Unsent messages to COLIN

i wish i walked down the street and knocked on ur door 3 years ago today. instead of seeing the cops do it. i miss you.

I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for what you’ve done to me. The pain and loss you brought. But I can’t unlove you even if I tried to.

i don’t think i miss you anymore but i miss who i was when i was with you. i miss the innocents. i miss feeling

i didnt realize you were my first love until I lost u. days go by and still think about you. I wish I got closure and actually knew why you just gave up and left. I still have one picture of us left and I look at times. i just wish most guys were like you. i wish you would unblock me on everything but I know it wont happen. but I wish for the day all the time. i send you texts even tho I know you won't answer.

even though i ended it with you, dosnt mean im over you. it was right person wrong timing. want to talk to you again but you moved on.

hi lol, i know you aren't actually gonna see this but i love u more than anything. ik we've been on and off a couple times this year and thats okay. just please don't leave me again. i can't lose you a third time. you mean the absolute world to me. i love u

we joke about getting married and also hangout now and then. i miss you and don’t want the day u and i never talk again to ever come. i’ll always remember you no matter what happens.

i helped you when you were broken... but you never returned that when i was breaking right in front of your eyes

I hate how we have mutual friends. It seems like your name is always brought up. I miss you. Not the current you- the old you. The one who had my back. The one who had morals. The one who treated others kindly and respectfully. The one who listened to his friends. Especially when he lost something so good.

I know you'll never read this but that one night we snuck out together, you were really cute. I hope that wasn't the last time.

we ended on bad terms, but i cant help wondering how you're doing. i miss you, and i hate myself for it.

i remember when you would get ur braces stuck to the of ur mouth in 5th grade.. lowkey should’ve laughed instead of helped you lololol!

Most of the time when i think about you, i get so pissed.. but on those few rare occasions, you make my heart sink a little deeper. Thats why i hate you, because that means somewhere deep down, a bit of me cares for you.

Most of the time when i think about you, i get so mad.. but others it makes my heart sink a little deeper, and thats why i hate you, because somewhere a bit of me cares for you.

She's really pretty, I've never seen you so happy and as much as I want the best for you and her both, I hope you fall so in love with her and she leaves you. Then maybe you'll finally understand the feeling of emptiness you left me with, you'll know why no matter how many years I still can't get over you, maybe then you'll come back to me.

Fuck you. You broke me. You used. You cheated on me with my best friend. You were so ungrateful. I hope one day you understand the pain you put me through.

hey i’m always gonna be here. i’ve always liked you. i don’t think i’m going to like someone as much as i like you. i won’t forget ur smile :)

i miss you. come back please. you’re all i think about. i know we were toxic together and that we couldn't even be friends without fighting but i don't wanna give up and let you go. idk if we are on a break right now because you didn't tell me. you just stopped talking to me. im sorry i ruined everything like you said. maybe i should go visit my mom.. will that make you happy? its like i don’t even know what to do without you. im bored without you. i hardly even talk to my friends. they don't like you and neither does my family but i don't care. i don’t like my family. my sister acts like getting a restriction on my phone to where i can only talk to family will make me “happy” like i hate this family so its gonna make me want to die even more lmao. i hate life. thank you for everything you’ve done. and if you don't want to come back then you don't have too. i just miss you and i wish i was a better person. i’ve became a bitch. towards you. you mean so much to me but maybe its best if you're away from me. youll become happy and it wont hurt you if i die. i wish i could drop all my other friends so it doesn't hurt them either but what if i fail? ill be friendless. i don’t wanna be lonely.

hi, ive loved you for as long as i can remember. i love you with every bit of me. i want to spend the rest of my life with you but i think you stopped trying. come back to me please.

i’m sorry for everything. just know that i’ll always love you and i’ll always be there if you need me

I thought you liked me back because you made the first moves. but then you ghosted me for another girl and i was so hurt

I never wanted to live in a world that you weren't in. you left so easily. its been weeks and I still love you more then myself. i'm sorry for not being enough for you.

I hate you with my whole heart but i thank you for teaching me to be careful with my heart and to choose wisely. Still working on it but you taught me to not give myself away to assholes like you. There will always be a part of you i remember which i don’t want to. Fuck you boo. Hope your happy and well

i miss your laugh,i miss singing in the car with you,how you messed with the rips in my jeans. i just miss you

i wish that i had said “i love you” more often. because little did i know that one day we would be saying our last goodbyes.

please tell me what makes you think its okay to tell me about your new girl? yes, we're friends, but i'm still in love with you, and everytime i hear about how well things are going with her, my stomach drops. why do you think this is ok?