Unsent messages to GEORGE

hey george. it’s 3 am and here i am writing some stupid note that ik you’ll never see. it’s been over a month without u and i don’t know why i’ve been letting myself be so upset over u. i meant it barely lasted a week and u still had such a huge impact on me. u were the first boy to really make me smile and happy in years:/ i hope we can both work on ourselves and work things out when things get better. i miss you

The hardest part is that its been four months and i thought i was completely over you but it took one look at you for all the feelings and moments to come back again.

Why did you have to leave us so young? You had so much potential man. I hope i am doing you proud angel. Love you always

I don’t know what I’ll do the next time I see you again. I wish you didn’t hate me, but maybe that is the reaction you want from me. I’ll never get to see your face, hug you, and call you my best friend ever again. And I have to live with it.

i am so fucking in love with you it breaks my heart. sometimes ur so suffocating i dont want to breathe

i’m so sorry. i fucked up, big time. there is nothing i regret more in my life. i should be telling you how happy you make me every day, instead of hurting your feelings. If i lose you, i will lose my feelings

everyone says we were meant to be. everyone says one day u will come back to me. Even though you have moved on I can’t explain how much I am in love with u. All I want is for u to be happy and u are and as much as it hurts to say I’d rather u be happy with her then unhappy with me. I will always love u always will have a place for u in my heart. I miss u more every day mainly cos ik your not mine to love anymore. Love u forever x

i love you so so much words cant explain it. i know im really clingy and need consant suppot or reassurance and im sorry about that. thank you for everything.

It was never love I never really enjoyed kissing you and it was hard to move on but I am thrilled you're out of my life I wish I would have left sooner

i want you to never leave my side, i have butterfly’s in my stomach every time i get a notification of you.
i really want you to love me the way i love you

I WISH YOU WERE NEVR ALIVE I CRY EVRYNIGHT BECUASE OF WHAT YOU HAVE EMBEDED INTO MY THOUGHTS YOUR THE REOSON FOR MY OVERTHINKING AND ANZITY WHY JUST WHY

Why did you do this to me. I'm scared to leave the house. I have dreams that make me shiver I wish you never did it

thank you for always making sure im okay and safe etc I love you get well soon please I can't loose you

I’m sorry , I would’ve and did do anything for you we thought of family’s and so much more I’m sorry my love wasn’t enough

there’s so many things i want to say to u but instead they swirl round my head wondering if you feel the same too

there’s so many things i want to say to u but instead they swirl round my head wondering if you feel the same too

(grog)
sometimes i wonder if you still think about me, miss me, if you care, or if any of it was as real to you as it was to me. it sucks knowing i loved you more than you loved me or that i was in it for the long run when you weren’t. miss u kiss u

everytime i listen to "tiny dancer" by elton john, it reminds me of u. and i honestly listen to it every night. it gives me a feeling of peace at some point. and since i haven't said goodnight to u for ages, i'm gonna do it now - goodnight geo, damn i miss u so much.

why did u have to have a crush om gracie pls that was just sad she literally hates me u twat anyways hope ur okay now idk tbh i wanna kill you right now but i also wnana be ur friend but you're like really annoying so

You were the first person I truly loved. Everything you did put me in awe. Two years I spent drooling over you. I dated your bestfriend for god sake and I still couldn't get over you. Something about you has always made me go back to my old ways. And I wish I could stop, but I can't.

I heard the news,I’m so sorry for your loss,I really did like you, maybe even loved :( I wish you didn’t hurt me like that.I want to be like how we were before but I feel like you’ve forgotten about me, missing you x

It’s mad to think our nine months together was all a lie. I hope she was worth my happiness. i’m still in love with you but never will admit it to anyone because i know i deserve better. At least I was your first love so i know you’ll never forget me. miss you and your mother.

I’m sorry. I should’ve spoken less and listened more. I wish I hadn’t driven you away. I miss you. Ill always love you, even if you dont

Dude fuck you for making me feel as if i was never enough. I cared about you so much despite the way you treated me.

