in 7th grade u made me feel beautiful and special. i always think about what couldve been. luv u always.

I think of life if you were still here. I don't know why you left but you did. I don't want you to be here we had a terrible life and i'm happy you didn't. I need you though, its getting harder to live with you gone. I need a sign to know you're here. I love you Cameron..

i love you so much and i want us to work but i know we wont, i will wait however long you need to me to, im not leaving.

I miss listening about the things you love and the things that upset you. I wish things turned out different for you and me both.

i knew it was always one sided, you told me not to worry about her. i’m a fool. i hope you’re happy with her

i don’t know how i felt about you. but i know i spent too long striving for your attention. and i know i’m done.

i’m so sorry. i will never forgive myself as i know i’m the cause for so much. i wish i could be there for you but now i mentally can’t even help myself.

i'm the happiest when i'm with you, i wish things werent so complicated. i doubt you even feel the same. youre all i think about, & i love you more than you know. i can only hope.

Hey you it's Cam. Instead of writing these to no one, text me. Or drive down here if you can get a vehicle. It's raining today which makes me think of us. I'm ready to talk and see you again, I just don't want to humiliate myself by being the one to reach out first.

the fact that when we ended our conversation last night and i didn't feel anything at all makes me feel amazing

I miss you. I still think about you but im getting over it. i still think about the last time I saw you. I wish you didnt forget about me

I wish it wasn't so easy for you to leave me. I miss you and I miss your family, also your dog. im always going to love you

:P heya cam, idk which name you might put so im submitting multiple... i think youre super cool and underappreciated by everyone just because we're so used to you being the most chill, kind, dry-humour-funny (which is the best) kinda guy... please dont forget how much we care about you!

I honestly really wasn’t expecting you to be what you were but I loved you anyway. Even when you lied about so many things. I still loved you. I was willing to accept those things still. But you asked for too much. You couldn’t be satisfied with just acceptance. You wanted all of me. And I couldn’t give that to you. Honestly you’re so selfish even now it breaks my heart. I don’t know if it’s because you were scared I would leave you for someone better is what made you corner me like that but you drove me away. It’s your own fault. I saw a life for us, I really did. But you didn’t believe I did. I feel like though out everything, you never actually believe anything I said. I hope you someday realize that. I hope you realize that I wasn’t the issue. I wasn’t the one that made us go to shit. I do still love you. I don’t miss you though. And I want to get over you. I can’t say these things to your face, I’m not strong enough to. If you somehow stumble upon this then well atleast you heard it even if you don’t know it’s me.

I wish we could have done things worked out, I suppose none of us were ready to face a real relationship at our age.

you're my best friend. i never asked for you to become my friend all those years ago, but you did. you stuck around, and i'm still here because of you. i fucking love you, man.

you are nothing but a liar but we had a connection i can’t find with anyone else and i hate you for it

who thought after everything I went through with you, I'd still be willing to have a conversation with you

i was so in love it’s crazy that u could go and do me so wrong... u think i’m “obsessed” but in reality it’s because u were the only thing keeping me happy.

i was so in love it’s crazy that u could go and do me so wrong... u think i’m “obsessed” but in reality it’s because u were the only thing keeping me happy.

I'm not sure I was in love with you or the idea of you, yet you still broke me and made me who I am today

Hey , idk if you'll ever see this or if anyone will but I was in love with you STupId but it was too late before I could relise it so hey in the future let's not be strangers I wanna know you, I wanna be your friend , I wanna support you . If we are ment to be may we meet again - love elizabeth

sometimes i try to tell myself that ive never loved anyone or that im not capable of loving anyone...but you’re always in the back of my mind so that’s a lie. i really do love you and thats why i don’t expect anything back, you could be with anyone and id still feel the same. everyday i love you more than the last. everything comes back to you. youre in the back of all my daydreams and sleepless nights and even nightmares. you give me a reason even if we’ll never have a future together. i want you more than anything. i love you so much and ill love you even more tomorrow even though i didn’t know it was possible to love so hard and unconditionally. ill wait for you but if you never come i won’t regret waiting.

Our timing was never right, no matter how hard we tried. But you showed me that I was good enough and I’m forever thankful for that.

its getting harder and harder to remember your laugh as the days pass without talking to you. i think about you less and less everyday, and im really trying to find my purpose in life without you. ive learned to accept the fact that you never really cared the way i did, even though you promised that you did. and im trying to be okay with that.

i see your face when im just about to go to bed. ive spent countless nights fixated on an image of someone who wants nothing to do with me. i love you for reasons i couldnt say and i cant escape the very thought of you. i love you regardless of the torture that youve put me through because id expirience it all again to be everything youve ever wanted. if someone were to mention the prospect of soulmates, in my head youd be mine and id be yours. despite everything youve done to me and everything i endured, we'd be together. that's love right?

i dont hate you. i just hate the feeling of still loving you and not being able to get over it. i didnt want to leave and youre still hung up on my mind all the time. i know i cant take back the pain ive caused you to go through and i dont know how to express how sorry i am even though its probably pointless because it cant fix anything now.’ive wanted to reach out to you so many times but ive just always felt too ashamed and scared of rejection. idk. a part of me keeps wanting to think we might still have a chance but in reality i guess i just have to let you go if it’s how its meant to be. cam, thank you for everything. you made me feel like i was on top of the world. i know how much you cared about me and i never wanted to hurt you at all. i wanted to protect you by letting you go bc no one wanted us together but instead that fucked up everything more, especially the connection between us. i regret nothing more than being such a shitty ex all these years. i dont deserve you and thats the truth. goodbye.

