Unsent messages to EMILY

just for a second i was happy, being around you made me happy...until it didnt anymore and i was just sad. you hurt me more then you could ever imagine. why dude? you were my bestfriend

I hate you. I never saw how toxic & manipulative you were, or how badly you treated nat & me. I'm an atheist but go to hell :)

You are annoying but I somehow still love you. You also need to sort out that anime obsession of yours. Anime sucks.

I’m so glad we’re friends. If you didn’t get transferred into my class all those years ago, i don’t know what i would’ve done

every time I walk to wherever, I always look at houses that I think you would like. I imagine that we would start a family and having amazing memories. I'm sorry..

I never really expected this, but I miss you. I've been listening to your songs you sent me and found our playlist on Spotify that you made. I wanna see you again... text me sometime.

Hey Emily! I hope your doing well, I love you so so so much. I am thankful for every moment I get to spend with you. Talking to you makes me feel loved and happy. I hope our friendship lasts, I do not want to lose you. Emily, you don't know how much you mean to me. You are a very special person to me. I wanna thank you for getting me into something that could change my life! I love you so much. You are valid and very very very pretty to me. I can't imagine my life without you. Emily, you are such a life changer. I love gaming with you. It disappoints me to see you sad. I love you so much. Stay safe!

let me know what you are thinking because I see you everyday but you are so closed off and I'm scared you will feel like you have no one but I'm here darling I was always here, don't you get it gorgeous ily even if you feel like no one else would. the distance between us doesnt matter as long as you are here breathing the same air as me that's enough for me to keep going. life won't feel the same. love won't feel the same. the way we act won't feel the same. that vera wang perfume won't smell the same but keep going is all I ask because the life I live right now is so bland and boring and sad but ill never forgive myself for leaving you by yourself ily mamas

i love you alot actually you don't know it though but its ok im fine with it. i keep on helping you, with who you like. but you don't know how much i like you and im fine with it tbh , im not sure if youre leading me on with the things you say and it confuses the hell out of me , but its ok because i love you

I know you are happy but part of me wishes you knew I still love you. Come back to me, E... we can listen to the playlist again.

I really did love you. I wish i could come to terms with myself and what I want and how to be who i want to be but I dont know how to. I was not always the best and there are things i would take back but just know i wouldn't want anyone else for a first than you.

Emily, we literally need to find the twins because we are so desperate that we would literally say yes to a cockroach in grey sweatpant❤️

Dude sometimes I wish your thoughts of me didn’t change and I wish I didn’t fuck up what we could’ve been because I’ve never felt anything like what I’ve felt for you before. I wish and hope one day you change your mind and we can be more than just friends because I really really want to genuinely be with you. I see a lot in you that I don’t see in other people. You’re genuine, beautiful, thoughtful, smart, funny, you’re so... unexplainably admirable to me. But hey, we have a few more years in school together and more memories to make. I hope we get to be closer and closer. I fucking love you :)

sometimes i tell myself you'll choose me. i then remember you go for girls who don't care for you the way i do.

sometimes i still wish we could have everything we stayed up til 4 am talking about on facetime and other times hearing ur voice makes me shake in anger. i want you to be happy in this lifetime

Aunque a veces no te soporte y estes loca,es agradable hablar de y leer libros contigo

att: Viandry

te extraño, mucho daria lo que fuera por tomar tu mano una última vez, eres lo mas importante que tengo wawi te amo

Everything makes me think of you and there’s always something to remind me that I miss you. I just wish we could’ve stayed the way we were, even just for a little while longer. I love you with my whole heart. I wish you felt the same.

Gracias por hacerme tan feliz, aunque ibas y venías siempre te voy a agradecer por todo lo que hiciste por mi, te amo :)

U said I was too good for you but you still never chose me, then you threw me away when u didn’t need me, nothing ever happened but I’ll always miss u kiwi

theres no easy way to describe in words the amount of love i feel for u ,, you're my favorite person and the first thing i think of when i wake up , ill be crushed if we dont get that nyc apartment together

Yeah, it's hard for me do this, Maybe at another time I can express myself better, I just want to say that I seriously tried, and I really love you.