I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you to go with her, but you ruined me and you knew exactly what you did and you didn’t care in the slightest.

i loved you, i love you and i will always love you despite the things you did to me i will always have a space for u in my heart

you treat me well. the best i have been treated, im not used to being treated like this so im so sorry if i mess it up. i just rlly want to tell u that i like you

sometimes you act like we’re more than friends then you will just stop talking to me and I hate that you’re being fake

i’m sorry that i hurt u. part of me wants u back but only for ur devoted attention, not because i genuinely want you back. that’s not fair on you. i think you’ve moved on anyways, but just remember i’ll always be the one that got away :))

By the way, you fucked me up. All I can say is, take care of yourself kid. Although I know you probably won't.

you were my first love. i miss and think about u way too often and i hate it. i hate that i fucked it all up. and i hate that we don’t talk anymore. u were my everything and i ruined it and i’m so sorry. i just want to talk to u again. i just want to hug u again. i just wanna hear ur dumb voice again. i miss u with everything in me. pls just message me back please. i’m tired of being reminded of u and the only thing that comes to my brain is that you absolutely hate my guts. i love you so much and i don’t know if i will ever stop.

I hate the fact you'll never know what it felt like to be me when i found out about her, because everyone loves you but you never understood how much i loved you out of all those people.

Deep inside I care. I want to make out with you again. Why do you treat me like that? We don't you like me? I really felt happy in a long time when we were together

thank you for being alive. your presence in the world changes everything, life would be unbearable without you. i love you so so so so much and once again, thank you for being alive

The way you broke up with me really damaged me and now i’m struggling to treat other people “right” cause i treat them how you treated me.

i know when i called you thought it was her. i could tell by your voice. it was how you used to speak to me.

i think of you somtimes, and somedays, sometimes can be all the time, somedays it can be not once. but you ruined me and fixed me and showed me who i was meant to be. i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, but if i had one more day with you, i'd love you better than anyone ever has, ever can. i think we were meant to be, but it was the wrong time. age is really fucking discriminating sometimes, and just know that if i never met you, i wouldn't be who i am now, and who i'll be in the future. i wouldn't want what i want. so fuck you and thank you.

Hey, how are you?
I know we haven't talked in a while. I hope you're not mad at me...
I wish I could tell you all the things I've done and all the places I've been.
You're a great person, I just wish I didn't hurt you.

If I had a seed for every time I thought about you - I’d be able to plant a garden to replenish my scorched Earth

we first met when we were 11, each day my feelings got stronger and now we’re 15 and you’ll never know how much i love you.

I’m sorry that I stopped talking to you. It’s a problem I know. I hope you’re finding someone better.

i thought you could have been the one even if it only lasted a few months, i realized you werent worth my time and even tho i still dont know you feelings and havent talked to you since months ago.. you had you chance and i cant respect you anymore goodbye

for with everything that has happened know that I love you and wish nothing but happiness upon you. however I know now that it will not be with me in your life.

When my knee dislocated, i got so scared. I was drunk and the first person i went to message was you. Then i remembered you don’t want me anymore. I felt very small. That’s why you may have had a typing notification that night.

You’re not my first love, or really a love at all, but you’re still on my mind. I wish we talked more, even just as friends.

i know you must have forgotten my existence, but even after 4 years of what happened, u deserve to know that there's someone out there that loves you unconditionally. and that will always be me. i wish you're okay.

I miss you, I miss the way you used to look at me, smile at me, touch me. I suppose it's simpler this way, but it hurts.

If you walked through my bedroom door rn (3am) I’d grab my pillow scream then cry because that’s how much you hurt me.

isn't it funny how you manage to invade my mind? conscious, unconscious. my thoughts, my dreams, they're all of you and yet you don't even know i exist

remember when we laid on your bed and we were just so in love with each other? Remember when you chose her over me? Was i not good enough?