You made me scared of you. Afraid to exist. Like I was back in 7th grade again getting picked apart. Like everything I’d achieved or gotten through was just for nothing. If you were willing to do that to me, then I guess I never really knew you at all. That realization hurts more than anything else really. I meant everything I ever said to you besides a few texts. You made me tired of living so openly. Thanks for making me think human connection is shameful and horrible again.

I thought I was blushing because I still loved you. It was actually anxiety. I was just nervous. I should have trusted my gut.

You were the first guy I never thought would leave me... but here I am, alone again. It hurt so much more coming from you.

despite all the horrible things you did to me my heart still hurts and i still love you a lot that’s so dumb and toxic of me to say. why couldn’t i have been the one you wanted. i was ready for the type of love again

i can’t even believe you’re still on my mind. i wish you weren’t. so much time has passed and i’ve met other guys but no one has ever compared to you so here i am alone. you really fucked me up. and looking back i find it hard to find any truth in any of the words you ever told me. some days i’ll write messages to you in my notes of all the things i would say to you if i got the chance. but i know that it’s unlikely that day will ever come. i’m trying to get rid of the perfect fixated image of you in my head because you’ve shown me over and over that it’s not the person you are at all. you’re slowly entering my life again and i have to remind myself that i’m in love with you from a year ago, but i’m not in love with you anymore. you would’ve been lucky to have me in your life. i settled for you over and over because of the person i thought you were. so thank you for teaching me not to settle and to know my worth. i love you, and i always will. you will be the person i tell my kids about when i tell them the story of my first love, of the first guy i ever envisioned having kids with. but you will also be the type of guy i’ll know i need to protect my daughters from. we weren’t good for each other. i was very happy because of you, but i was also happy before you and soon i will find happiness after you. here’s to finally letting your control of me go. goodbye cam.

I wish we still talked. I miss you. I miss my best friend. I hope you know I want the best for you always.

never in my life have i hated someone and loved someone so much at the same time as i do you. what’ll hurt more ,keeping you around or finally letting you go?

you made feel okay. You made my scars fade. It’s 3am and You’re probably asleep, this is the time I write my poetry; all I can think is to hope you’re okay. who knew whe’d say goodnight, for the last time.

i remember when u broke up with me i acted like i didn't care. like it did not faze me at all. and i kept on having that mentality until the day at the park when i saw u and we walked around and talked about life. then i remembered how safe i felt with u, how easily i could talk to u, how much i missed talking to u. now ur bitchass is all i think about lol whoops

I wanted you to be my person. I wanna keep my promise to wait for you. I wanted to be with you and help you while you fixed yourself. Some songs I can’t even listen to without crying. Your little accent drove me crazy. You just drove me crazy. I felt safe with you. I miss you Boo Bear ? I could write so much more but I have felt so numb since we said our goodbyes.

Hi love,

We're going through some tough times right now, me especially, but I hope you know how much I love you and how much I want us to get through any hardship. Please don't give up.

I hate you. I wish I never loved you. You were looking for traces of her in me and I hate you even more for making me believe you loved me. I hope you never get love.

Through all of the lies, tears and hurt - I still care and think about you. You were my first love - I honestly wish you the best and I hope you are happy.

You hurt me and visa versa. I can see you've grown and changed. I have too. Hopefully we can be friends in the future.

I’ll never forgive you for leaving me when I needed you, I’ll never forgive you for selling your mustang but most of all I’ll never forgive you for letting me love you. It’s been so long and I feel like the love with never go away.

I know you only like me as a friend, but she’s so mean to you, i see how she talks to you. I could give you the love you deserve

fuck u i hate u you had no right to do that no is no ur scum and i hate u i wish i never spent all that time wasted on you

I wish you hadn't blocked me. I wish you were still that person. I wish you still cared. I wish I meant something to you now.

I don't know what's wrong with you. but if you were pretending the whole time maybe you should be an actor.

I really wish that I was enough for you. I wish you didn't go to the popular girl after you were done cheating to prove I wasn't worth it.

We’re so different yet I’m so drawn to you. You don’t feel the same about me, but that’s okay. To me, you’re magnetic.

you're the biggest hypocrite ever. you're a terrible person and i mean it. think about someone besides yourself for once. stop blaming all of your issues on other people when you're the issue. i can't even stand talking to you anymore, you're a completely different person than you were when we first met. i wish you would grow up.

Sometimes I wish we never met. I gave you everything and I still wasn’t enough. There’s still a part of me that will always love you. Why would you do this to me