Unsent messages to CAMERON

We weren’t meant to be but I’m thankful for the time we had together. Thank you for all the laughs, smiles, and the memories. I will cherish the time we had together.

i wish i had the dignity to say "no" when u wanted me to "send" but i was in love with you so i did as i was asked. fuck you, you tiny dick mother fucker :)

Hi love,
I’m sorry for getting so worked up all the time. Thank you for being so patient with me, you’re amazing. I love you

I wish you knew how much I love you.I'm really trying so hard for and to be enough for you and I wish you noticed that.Thank you for being there for me all those times when I was at my lowest.I feel like you don't know how much I appreciate you because you're so caught up on the one person you love more than anything. But I just wish you knew how much I actually appreciate you.You make me feel so cared abot by just dong the smallest things like that one time you told me when we're older you were gonna come pick me up while its raining and we would park and just sit there and talk while listening to music.Or that one time we were on the phone and you sang Feeling Whitney by Post Malone and you knew that was my favorite song at the time.I would always cry to that one lyric,"and I've been looking for someone to put up with my bullshit" and I always wanted to have someone who would put up with my bullshit and that's exactly what you do.You make me feel loved even if you've never said it in words. Thank you for being there for me when I was at my lowest. Thank you Cameron.

To this day I love you and would do anything for you, though I know the thought isnt returned. I wouldn't have been anything without you

You saved me. thank you for everything you ever did for me. you were a piece of shit but still cared about me when i needed it.

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

I don't think you are ever going to understand how much I truly like just being able to spend time with you even when all we do is watch tv. I don't know maybe I am just overthinking this whole situation like I usually do, but I just kinda feel as though you don't have the same feelings toward me as I do towards you anymore, which in all honesty is such a shitty feeling because I'm pretty sure we are meant to be a team. I just miss how awkward and affectionate you used to be, I don't really know what's up with you because you don't open up to me which is a bit sucky and look I get it, you aren't a very out-there person, but I feel like you should be able to be open with me, that's what I'm here for. I know you aren't going to see this and that is fine by me but I just want you to know that no matter what does happen with us, I really really like you, even if I act like a bitch sometimes, and I hope you know that.

Sometimes I wish we didn’t meet. Sometimes I rethink everything over and over again. How I gave myself to you. I loved you, but that wasn’t enough for you. I was never gonna be enough for you. You led me to hating myself. You led me to doubting anyone who’s ever loved me. We had a trauma bond yet for some reason there’s a part of me that still loves you

Sometimes I wish we never met. I gave you everything and I still wasn’t enough. There’s still a part of me that will always love you. Why would you do this to me

I really wish that I was enough for you. I wish you didn't go to the popular girl after you were done cheating to prove I wasn't worth it.

I know you only like me as a friend, but she’s so mean to you, i see how she talks to you. I could give you the love you deserve

who thought after everything I went through with you, I'd still be willing to have a conversation with you

you're my best friend. i never asked for you to become my friend all those years ago, but you did. you stuck around, and i'm still here because of you. i fucking love you, man.

I wish we could have done things worked out, I suppose none of us were ready to face a real relationship at our age.

Hey you it's Cam. Instead of writing these to no one, text me. Or drive down here if you can get a vehicle. It's raining today which makes me think of us. I'm ready to talk and see you again, I just don't want to humiliate myself by being the one to reach out first.

i'm the happiest when i'm with you, i wish things werent so complicated. i doubt you even feel the same. youre all i think about, & i love you more than you know. i can only hope.

i’m so sorry. i will never forgive myself as i know i’m the cause for so much. i wish i could be there for you but now i mentally can’t even help myself.

i love you so much and i want us to work but i know we wont, i will wait however long you need to me to, im not leaving.

in 7th grade u made me feel beautiful and special. i always think about what couldve been. luv u always.

Not exactly unsent, but I love you, you pulled me from such a dark place and I couldn't be happier with you

I've never met someone quite like you, and I don't think I will again. You are my other half and I miss you like crazy

I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you cam, but maybe we just weren’t meant to come back together. People called me “naive” for believing everything you say. They told me I’m setting myself up for failure. I didn’t care if I set myself up for failure I’m in love with you. But maybe they were right, you just had to be honest with me and we would be okay. It happened a second time when you promised it wouldn’t. It wasn’t supposed to happen again. Maybe we’ll get together in a different time, just not this one. I’ll always love you. Thank you for everything.

I wanted you to be my person. I wanna keep my promise to wait for you. I wanted to be with you and help you while you fixed yourself. Some songs I can’t even listen to without crying. Your little accent drove me crazy. You just drove me crazy. I felt safe with you. I miss you Boo Bear ? I could write so much more but I have felt so numb since we said our goodbyes.

I wish we still talked. I miss you. I miss my best friend. I hope you know I want the best for you always.

Our timing was never right, no matter how hard we tried. But you showed me that I was good enough and I’m forever thankful for that.

i was so in love it’s crazy that u could go and do me so wrong... u think i’m “obsessed” but in reality it’s because u were the only thing keeping me happy.

i was so in love it’s crazy that u could go and do me so wrong... u think i’m “obsessed” but in reality it’s because u were the only thing keeping me happy.

you are nothing but a liar but we had a connection i can’t find with anyone else and i hate you for it

i wanna move on but no one seems to want me the way you did. that one time i kissed every single one of your freckles and we sat there laughing for an hour keeps replaying in my head. i miss you.

We’re so different yet I’m so drawn to you. You don’t feel the same about me, but that’s okay. To me, you’re magnetic.

i don’t know how i felt about you. but i know i spent too long striving for your attention. and i know i’m done.

I miss listening about the things you love and the things that upset you. I wish things turned out different for you and me both.

You told me you don't like me back in that way yet still love for me and show me im worthy... could we hopefully be something in the near future? i have been in love with you since we met

I know you’ll never love me but, I’m okay with that because your presence alone makes me feel like the luckiest girl.

i’m sorry i didn’t tell you i loved you back i was scared, but i’ll keep waiting for u to say it again until then i hope u n her last:(

Why did you tell me you liked me then ghost me when your friends found out about us? Were you embarrassed of me

You ruined me for a small period of my life, but in the end it was a lesson and I now know what I deserve

I knew I’d love you the first day I met you. How can you make me feel the way you do and still be with her? It’s not your fault.

I’m no longer crying over you, I’m moved on. Some days I wish so badly it could’ve been you. But I’m glad you grew up enough for her. Thank you for summer ‘19