Unsent messages to HANNAH

I really do love you. Your my best friend, but you are a shitty person. I know your life is hard but that does not mean you can invalidate my feelings. You constantly make me feel dumb and ashamed of how I feel and what I do. I have never physically or emotionally harmed like you have done to me. I am going to tell the truth that I am relived that we will not be attending the same school next year. I can't keep on accepting the toxic things you do to me. I still am your friend I just do not believe you are a good person.

words can’t describe how much i love you. you’ve grown so much and i’m so proud of you. you used to be the reason i contemplated life but now you’re the reason i stay. i love you

you're going to do such amazing things in life. i wish you the absolute best. thank you for everything

I wish we could've viewed things through the same eye. Maybe things would have turned out differently.

We loved in a way where we didn’t think anyone else could feel the same. Love was something only we knew.

wow ive never written you one before but hi. someone else on here said you're not a good friend, but at the same time the best. im not sure if that was for you specifically, but they said it perfectly. you're probably the most toxic person ever, yet people, including me, cant stop being friends with you. i would never say any of this to your face, because i'll admit sometimes i am jealous of your popularity, and also because you were so mean to me back then and constantly put me down. i dont want to hold it against you because i know youre trying to change, but i dont think ill ever be able to get over how much you hurt me and how terrible you made me feel about myself. yet, youre still the type of girl people will never stop thinking and talking about. you just pull people in with your charisma, but then drag them down. ofc i love you and miss you, which ill never tell you (im sorry), but i dont think we can ever be close again. i want to so badly, more than you know, and i also think about our memories, but there isn't only cherished memories...i still remember the bad ones. this is so long omg but its all pent up stuff that i could never say to u OR anyone for that matter. but i was so jealous of you and him, actually more than one him. it really did bother me and i wish i were you in that situation. ik ur not over him, and well i think i almost am, but a while back, i hated that you too thought you guys were meant to be because thats what i thought. u think that about so many guys, why cant i have just this one? sorry this was so rude, i hope you dont read this or figure out who its from because i dont want to hurt you. i never want to hurt you, but i just need to keep my distance for a while.

I wish I would‘ve picked the phone up that night and you‘d still be here by my side, even if we weren‘t in love anymore. I miss you so fucking much and I can‘t begin to describe how much I wish that I was the one suffering. I don‘t deserve to carry you in my heart and think about you because it is my fault that your mom couldn‘t say goodbye and that you could never meet your best friend again before it happened. I will never forgive myself.

your words cut deep and your actions deeper how could you ever call yourself my friend knowing how much it would hurt me to know the things you were doing behind my back

Why would you lie about something like that. It could ruin his life. All because you needed a little attention. Well great job whore

You really hurt me. I don’t know why you stopped caring, was it something I did? Were you always like this?

I know you don't want to talk anymore but I just wanted to say I'm sorry for how I treated you and I think about it every day

i know you’re afraid to like girls, so i started dating someone else,
but the truth is i’d leave him in a heartbeat to be with you.

BESTIE GIRL I LOVE YOU I WOULDNT BE ALIVE WITHOUT YOU. WE ARE ONE IN THE SAME AND THIS WILL NEVER END. MWAHHHH

you are the problem in all your friendships. you were a shitty friend to us. m just can’t see it yet.

i'm sorry i ruined our friendship. i really wish i could make it up to you, but it seems like you really don't care. i guess it's probably time for me to move on too. i hope you're doing well

Of course I love you, but not how I am supposed to, I don't care for you the same way you care for me. Im sorry

I loved you so much but you really fucked me up. I wish I could change everything I said and did. I think about the last message you sent me every day.

I think about you more than I think about myself or anything else. I spend my time thinking about how badly I want to feel you in my arms while we sit in a warm blanket together. I hate that you hate yourself and I wish you would give me a chance to show you how much I care about you but you have said you aren’t ready.

you are my best friend, you are like a sister to me and i love how i can talk to you about anything without being judged. you mean the world to me

you were my very best friend but what i didn’t know untill recently is that i was in love with you. we were too young for me to know, but now your gone. you moved so far across the world from me. we keep in touch, just. you won’t think about me anymore but sometimes i still think of u. from h x

I love you. Still and always will. My closest friend and someone I can’t forget. You will forever be someone I have dear in my heart. you’re my favorite person. All I wish you is love and positivity. new opportunities as well. You will always be special. And I’m so sorry for ever hurting you.

I love you so much it hurts. I would answer your call at 2 AM still. drive to you one more time. Romance wasn’t for us though, it hurt. You’re my best friend. We stopped talking but it hurts more than you know. to have you as a friend was special. You knew me in ways others didn’t. I still trust you. I’m sorry for making you feel any different. I don’t want to spend 2021 in ill will.

