Thanks for making me feel comfortable when we were kids. Thank you for making me realize that I didn’t always have to be number two. Thank you for leaving when you did. I’ve realized a lot of things about myself because of it.

its impossible to let you go. i miss you so much, we still talk but it’s not the same. i pushed you away and i hate myself for it.

i know you told me to stop talking ab it, and i’m sorry but this is the last thing i have to say and then i’m done. your “sister” isn’t supposed to treat you like shit.

you’re right. i’m not the man you fell in love with, i don’t where he went but i miss him just as much as you do. i know you’ve been hating me and what i say recently and i don’t blame you, if you want to break up again it’s okay i promise, but you have to promise me you’ll be safe. i love you so much. ig this is just the power struggle phase after the honeymoon phase, right?

Everything makes me think of you and there’s always something to remind me that I miss you. I just wish we could’ve stayed the way we were, even just for a little while longer. I love you with my whole heart. I wish you felt the same.

te extraño, mucho daria lo que fuera por tomar tu mano una última vez, eres lo mas importante que tengo wawi te amo

thank u for taking my food at lunch every day in fifth grade and throwing it in the trash. im really cool now and u never were. u always looked like the horse from tangled to me and i have vision problems. i hope that sends a message. i chose this light pink bc it resembles ur skin tone. bland flat and uglie. *ugly

Sorry about yesterday. She’s a dick. It was my worst fear to see you that day. It came true . My fucking luck aye.

maybe in another life we got it right, i hope you have the happiest 2021, im so proud of the beautiful woman youve become, hope this life becomes everything you could've dreamed and then more. always and forever baby

Em
I love you so much and you mean the world to me, you are my favourite person in this whole world and I truly think we are soulmates

this is as close to forest green as I can get. I love you so much and you deserve the world I just wish you could get it and im so sorry about the way things are. I love you so much I hope you feel it. god I just want you to be safe and happy and carefree, I would promise you this but I can't even get it for myself. stay safe

i love you so bad. you mean so much to me. im so worried for you sometimes but i have no idea how to help, and i don’t want to somehow mess things up.

ily but i feel like everything you do with me is forced. don’t feel forced to talk to me or to care it’s ok dude, it doesn’t bother me just don’t fucking force this please. just be honest with me emily, trust me it makes things worse pretending, it’s not helping me or helping you. it’s probably making you even tired of talking to me and draining you but idk. just don’t force it, you don’t have to text me first and shit,it doesn’t matter ik you’re trying but don’t force it ? if you see this you did not ?

god i hope to hell im not falling in love with and it's just the idea of love that i'm addicted to. i can't. not when you are straight and well.. im not. and plus. i can't ruin this friendship of ours.

Aunque a veces no te soporte y estes loca,es agradable hablar de y leer libros contigo

att: Viandry

I want to adopt a cat with you because you love cats and I'm starting to like cats and i think we would raise it pretty well

you deserve the world baby. you are so much more beautiful and incredible and kind than you know you are, and i wish you could see yourself from my eyes. i cant wait for paris

I never had the guts to say this as you’re my best friend but I love you. Not just in the typical friend way. More than that. I know you don’t feel the same way but I had to say it. I love you and I have since I met you. I just want to go stargazing with you at night and talk about our lives when we’re older. I want to be the one that makes you laugh. I want to be the one that holds you when you cry. I want to be yours.

i love u so much MLA format i wish we were closer earlier because i didnt get enough time with u. You're an amazing friend and my love for u is ASTRONOMICAL see u in collage

I've liked you for such a long time and I wanna tell you so bad. If nothing else I wish we were at least friends I and that I could just get a sign that you at least know who I am. b

I wish you could see yourself the way I see you, I could never get annoyed of you. I love you. so much I hope you love me too -

I really want to know if you think of me the way I think of you, you send sm mixed signals its really confusing sometimes. maybe im overthinking it, maybe its just your personality? but god emily you made me rethink my whole sexuality, pls dont leave

im sorry for how ive handled everything between us. you mean everything to me and more. you weren't convenient.

fuck you fuck you fuck you. how can you just give up on me so fast i hate you even though i love you. fuck off dude. you tell me you love me all the time but give up on us give up on ME so fucking fast SO FAST. i knew you never really cared i knew i was just a side character in your life . fuck you

hey. i know it’s been a while, and we’re not on great terms, but i just wanted to talk. this may be very out of the place we’re at right now, but i was wondering if you wanted to go for a walk, or out for coffee. i feel like every time we’ve talked about what happened with us it was super unproductive, and didn’t do anything, whether that would have been to have some type of closure, or to try to repair anything.

i only ask this because, and please don’t take this personally, i feel like every time we’ve talked, it hasn’t just been me and you talking, it’s been me talking to all of you, and feeling grouped up on. i may be completely wrong about that, but that’s how it felt. i just think things might actually be clearer if we were to physically talk, so things stop being confusing.

i’m reaching out to you specifically because i feel like you and i specifically may have something left to salvage. i pretty much have accepted that nothing’s moving forward with ayanna and tedi. they made that very clear in the way they acted towards me when we talked, but you were more receptive to actually talking to me, even if it turned out to be pointless. i feel like we were closer than the others, and i really miss you.
i don’t know if this is completely stupid or pointless, but i thought i’d reach out to check. i know i shouldn’t, because this whole situation made me feel horrible for a long time after all of this happened, but i do miss you. i know things will never be the same, and i’ve come to peace with that, but i thought i’d just try and see if there’s anything left here.

