well. I trulyyyy wish the best for you and want you to achieve everything you hope and desire for because you are so so special, and I’ve said this since we were young teens & I still believe it.

You loved me and I felt you falling out of love. But now I know that you're just using my body. I missed the old you

I loved you more then anything. I tried and Ik I wasn’t the best but the second time I tried sm and you left I want you in my life zay. You make me so happy and sadly still but I can’t wait 2 more years . The fuck am I gonna do wait for you . I loved you so god damn much and I cried and cried because of you ok you was how depressed I got and u didn’t care but I still love you