Unsent messages to BRIAN

I don't even know where to start. You will be missed. You were a great guy and I'm so lucky I had ti privilege of getting to know you. You were doing big things at such a young age. Fly high bro. I know you're in a better place now and still accomplishing big things. Till we meet again.

My feelings for you won’t go away no matter how hard I try at the moment. You weaken me in ways no other person has so far. I love you. Even though my love won’t last forever especially while knowing I’m young, you will always be my first love. I wish you well in life. :)

i still have that list of our favorite memories in my docs. i pushed you away, but you can’t just forget your first love

i wish you didn’t choose her over me... i was so happy with you. i still love you & i always will...

sometimes i still think about you and wonder how you're doing. i hope you're not involving yourself in problems such as butting in relationships (iykyk haha). i'm sorry for all the damage i may have caused you and i hope that one day you can forgive me too. i hope we can be friends again one day

Boy did you ruin my life.. you made me not believe in love at such a young age. I believe that being in love was having to deal with you cheating and drinking all the time and I just had to forgive and forget...boy do I regret you

the thought that used to keep me up at night was that you where thinking about me, and now i find myself awake at night wondering if i even cross your mind sometimes.

Thought you could be the one, and you still might be. You've been hurting me and you know that. I'll care about you forever regardless.

I know you’ll never feel for me the way I feel for you. I know you’ll never understand how much it hurts me.

You hurt me so bad and I hated you for it. Looking back, it made me even more strong and mature and I thank you for that.

hey, i miss u. even tho things didn’t end as well as i hoped, i hope ur doing well and that ur happy. i think u still owe me an apology. btw my ticket was expensive

you hurt me. and i wanted to believe that you could be, and wanted to be, better. but you just... left. and i can’t forgive you for that.

you fucked me over so hard. you turned my friends against me even if you don’t think you did. you built me up and broke me down like nothing mattered. you helped heal my wounds before injecting them with poison. you took the bandages i could of used to heal. you stole the tools i could use to rebuild myself and instead used them to build a narrative where i was the one who ruined you. you mentally drained me. you blamed me for things that i didn’t do. i’m sorry i exist. it’s all resolved it’s all okay it’s all fine we’re okay but i’ll never forget how you ruined me for a while. i still fucking love you.

I really did like you! and it really hurt me when you left. i wasn't using you and i never would. But the fact you believed your friend over me hurt a lot. i still love you and forever will

My dearest friend, if you don't mind, I'd like to join you by your side. Where we could gaze into the stars, and sit together, now and forever. For it is plain as anyone can see, we're simply meant to be.

you suck for saying you needed to work on yourself but out here talking to other girls. for why? was 2 years not enough for you? was I not enough for you?

I still dream of being wrapped in your arms every night. Maybe in another universe we’re still together.

im sorry if it seemed like i wasn't paying attention to you that night. i wish i could explain everything to you. i wish i had another chance. every song reminds me of you. i've been sober since that day you left. i hope you still play guitar, you were really good at it. i miss you.

i respect your decision. just know im here for you whenever you need it and i hope we find our way back soon.

You lied, you said you did not want a relationship. You meant you didn't want it with me. I just wish you were honest for once. I believed everything you said because I cared.

you were so toxic to me but i can’t seem to get you off my mind. i hope you still think of me sometimes.

It's always been you. always you. I would do anything to have you in my life, even as a friend but you know I want more than that. I just want you happy no matter what.

I will always love you and wished you could be mine bc I never been able to love someone the same way and care that much.

it hurts sm without you, i don't get you at all. one day you want me the next you don't. i stg i love you tho and always will.

Hey, sometimes I can't imagine what the world would be without you and sometimes I just want you to disappear

if we met at a different time, maybe it would've worked out.

thank you for showing me what real love is

I know you still want to be friends. but after a year with you, I will never be able to see you as a friend you're my first love.

Sorry for not having enjoyed the time we had together as I should, it was very nice to have shared part of my life with you, I hope you are happy.

Hola, realmente me hubiera gustado que funcionara.
Tener nuestra casa morada y que nuestra vida me inspirará después a escribir un libro.
Te amo, pero no eres para mi ♥

I hope you understand what you mean to this world sooner rather than later. The world would ache if it lost you.

did our 4 years of friendship mean nothing to you? you picked being with another girl over our friendship. I never did anything to you, I was always there for you. instead you insulted me and went to be with her. I miss you and just want you back. but I truly hope you’re happy with her and the choices you’ve made.

what up motherfucker, i just wanna say i love you. and ive loved u since the 8 grade , ur my bestfriend and have dealt with so much of my drama and u were there when i cried. I might act like i dont care alot and i might act like i dont like you but u love you. im scared to loose u, before u i honestly didnt give a fuck about loosing people after i lost jose. but bur amazing and im sorry if i mess up on calls at night it kinda makes me uncomfortable but if it makes u happy ill do it i love youuuu and ur weird pineapple addiction

I like you a lot since 7th grade i think. The boy at school that I think is cute is your lookalike. i wanna be more than friends.

Mientras me decías que te repitiera que no sentía nada por ti pero mirándote a los ojos, realmente pensaba que no iba a poder, pero pude mientras todo el amor que sentía por ti estaba gritando poder salir.

You have no idea how much I despise you for what you did. You broke up with me and then went around telling everyone that I was the bad guy, that I was crazy. Now, all of our mutual friends don’t like me and they all chose you. Why would you do that? You know what you did. How you took advantage of me when I didn’t want you to. I hope that the next girl you date, you don't treat them how you treated me.

words were not spoken for hours, i watched the sunrise drinking my cup of coffee, crying. you were gone.

you probably won’t ever read this but I promise to you and to myself that when the time is right, I’ll be with you, you’re everything I’ve ever wanted and more, I don’t know why I feel this way about you, but I think I love you.

Do you ever think about how we used to be lol?You literally knew I liked you and went out with her but when I ask you literally deny it when she already told me everything?

I should've known it was going to be the last time.
You changed towards me but I still don't know why.

I want to txt you and say "hey" I want to talk to you again but part of me says no it's for the best.

I understand you can't help your feelings but... do you ever regret it? cuz now i hate your girlfriend and things will never be normal

I wish you appreciated me and didn’t take advantage of how much I liked you. You’re a piece of shit and wasted 5 months of my life worrying about you.

I really did love what i thought i had but when you showed me who you really were i didnt love it anymore

you were not my first love, instead the love that hurt the most. i know you think of me and feel nothing. The world doesn't revolve around you anymore. Now when I think of you, I feel nothing too.

it’s been five months since we split apart and why do i still think of you everyday? you said you wouldn’t leave. and you did. why did you have to hurt me so bad? come back already please.

i miss you. and i love you. you always made me smile brian you really did. i loved you even while i was talking to someone else and i realized my feelings for you but now ur dating my friend... and she posts ab you on her spam and it hurts me seeing you w her but im glad ur happy.

I miss how we would go to sleep early just so it could be the next day when you came over. I miss how much I was loved by you. I love you so damn much and I’m afraid I will always love you while you are already moving on.

I miss how we would go to sleep early just so it could be the next day when you came over. I miss when you loved me so much. I love you so damn much and I’m afraid I always will while you are moving on.

you are the only person i’ve cared this much about. you have all of me right now, please don’t hurt me.

Why am I still thinking about you. It hurts to see how happy you are even after you hurt me. Why can’t I be happy for once and not faking it but genuinely happy.