Im sorry things didnt work out, I guess we just both had to work on ourselves first. I hope you are doing better than I am

I’ll never forget those moments we share together; the way you felt pressed up against me. Everything about you both inside and out is so, so beautiful. Your smile, your singing voice, you art and your soul. Whilst I don’t love you like I did then, I care about you so deeply and I’m proud of your progress. You’ve made my entire life worth living.

you’ll forever be my favorite person, no matter who i’m with your my best friend and you mean the world to me please never leave

You’re the kindest most lovely person I’ve ever met. You helped me to love myself and realize I was worthy and my value wasn’t based on others opinions. You’ve been through more than anyone I know and deserve the world. Thank you:).

I haven’t actually seen you since you left town years ago, and every time you came back i was scared to see you, but thank you for being the first person to care about me, even if we were 12 haha

I haven’t actually seen you since you left town years ago, and every time you came back i was scared to see you, but thank you for being the first person to care about me, even if we were 12 haha

i love you so much queen, you can do so much better than alex. i want to support you and refrain from controlling you, but i don’t want you to make a mistake that will cost you your youth:( secretly i really hope this escapade is going to end soon. we’re all so worried about you.

You took a piece of me in that relationship that I’m never going to get back take care of it please I spent 18 years looking after it

this is to myself. please. keep going. try. for your friends and your family. i know it’s hard my love but you need to stay alive. try. for future us

Te amo, desde el primer momento en que te ví, te amo aunque no es tan fácil de decir y repito lo que siento con estas palabras.
Hannah Luviano Lima, te amo y siempre te tendré en mi corazón, yo se que la cagué fuerto, era un pendejo tenía 15 años, no tenía absolutamente nada de experiencia en el tema de las relaciones amorosas y por eso la cagué, soy un pendejo y te pido perdón por no haber podido llegar a ser esa persona que te hubiera amado con todo su corazón, pero la vida y mi valentía dijeron no, efectivamente soy un pussy, si te dije lo que sentía pero por medio de una red social, si tan solo hubiera tenido los huevos de decirtelo a la cara, a lo mejor hubiera sido diferente, pero no fue así, en donde sea que estes te amo y deseo que seas muy feliz.

i truly believe that you're my twin flame. i don't know how (or even why) you've stuck with me all this time, but i am infinitely grateful that you did. i'm sorry for everything i've done. love you shawty.

I woke up next you you in a dream last night, this morning I woke up next to her and it just isn’t the same.

I miss you as a friend still. I still love you although 2 years past. Forgive me please I tried to hurt you less by leaving..

Day 1- Today was really hard. school sucks and so does family stuff. I miss being able to talk to you on the phone and have someone understand without me having to even say a word. Hopefully you come home soon. miss u

it was so easy to replace me, right? but now that she’s not in your life anymore, i’m back in. it’s just hard to go back to before.

i told u that if move on even though it’s hard to let go but not a day goes by when i don’t think of you

We have to stop doing this, how can i ever get over you? Are you trying to keep me on a string while you are also sleeping with other guys? That's kinda what it feels like to me

if you did fuck him to piss me off, you would prove to me that you are exactly who I think you are. So in the end, I'd win

I wish you could see how much better I am without you... and I wish I wasn’t so bitter about proving it.

i'm not religious and we don't know each other well but i pray for you every day. Head up my love you are the strongest person i know

I'm sorry for breaking your heart. Even after leaving I can't stand to see you suffer. I want to help you sleep.

it hurts being just friends when i know i’m always gonna be in love with you but you don’t feel the same anymore...

you helped me become a better person prolly without even realizing it. I should have been nicer and considered your feelings more maybe then we’d still be talking rn like we used to

Its such a shame it all turned out like this, isn’t it darling? I’ll bury the tragedy of us very soon.

I know you don’t like me but I can’t help that. I’m sorry that I’m irritating and weird. I’m also sorry that you can’t be bothered trying anymore. It hurts when you don’t include me even when I try, so I’m not going to try anymore either. What’s the point when you’ve already given up on our friendship?

I can’t believe you did this to me. We will never be friends again and you will be the person I tell my kids about someday when I tell them how your closest friends will be the ones who turn on you.

hello, my happy pill :>
idk if you're ever going to see this but you make me so happy and ik i type paragraphs for you but it's still not enough in my eyes, i want you to know that i love you lots even without those texts. you're generally my first love, i've never liked anyone like i've liked you. something about you is just different from the others, something about you from the first day i met you. from our first convo to our most recent one, you've been on my mind, still are. i love you hannah, i love you more than i can express.
- your bear :>

you and i are so good together and we both know it. You just don’t want to be with me because you want to see if there is someone better, which hurts a lot. If you are always thinking about what could be better out there, i will never meet that threshold and through that I can never be exactly what you want. We are stuck in the middle of friends and lovers and losing the benefits of both.