I wish I would‘ve picked the phone up that night and you‘d still be here by my side, even if we weren‘t in love anymore. I miss you so fucking much and I can‘t begin to describe how much I wish that I was the one suffering. I don‘t deserve to carry you in my heart and think about you because it is my fault that your mom couldn‘t say goodbye and that you could never meet your best friend again before it happened. I will never forgive myself.