Sometimes I wish we didn’t meet. Sometimes I rethink everything over and over again. How I gave myself to you. I loved you, but that wasn’t enough for you. I was never gonna be enough for you. You led me to hating myself. You led me to doubting anyone who’s ever loved me. We had a trauma bond yet for some reason there’s a part of me that still loves you

I was in love with you for five years and I never directly told you. I never thought that I could be good enough for you until one day I decided that I didn't need to keep fighting for something I knew I wasn't going to get. It may have been a huge waste of time, but it was something to daydream about. I like to say that I've moved on, but I do think about you on occasion. I know that I'll never forget you, even though years after we graduate I know I'll be nothing more than a distant memory for you. I look forward to our high school reunions when I hopefully can see what a loser you've become lol. Regardless of what could have happened, I still wish you the best

lavender. i associated that with you. the color, the plant, the smell. you knew that. i thought it was beautiful. it made me happy like you did. i hope you know how much i loved you. fuck you.

You always saved me a spot on the couch next to you. Now I don’t even know how to be in the same room as you.

sometimes I feel okay again, but once I remember what you did the pain comes back just as bitter as the day you did it.

i still dont know what i did to make you stop loving me. i dont think youll ever understand how much it hurts to know that it wasnt that you couldnt do it, it was that you just didnt love me anymore. will anyone ever know you the same way i did? did i even know you? when you said you loved me, were you just lying to me? i feel so used, cameron. i poured everything i had into you, why was i not enough? why was it so hard to love me?

I thought I was in love before you, but I wasn’t. This is true love. You don’t feel the same way though, and that’s why I can never tell you.

i wish i had the dignity to say "no" when u wanted me to "send" but i was in love with you so i did as i was asked. fuck you, you tiny dick mother fucker :)

if your gonna leave again just do it. you keep distancing yourself and not taking to me so I know somethings up.just know that when you leave this time I won't be here much longer.

I secretly hope you'll never leave my life. I like whenever you pop up. I hope one day we can see each other once more.

i have decided this will be my last submission. i won't come back to this website and search my name in hopes that you left me something and i am no longer going to check your social media. i deserve better, thank you for helping my realize that. it isn't fair that i have been nothing but kind to you never reciprocate it. two whole years of trying to get you to love me, two whole years of wondering what was wrong with me. i listen to your relationship problems and give you advice no matter how much it hurts me. i feel like deep down you know that it hurts me, but you have me wrapped around your finger. i know you better than anyone, but you haven't taken the time to know me. no one else will ever put up with your bullshit like i do. you are constantly moving from one relationship to the next and you don't realize how bad these people are for you but i do. how do i tell you that your relationships are destined to fail because you're seeking to fill a void that you can only fill by yourself? don't you know that too? you are wasting your time. you have always prioritized your relationships over your friends. you can never make time to hang out with me, not even on my birthday but of course you can be with her every single day. it hurts. you only speak to me when she's not here and i can't cope with that. i can't just be a place filler anymore. you may be my only friend but you really fucking suck. i would rather be alone than to keep pretending like you are a good person. you have changed so much. i don't like how things change. i can't even stand to talk to you anymore so i won't. i'll stop answering my phone and slowly but surely i'll stop thinking about you . i hope she's worth it.

I don't think you are ever going to understand how much I truly like just being able to spend time with you even when all we do is watch tv. I don't know maybe I am just overthinking this whole situation like I usually do, but I just kinda feel as though you don't have the same feelings toward me as I do towards you anymore, which in all honesty is such a shitty feeling because I'm pretty sure we are meant to be a team. I just miss how awkward and affectionate you used to be, I don't really know what's up with you because you don't open up to me which is a bit sucky and look I get it, you aren't a very out-there person, but I feel like you should be able to be open with me, that's what I'm here for. I know you aren't going to see this and that is fine by me but I just want you to know that no matter what does happen with us, I really really like you, even if I act like a bitch sometimes, and I hope you know that.

I can still smell the scent of your shampoo lingering on my pillow. It reminds me of the warmth of your love that I once had.

why did you leave like nothing ever happened between us? you promised me that you wouldn't hurt me just like everyone else has. I love you and I don't want to. Please give me the parts of myself that you took back.

I know we were toxic throughout our relationship, but you were so good to me. I loved you, and I still do.

