I feel like I’ve fallen out of love with you but with all honestly I’m not sure if I ever loved you. I don’t want to hurt you but you’re not for me. You’re not the one.

I miss you, I miss the way you used to look at me, smile at me, touch me. I suppose it's simpler this way, but it hurts.

Why did you do this to me. I'm scared to leave the house. I have dreams that make me shiver I wish you never did it

I WISH YOU WERE NEVR ALIVE I CRY EVRYNIGHT BECUASE OF WHAT YOU HAVE EMBEDED INTO MY THOUGHTS YOUR THE REOSON FOR MY OVERTHINKING AND ANZITY WHY JUST WHY

I know you don't care. The more you pretend you do the more it hurts me. You need to leave, because I know I never will.

I can't explain why I like you so much and I want to tell you so badly but I don't think we're meant to be together. One day, you'll just be another stranger.

I wish you told me you loved me when it actually meant something. I wish I could spend one more night with you.

i’m sorry for not noticing you were suffering as much as me, i just got myself involved with the wrong people and was always trying to get out of the holes they constantly dug for me, my dear brother i’m sorry i couldn’t protect you from anything, we had a really traumatic past and everyday it’s on my mind. i was supposed to leave first and you were supposed to live. it’s oldest goes first right? that’s what you always said, george i love you i wish i could of told you everyday when you were alive so maybe you would still be here, one day i’ll come visit you and we can live together where no one can hurt us okay? just wait for me georgie, ur big sister will be with you again one day. i really love you george, i’m sorry i’m so sorry for everything that’s happened to you. i’ll wait for the right time so i can kill myself with no interruptions just like you did, i’ll make sure it works and then i will get to see my little brother again. love, c

hey loser
i don't know what im doing. and no i don't mean writing this, i mean i don't know what im doing still stuck in this hole. j says im in too deep (she knows it all) and i think she's right. but in a way i don't want to leave, i don't want to walk away. i think there's still a part of me that has some hope. you've had a really rough year and i think im using that as an excuse. im telling myself that i can't walk away because what if you need me? what if you need someone to distract you from everything? j tells me you have *her* and that makes sense to me, i know you have her. but i still wonder what if it was me? what if it was me that you told everything to? what if it was me that hugged you that night you found out while you probably cried yourself to sleep? i wanted to be there for you so badly but i had no idea how. and you've been so brave, i don't know how you do it. i don't want to be selfish, im really trying not to be. and i don't want to make you choose either. but i think that's cos a part of me knows you'll choose her. i don't blame you she's gorgeous. she got you through it all. i don't want to make you choose because if you choose her i don't know what ill do with myself. im scared of it honestly. that's why i keep playing this little game of ours. i don't want to lose you, i can't do it. i know i need to though. this isn't good for us. it's not what you need, and it's draining me. every time it gives me that tiny little bit of hope. you know me, that tiny little bit of hope is crushing. i know that us ending this will just make everyone's lives easier. but i just can't bring myself to do it. and i think it's starting to hurt now, it's killing me. i just want what's best for you and i think that it's her. she's what's best for you. i want you to be happy, and even though i think i can do that, i think she can do it better. so we need to stop playing now. i think i want to pull out. but im not 100% certain. just tell me there's something there, please. 'friends' dont talk to each other the way we do. 'friends' dont play the game we're playing. is there something there? or are you just trying to distract yourself? i need to know, but i don't know if i can handle the answer. you're killing me, but the only problem is im letting you.

I’m sorry. I should’ve spoken less and listened more. I wish I hadn’t driven you away. I miss you. Ill always love you, even if you dont

i’m sorry that i hurt u. part of me wants u back but only for ur devoted attention, not because i genuinely want you back. that’s not fair on you. i think you’ve moved on anyways, but just remember i’ll always be the one that got away :))

I love you. But can you please stop breaking my heart, stop taking all ur shit out on me because you know I love you too much to leave you. You’re making it harder for me to stay alive

i truly felt something with u.we flirt all the time.u made me feel special.to u it might just have been us messing around but to me it was so much more.i craved to be with u.only for me to find out u were dumb enough to say what u said and defend who u did.a part of my heart will always love u though.goodbye

Not sure if you’ll ever read this but I’m hoping that you’re doing good. If I’m being honest I hated you up until I realized I just missed you— more than I’d like to admit. I hope life treats you well bub. Good luck in college

It’s mad to think our nine months together was all a lie. I hope she was worth my happiness. i’m still in love with you but never will admit it to anyone because i know i deserve better. At least I was your first love so i know you’ll never forget me. miss you and your mother.

