i gave it my all, i sacrificed everything an loved you unconditionally... why couldn't you love me back?

i gave it my all, I sacrificed everything and loved you unconditionally... why couldn't you love me back?

I miss how close we were and all the fun we had. I miss hugging you and telling you how much i love you.

it’s my fault if i hurt and i’m sorry. we weren’t even dating and i regret it so much because i miss you. you made such an impact on me and i’ll never forget that.

the “closer” we got, the more i thought i needed you. i was wrong. i’m so happy now and i hope you are too.

I feel like this 2 year crush on you is going absolutely no where and it breaks my heart.. i feel like i fucked it all up, like you never wanna talk to me anymore... maybe its just me being upset with you, i don't even know.. one day you're texting me and the next week or so, my phone is a ghost town. I feel like a burden when i text you because you always say you're too busy or tired.. i feel like giving up on this,on my chance with you, it doesn't feel worth it anymore and i love you so maybe it is....

kinda deadass fucking mad at u, literally im nothing but nice to u and im always there for u and constantly reminding u that i am and u dont even say thank you back, like i get it u get in these stupid moods and u say "its just me being me" and i try to understand that and be kind, but all i fucking want back from u is the same thing, if i seem upset just ask me whats wrong or a simple "i hope u feel better" literally anything. im too fucking nice to you for everything youve ever done to me, u hurt me, u still do, lied to me abt loving me and led me on, and i told u "its okay" when u ig apologized. ur horrible to me lol and idk why but im still not fully over u, like we hung out for the first time in like 3 and a half months last week and i enjoyed it sm, but im so fucking mad at u, and myself for how horrible u are to me and how nice i am despite the horrible things u do to me. then u complain to me abt these stupid, blonde basic ass girls who treat u like shit, and u whine and cry to me, abt it, its so fucking annoying because u take advantage of me because u know despite our past im always gonna be that person whos there for u, and that person whos gonna listen to u. i mean like, come on evan seriously??? ive never done anything in your life to even allow u, or give u a reason to treat me like this. im just trying to be your friend nad youre always so mean to me and i dont deserve it. yet ofc im not gonna be friends with you, because somehow, for some reason, i dont want to lose u, and ur the only person i enjoy talking to? i hate facetime, but not when it comes to you, hate video games, unless its with you, i hate listening to long videos of people talking or long convos, unless theyre with you. youre somehow the only person i genuinely enjoy talking to and i hate it sm, like idek if i still have feelings for u, i dont think i do, but a chunk of my heart is still in love with you waiting for u to tell me u want me back. because even tho u make me hurt, and make me sad, angry, jealous, all of those things, you still make me extremely happy. but i still kinda hate u lmao, also hate u for talking to one of my friends and then ending things w her now ur talking again as "friends" but today u facetimed her instead of me when u asked me to earlier, and u played video games with her even tho u asked me too. so fuck u for making me think things, and fuck you for hurting me, fuck you for making me still love you. and also fuck, ***na, *a*dy, and you. fuck. you. but i also love you and want you to love me back and realize that im the one whos always going to be there for u, always going to care, always going to love you. fuck you.

When I knew you I thought I knew what love was, but as the years have passed I’ve realized I’m completely clueless

The first time everyone met you they all called gorgeous, well i dint think that but deep time in my heart i knew we would get along. days went by and our relationship got better and better. we laughed made jokes and i stayed out really late just to see u.

It hurt so bad to see you fall out of love with me over time. But through your lack of love, I found how to love myself.

Whenever I'm around you the world stops I don't know what to do but I know that were meant to be together
I don't know how to tell you but I know that other girls like you too... This is never going to get to you or anything like that but I now know that I can come here. The reason that I'm not friends with my ex best friend is because she kept flirting with you when she knew that I liked you and she knew how long I liked you. I've liked you for about a year now and you only think of me as a sister because of how close we are.. or something like that. I know that we are bestfriends but we can evolve from that into something amazing. If you ever read this then know that it was sent with love and me crying over my laptop finally opening up about this. Please choose me.

this is the best feeling ever i think about you and i feel nothing i’m listening to my sad songs i used to cry till i couldn’t breath to about you and i can’t even force a tear i’m so so so over you this is the happiest i’ve felt in years

(if you think this is you it is)

this is so dumb y am i writing this actually whatever beneath ur bullshit i know u care abt me and honestly i love you too i know that’s something u will never say to me and that’s ok i’m glad i’m at least ur homie:) pain.

When I look at you my heart stops and my face heats up. You make me feel like the only one in the room..

i’m so sorry for everything. i miss you every day and not a day goes by where i don’t think about you. my mum still asks about you. i know you don’t love me anymore but i will always come back to you

i can’t help but wonder if you think it’s weird that i remember the little things you’ve told me in the past

i hope you can forgive me. im not over you, and i hope we connect sometime in the future like we did before. ill wait for you to want to talk to me. i could never love anyone the way i did you. the only reason i pushed you away was because i didnt want to hurt you. im sorry. please forgive me. please love me.

First loves should be pure. I hate you for twisting me up to be like you. I wish I could hurt you back.

Today I realized that I'm not angry at you, in fact I've never been. In reality you hurt my heart so terribly. And for the past year, it has been easier to be angry that it was to acknowledge the pain you've caused me. Dear God, I miss you so much. I miss talking to you, and I miss your smile. I just miss you so much. But I know there's no going back. And the reality is as many good qualities you have, there's double the amount of mean, terrible qualities. I don't miss those. Maybe now I'll be able to move forward.