We weren’t meant to be but I’m thankful for the time we had together. Thank you for all the laughs, smiles, and the memories. I will cherish the time we had together.

you really really make me
happy though, i never want to let you go. you’re really a special person and i hope we can hang out soon, i miss you even though it’s only been a couple days

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

how long have we known each other ? 14 years. did you know that? or did you have to think a little because i wonder if you think a little about me , or maybe a lot. I know that you and I are soulmates , but do you?

its been a while, since we last spoke. i wanna check in and see how youre doing, but its not my place to anymore. its been nearly 2 years, 2 whole years since i first fell in love with you.

I still remember your favourite colour

I want to know if your taller than me yet

And I want to tell you, you were the first one I loved and I’ve loved others but no one has loved me

You hurt me a lot, I cry, I yell, I smile, I laugh because of you. But sometimes the hurt is to much more than the good, and you’ve hurt me a lot. I need to let go but I’m scared I’ll never have anyone again. I don’t love you anymore but I love the idea of you. I miss the old McDreamy

You saved me. thank you for everything you ever did for me. you were a piece of shit but still cared about me when i needed it.

I constantly didn’t feel good enough. I fell in love with my imaginary version of you. I asked myself, why is it so hard? You’re not around anymore. It hurts.

what you did after you left cut me deeper than you do know, but i still love you after all the things you’ve done.

hmmmm how do i start. you just seemed like the perfect guy. your opinions on the world. the way you thought everyone is equal. your the type of guy that every girl wanted. well at least the one i wanted. you made me so fuckin happy everytime i would get a message. until i found out you had a girlfriend. thanks for playing with my heart xx :)

i haven't wrote here to you in a while. I saw the one you sent in green.I think that was you idk. I'm doing ok though. I am. Sometimes I still get sad from time to time but that's normal. I made it to four months on January second, I reach 135 days in 6 days.I think I can do it. I've been feeling happier and less anxious. I'm doing alright.

i love you. i’m madly in love with you. how i don’t know but i miss you so much and i just wanted you to be mine. that’s it. the bare minimum was too much to ask, now i’m left picking up the pieces.

i wanna move on but no one seems to want me the way you did. that one time i kissed every single one of your freckles and we sat there laughing for an hour keeps replaying in my head. i miss you.

cameron
ever since that day I met you I wanted to know you so bad, but I was too scared. until summer of 2020 came and we hanged out in my city. I love you but you don't love me back. I wish I could have you but you like others.

I need to constantly remind myself that you are no longer the boy I once fell in love with. He’s gone.

I don’t think I’ll see you again but I think that’s okay. You’ll stay as perfect image in my mind forever. And honestly I think it’s more beautiful that way.

thank you for making me smile. thank you for everything. you deserve someone who cares for you and makes you happy.

I loved you with all my heart. You have changed. A lot. I hope you find yourself again. And yes royal blue is my fav color...

it’s been almost 5 months. i still think about you every day and how your hands felt on my skin. i miss you so much, i wish we could go back to the good times and i can fall asleep in your arms again. i love you cammy, always will.

yeah, you hurt me, but all i wish was that you would have been willing to try instead of just giving up. i will always be in love with you

it is almost embarrasing to admit i am still so in love with you. i dont know if it is because i never had someone else in my life like you but i feel like no one will love me the way you did, and i wont love someone as much as i love you. i think of you in every song i listen to, in every poem i read and in every painting i see. i wish there was a way to tell you about how i feel without seeming like a pathetic ex who just cant let go.

i want to stop thinking about what we could have been and act on my feelings but i can't. i'm a coward. i hope in the future you can find enough room in your heart to forgive me.

i noticed the little changes in your texts, and it kills me knowing ur not coming back this time. i’ll love you forever baby.

i love you

i dont hate u i js hate having to see u everyday.

You have ruined me but somehow i still love you

I miss you quite alot, and your the only guy I've ever cried over

i just want you to know that you will always have a big place in my heart. thank you for everything.

I still love you.

wish u were here. i wanna try again. i still think about that summer

I’ve thought about why we shouldn’t, but it could be great if we did. Have you thought about it?

nobody cares about me, nobody stays with me… so i don’t wanna depend on anybody.

if only we lived closer right?