I asked you not to hurt me and you did. You haven't realised yet but I am in so much pain. I used to get snaps from you and I'd smile because I felt special and I thought you wanted me for me. Then I realised 10 other girls were probably getting that same snap. And god can I promise you that I'm a manipulative bitch when I'm in pain. So let the games

I asked you not to hurt me and you did. You haven't realised yet but I am in so much pain. I used to get snaps from you and I'd smile because I felt special and I thought you wanted me for me. Then I realised 10 other girls were probably getting that same snap. And god can I promise you that I'm a manipulative bitch when I'm in pain. So let the games

i thought you could have been the one even if it only lasted a few months, i realized you werent worth my time and even tho i still dont know you feelings and havent talked to you since months ago.. you had you chance and i cant respect you anymore goodbye

You weren't all that good at singing, but if I could listen to you sing in an Irish accent and play the guitar one more time, I would.

u said if u ever started to do something i didn’t want then say stop... i said stop so why didn’t u stop

I'm sorry I chose to move somewhere else. There is not a day where you don't cross my mind. I'm sorry and I can and never will find the love that we had.

if you see this please know i love you with my whole heart and like you told me in my room, you’re my person. it’s always been you

i want you to never leave my side, i have butterfly’s in my stomach every time i get a notification of you.
i really want you to love me the way i love you

I heard the news,I’m so sorry for your loss,I really did like you, maybe even loved :( I wish you didn’t hurt me like that.I want to be like how we were before but I feel like you’ve forgotten about me, missing you x

It was never love I never really enjoyed kissing you and it was hard to move on but I am thrilled you're out of my life I wish I would have left sooner

I hate the fact you'll never know what it felt like to be me when i found out about her, because everyone loves you but you never understood how much i loved you out of all those people.

You were the first person I truly loved. Everything you did put me in awe. Two years I spent drooling over you. I dated your bestfriend for god sake and I still couldn't get over you. Something about you has always made me go back to my old ways. And I wish I could stop, but I can't.

why did u have to have a crush om gracie pls that was just sad she literally hates me u twat anyways hope ur okay now idk tbh i wanna kill you right now but i also wnana be ur friend but you're like really annoying so

everytime i listen to "tiny dancer" by elton john, it reminds me of u. and i honestly listen to it every night. it gives me a feeling of peace at some point. and since i haven't said goodnight to u for ages, i'm gonna do it now - goodnight geo, damn i miss u so much.

(grog)
sometimes i wonder if you still think about me, miss me, if you care, or if any of it was as real to you as it was to me. it sucks knowing i loved you more than you loved me or that i was in it for the long run when you weren’t. miss u kiss u

i love you so so much words cant explain it. i know im really clingy and need consant suppot or reassurance and im sorry about that. thank you for everything.

everyone says we were meant to be. everyone says one day u will come back to me. Even though you have moved on I can’t explain how much I am in love with u. All I want is for u to be happy and u are and as much as it hurts to say I’d rather u be happy with her then unhappy with me. I will always love u always will have a place for u in my heart. I miss u more every day mainly cos ik your not mine to love anymore. Love u forever x

I am finally over you. when I hear your name, it doesn’t send my heart up my throat. I am numb. you did not give me the love I deserved and I understand that now. I don’t know why I waited so long expecting you to come back and change for me. someone else came and showed me exactly how I should be treated, and I couldn’t be happier. everything happens for a reason, and you were only meant to be a chapter in my story.

i want to talk to you i just dont know what to talk about

I love you, please don’t make me wait forever. I need you in my life.

I’m sorry.

i hate that i miss you, even after everything you put me through

i thought i was over you but i still miss you.

Thank you for being here for me

i love you and i wish you would just look my way for once.

sorry for the way things ended, I rly liked you being in my life again. I wish being friends worked.

Thank you sm for showing me how I should be treated

I will eternally be greatful for your love. I love you more than words can describe.

I love you more than words can describe, but I have to admire you from afar.

I miss you...

you’re the love of my life <3

i hate u for what you did. but i find myself some nights wanting closure. how do you feel really?

I wish you didn’t play me like that.

maybe in another life :)

You broke my heart, and I don’t know. I love you… you don’t have to say it back.