Unsent Messages

we got so close and we drifted u promised a lot of things that ik you’ll never return and u are the reason why i cant see myself with anyone else unless it’s u. u hurt me to an extent where i questioned myself everyday in mirror. i used to pass by ur street, i always go down ur grandmas, i go to the place where we met in hopes that one day i might bump into again. and if i do ig it’s fate but u always said we were soulmates and we could run away and conquer the world together, but i’m sure u say that to all ur hoes don’t u. i miss the old u. the hero who rlly swept me off my feet. u truly were unexpected and i wouldn’t trade a second we spent together for anything else. u taught me to focus on myself and showed me what it’s like to be loved by someone, but if u rlly were in love w me then why did u leave. u left. with no context u left me wondering whatever i did wrong. i trusted u when i trust no one. and when i look at u my stomach drops and my stomach fills w butterflies as if it were the night we met all over again. when i said no to dancing with you. when u liked her to get to know me. when u watched me leave and didn’t run after me. when i had never had a pop tart and u bought me one, everytime i see one i think of u. and i wanna know why u left and why u hurt me last summer. the things u said when u we’re drunk that i never called u out on cuz i knew that u would leave if i told u. but why did u? u hurt me more then anyone’s hurt me before. but i always think of u in the back of my mind in situations sometimes in my dreams or when i hear a blink 182 song and cigarette daydreams, when i go to the cliffs ur always there in the back of my mind rent free. and i know u don’t feel the same and it’s my stupid self for thinking that u actaully ever fell for me but. i will always be there for u like u once said. and i hope u had a great summer and i had a bday present for u but maybe “when we’re older” i’ll be able to laugh and be in my arms once again.