You stuck around for a long time, i'm sorry I couldn't feel what you felt or give you what you needed. I'm getting a little bit better every day, I hope you are too.
E

I’m so sorry I got your hopes up and let you down. I hope she makes you happy even if I never got the chance.

I was utterly obsessed with you and kinda still am. I noticed everything you did, what you wore each day, how many times you smiled, what people you talked to and it broke me when you got together with another girl becasue we had our special moments and at school you acted like it meant nothing, and that hurt a lot. I miss you so fucking much and i always wonder what it would be like if were still here and if we would be together or you would leave me in the dirt once again and it hurts me so much that you dont speak to me and dont want anything to do with me after everything we have been throught together and the memories we have made. Come back to me Evan, please. I miss you.

It’s been almost a year, we’re friends but I’m in love with you even though you told me you can’t do distance, and to move on: ( Do you still think about me the way I think about you? I wish the distance didn’t exist.

I still hope it's us one day. You taught me to love and then lose. I now know what heartbreak is, I know. I love you, i always will

if I had five minutes left to live i’d spend four of them telling you everything I never could and the last one to tell you I love you and yet you wonder why I still have hope.

i love u. ive loved u forever. why cant u just love me back? u promised we would hang out when i visited but ig u were just too busy with ur friends. i shouldnt love u. i should just move on with my life and date a guy who loves me and treats me with respect. but for some reason i just cant. i love u and i will never ever stop loving u.

I thought that I was falling in love with you, but I really was just falling for the idea of you. show me your true colors and we can start again

I miss the energy we used to have. Now I can feel you losing feelings and there's nothing I can do about it

its almost been a year and i still miss you. idek why because youre so toxic but its because you came into my life when i needed someone the most but then you broke me.

im sorry but i didn’t love you for the last 6 months of our relationship, i just didn’t want change. (elsie)

I care about you i just wish you felt the same. You’ve always been more than just a friend to me which is why i can’t let go and will always go back if you need me.

I can’t believe you led me on and continued to let me believe I had a chance when you had a girlfriend all along.

You didn’t break me, you weren’t that special. I broke myself trying to believe you were anything worthy of me.

You said it wasn't your fault you lost feelings. but it wasn't my fault that I liked you. so that means that we are both guilty. it's getting harder to make myself believe that I don't need you because turns out you were the only thing that kept my smile. I'm losing myself again but this time you're not here to help me find me. I'm sorry I'm not good enough or pretty enough. I hope your next girl treats you as well as you should be treated.

Sorry I’m so clingy,I just know how this is going to end and I don’t want it to just yet. Fuck, why you?

I really thought we were going to end up together. When I thought of my future, you were in it. I hope you come back to me.

I always knew we were the definition of right person wrong time. I just held hope we could make it the right time.

i'm confused why i liked you. i didn't even really know you. but i miss you, i wish i had gotten to know you better.

we were always more than besties. i miss you. i love you, Ev. i'm glad we had what we did, i miss you in my life

I can't stop thinking about what it would be like if you had chosen me over her. I hate not being able to talk about my feelings about you because I know for a fact you'll always choose her over me.

You are honestly the only person who ever made me happy. I don’t know why I keep doing this to
Myself and involving my self in your life when you want nothing to do with me. I want you so bad and you aren’t mine. I don’t understand what I did wrong. I did everything for you and all you did to me was cause so much pain but I still was there for you whenever you needed me. I love you so much but honestly fuck you. You broke me.

i hate what u did to me and i hate what i am bc of you. i hate you but i can’t stop thinking about you

I don't know if you were my first love but it sure feels like it. I try so hard to erase my feelings for you but you keep popping back up. You are so kind and thoughtful, you don't go unnoticed. I hope you have an amazing life.

I don't know if you were my first love but it sure feels like it. I try so hard to erase my feelings for you but you keep popping back up. You are so kind and thoughtful, you don't go unnoticed. I hope you have an amazing life.

i think you left because you realized how i felt for you. if i what i had for you was love, i dont think ill ever feel that again. i miss you, but the worst part is, i know i shouldnt.

i wish i had treated you the way you deserve to be treated. i was going through so much at the time. i worked to become my best for you, and you saw that as an opportunity to get out. im sorry i let it get this bad. i miss you and our laughs and our friendship and our trips to dunkin and the movies and taco bell and spending every moment of high school wanting to talk to you about everything and nothing. i dont think ill ever find someone i connect with as much as i did with you. im scared ill spend the rest of my life missing you and what we had. if i could change anything, i would have treated you better. you were my everything.

Do you think if we were to meet again in a different place and at a different time in a different life maybe we could do things properly?

i ever so often think abt what we would be rn if u didnt leave but then i realize that im better w out u yk? still hurts u left tho. we both like smo else now but i still sit there and look at that heart u gave me and i dont think i deserve it tbh. bcuz u told me today that she has ur heart now, yet u said that heart means that ill always have your heart and and youll always love me. so i feel like i dont deserve it, yet i dont wna offer to give it back bcuz ur js gna give it to her. anyways, i dont think i miss u, js hurts that u left after 7 months.

I miss you and wish we could have ended up together. Every time I drive past your house my heart starts racing.

Why did you have to call me a f*g. We barely talked as is. You cried when you apologized but you never changed. The old days are over, but you don't have to be a stranger. You could introduce me to your dates or say hey like you mean it and not like you see a ghost. I know you never reciprocated my love but at the very least you could be kind.