I try so hard to be there for you but you're so clingy and it annoys me. I don't know if I want to be friends with anymore. I regret letting you into my friend group because I really want to keep the rest of the group. Thank you for everything though. You were my medicine when I needed you and I am pretty sure I was yours.

Hey, I sorta started to like you a lot. It's weird that we have so much in common but we don't do anything about it.

i still think about you and how we ended. i miss you and i shouldn't considering what happened. if i knew telling him about drew would lead into this, i probably wouldn't have said anything. if i knew the last time i was going to talk to you would be me saying all those awful things, i would have never said them. i'm sorry i ruined us. i'm sorry i ruined you guys.

I am sorry for everything. I wish I would've given you a proper apology. I regret what I said to this day. I didn't understand how hurtful it was, but I do now. As much as it hurt having to lose you as a friend and realizing I was being a shit person, it helped me to become a better friend to others and a better person, so thanks. And sorry once again, I was a bitch and I'm working on it. Hope you're doing well always, you deserve it.

I think of you often. Sometimes wonder if you're in my thoughts bc we're meant to be or bc I can't get over you.

I said this before but I don’t think you heard me. I was in love with you. I wouldn’t go back to you now, though. I still hope you’re okay.

i love you so bad. you mean so much to me. im so worried for you sometimes but i have no idea how to help, and i don’t want to somehow mess things up.

It's been a while and to be honest I forgot what I said the first time but I finally give up and realize that you are better out of my life than you are in it. I will forever be grateful for the lessons that you taught me but I hate that I had to learn them in the first place. You hurt me badly yet I loved you anyway. I wish you the best but please don't try to come back in my life, maybe for holidays we can send a happy whatever but let's leave it at that.

Hey I dont feel like rewriting all the shit I did so ima keep it short thx for talking to me even tho YOU ARE A FUCKING BITVH AND YOU BULLY ME AND SAY I NEED TO GO TO BACK TO ELA BUT I HATE YOU.

You're literally one of the most boring people on this planet. You constantly brag about your ED to others in the group and its hella toxic. Get some fucking therapy.

You were my best friend for almost 8 years. You killed a piece of me when you slept with him and I don’t think I’ll ever fully recover..

You were my best friend for 7 years. When you slept with him you killed something inside me and I don’t think i’ll ever truly recover.

You were my best friend for 7 years. You killed me when you slept with him. I don’t think i’m ever going to fully recover.

You were my best friend for 7 years. You killed me when you slept with him and I don’t think i’ll ever fully recover.

The first night was perfect with u. Even when I couldn’t figure out how to open ur door to leave at 1 am because my brain was on butterfly mode ??

R- I did love you . I just needed to think about myself more then the words your friends say about me

I know that you would understand what i’m going through but i don’t want u worrying about me when u r also going through the same thing

I know that you would understand what i’m going through but i don’t want u worrying about me when u r also going through the same thing

Hey, i'm sorry i wasn't strong enough to keep going i wanted you to be happy for me but i'm not strong enough to keep holding on. I'm sorry i love you

you said you'll manage even though i knew you were hurting. i'm sorry, for not being the one to stay even when i promised i'll never leave you. it's been months and i hope you've become happier. thank you for loving me, even though i didn't deserve it.

You hurt me when I was down and you left before I could get back up, but thank you. Before you I didn’t know the honour of having your heart broken.

After almost 2 years, I thought that I wasn’t gonna end. Never in a million years did I think it would end like that. Cheating. Fuck you, go back to him...oh wait

It’s been two years and i can’t remember what your laugh sounded like, but i remember how happy it made me

I will always have a place for u in my heart. but seriously fuck you. i hope u get hurt. after everything u put me through.

thank u for everything u ever did for me. ur the greatest thing to ever happen to me and i’ll love u forever and always :(

You mean more than the world to me and you're so special and I can't imagine my life without you. Please never go.

You will always be what I'll be missing. My days are empty without you. I wish you were still here. I love you babybat.

distancing myself from you is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I don’t know how to do this without you.