ayo you’re stinky. you smell like feet. oh and ur bf is stupid and ugly. i even put the color as brown because it’s the color of poop. and you’re poop so it fits.

i've never hated anyone more. you ruin my life every time you enter it. i hope i never see you again.

i regret meeting you but i don’t regret meeting you, you messed me up more than anyone has ever but you made me happy? but it was just fucking temporary and one sided since you never really cared. fuck you

Since I’ve met you, you’ve had such an impact on my life. We resonate with our awkwardness and our love of anime. You’re the most intriguing person I’ve ever met. Even though we are thousands of miles apart I feel you close to me. I love you

you are the love of my life, and you will never know that. i try to put on a brave face around you and your boyfriend, but the pain is always present. i know we would be perfect together, if only you liked girls

I didn't really understand how I felt towards you you as you were the first girl I liked, I wish you were around now

sometimes i still wish we could have everything we stayed up til 4 am talking about on facetime and other times hearing ur voice makes me shake in anger. i want you to be happy in this lifetime

i’m sorry i didn’t love you hard enough, i thought i did enough. i obviously didn’t as it showed in the end.

From z: Emily u made me smile when no one else could but now when I think of you it’s just sadness. Fuck you though and yo adopted brother

I wish you had realized why I said goodbye. Maybe if I hadn't got sick, this never would've happened. Don't be sad, okay? It was always going to end like this. I'm not afraid of death anymore.

leave me alone. seriously. this is creepy as fuck and i dont know why you thought i wouldnt notice especially when theres one for l*** the same day. please get a life.

i’m learning how to do better without you my happiness depends on you and it’s really getting bad i’m trying to do what is best for me even though it hurts.. i love you goodbye

sometimes i tell myself you'll choose me. i then remember you go for girls who don't care for you the way i do.

Dude sometimes I wish your thoughts of me didn’t change and I wish I didn’t fuck up what we could’ve been because I’ve never felt anything like what I’ve felt for you before. I wish and hope one day you change your mind and we can be more than just friends because I really really want to genuinely be with you. I see a lot in you that I don’t see in other people. You’re genuine, beautiful, thoughtful, smart, funny, you’re so... unexplainably admirable to me. But hey, we have a few more years in school together and more memories to make. I hope we get to be closer and closer. I fucking love you :)

hey, i still love you. and i still miss when you smile and dimples pop up. and terrible puns. thanks for the birthday text i guess. its been a couple days and its all i can think about

i was stupid and wasn’t ready for a relationship even though i showed that i was, i’m sorry if i hurt you but i miss you

in loosing feelings for you , it’s so disappointing too i wish i can go back to the moment where you first held my hand that fucking moment where i felt something i haven’t felt before , i miss it . i don’t feel the way the way i felt when i’d get your texts i’d get butterflies and so happy my smile would get so fucking big when i get your notifications now it’s not. id always wish when i got notifications it was you. but it doesn’t feel like that anymore it’s different. i miss it. even though we literally talk it’s just not the same . my smile has never gotten bigger when i get your notifications you changed me you changed my point of view on life i love you sm and you’re my favorite person and there’s so much to unpack with that title i depend on you. you are my happiness my sadness why tf do i love you but hate you? you’re my only source of feeling my only source of happiness my only source of sadness my only source of anger. fuck emily why do i need you why do i love you . why do i depend on your for everything. i cant loose you i’d be lost give me more time

you honestly don’t know how much you’ve impacted me. YOU BROUGHT ME OUT OF A DEPRESSIVE EPISODE WITH JUST YOUR WORDS i saw you comment on someone’s video talking about how hot they are and i got jealous so fucking jealous that i went up from my depressive episode cleaned my room took my shower brushed my teeth and did my hair JUST BC OF THAT. you have so much power over me and you don’t even know. dude emily you don’t know how much you really mean me me.. the time i ignored you it was SO HARD SO
FUCKING HARD it was so hard not texting you back but i knew i had to do it but i couldn’t do it for long. you’ll never see yourself as how i see you because i see you as a fucking goddess like as to the point where if ducking idolize you which i don’t anymore but i was so fucking swoon away by you i couldn’t see what was going on. one day i fucking starting crying thinking of a life without you i really can’t loose you that’s why i texted you if you’re ok because i can’t loose you ever . it’s unfortunate i’m loosing my feelings for you everyday but i guess it’s time to move on. i hope you find someone who loves you the way i do/did. i loved everything about you, your voice your smile . but i don’t really feel the same anymore i’m becoming less dependent on you which is a good thing? maybe? because i’ve only been sad bc of you i’ve only been happy bc of you i’ve only. been mad BC OF YOU. ugh oh well

A part of me loves you still, because you were my best friend, but another part of me will always hate you, because you made me hate myself.

im just thankful for everything. you truly were great and as long as you’re happy that’s fantastic. even if it’s without
me

I love going on walks with you. I want to hold your hand and tell you how much I love you, but I can't.

you mean so much to me you loser. I can't believe we've been friends for as long as we have. thank you for being there for me through thick and thin. I love you

“Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything. because of you I don’t know how to let anyone else in” ... pretty much sums up my life after I met you..

Emily, we literally need to find the twins because we are so desperate that we would literally say yes to a cockroach in grey sweatpant❤️

you look like you just went outside and wiped your face in the ground girl that is not tan it looks like you are covered in dirt