Hi Ashton! Imishusm, Thank you for always supporting me. I promise, when I become a famous singer-writter someday, you'll always be one of the VIPs. ily

i haven't told anyone this, but it weighs on me still to this day. i lied to you. i feel so bad about this and you don't even know i lied. i said "i love you" back to you, but i didn't. i knew i didn't. i thought i was hurting you when you said it to me and i wasn't saying it back, but now it's just hurting me.

I am finally okay with us just being friends, but deep down inside I wish that we will end up together in the future

You taught me that I can’t put all of my love into one person. That I have to keep some for my self just in case they leave.

your fav color is green so obviously i did that. i miss how we used to be. i know you only see me as someone you feel like you need to watch over and protect, i’m sorry if i burden you with that. you’ve said you found the one. i hope you tell her before she gets hurt or confused. don’t let her go, i want u to be happy even if it’s w someone else. i miss u, but i think it’s time to let u go. tell her how u feel, life is too short. i love you, loser.

with love,
s.l.

You’re just a dumb crush that won’t go away. I know you’ll never care about me or even make an attempt to look my way, but you’re nice to dream about. Take care, Ashton.

Why couldnt you just realise how i felt. Ive given up on u bc ur such a dick now, youve changed. And not for good. Fuck you

I hate you so fucking much. You hurt me so badly and you don't even realize. I trusted you and you wouldn't take no for an answer. I wish you were dead.

I’m so sorry for not being able to help you. I tried I did and I’m still trying. I hope in the end I’m able to save you when you couldn’t save yourself. It sounds selfish but you can’t leave this earth not yet it’s not your time and if it’s your time that means it’s my time too because I can’t walk this earth without you.

I really hope you never see this but I really like you and don’t know why but you live so far away and you’re talking to some girl so it doesn’t matter how I feel anyways

it was me and you against the world, what happened? ig i'll just continue loving you from a distance.

Please don’t ever leave me, I can’t live without you and I barely did before you. I love you. Don’t hurt me like the rest.

I loved you, and bits of me still do. And for the months we talked, I never told you I loved you. And I didn’t because there was no chance of us actually being together. And I’m sorry, that it was like I lead you on. But we couldn’t be together and i found something to fill in the voids I wish you filled. We went so well together, and the way you talked to me and the way you’d tell me I’m perfect, and the way we blended just perfectly was insane, how we could be loving and joking all at once. I was happy. I was the happiest I ever was, and I wish we could have been together and you didn’t live so far. Because who I’m with now, I’m happy but he isn’t the same as you and I. When I was with you I didn’t cry I wasn’t worried I wasn’t anything negative and i all I felt was positivity. With my new person, I love him, but like I said he’s not you. He’s not completely perfect and compassionate like you. And I miss you and I miss what I once called us. And I hated the fact I couldn’t say I love you because I feared you felt the same, and I knew you did but you never told me either. But I fell in love with who you were and your personality, your cute face, your voice, and just you for being you and caring for me. And I’m sorry, for leaving you so unexpected for him. With no warning. Just a text. Saying I found someone else. It hurt you. And I can never forgive myself. But victor, I really did love you. And I still love the thought of you. And I’m sorry. For this all. (Also I made this red because it’s your favorite color, same as mine:). )

I love you so much. You have no idea how much you mean to me. I’m so happy I get to call you mine. And I’m so in love with you, and I want to tell you why. The moment we met, I thought you were just adorable and shy. And that’s one thing I fell in love with. But there’s so many more. I fell in love with your voice and the way you talk. I fell in love with how much you cared for me from the start. How I can trust you, how I can talk to you. I fell in love with your cute ass face, with your cute nose, lips, pretty deep browns eyes, perfect teeth, and holy shit your fucking smile drives me insane. I fell in love with the way you look at me and caress my face while calling me beautiful. I fell in love with the way you can be completely yourself around me. I remember one time we hung out when we were only one month in our relationship, you bought me a redbull and I know it may not seem like a lot, but it’s the fact you knew it was my favorite drink and you remembered my favorite flavor. I also just fell in love with the way that you walk and the way your lanky and skinny, the way you lay on me and let me baby you, (that’s my favorite!!)and the way you make me feel safe and comforted around you always, but I fell in love with just you in general, Ashton. And I love you so much and I want to say that I’m sorry for what other girls have done to you in your past relationships and fucked up your way of trust etcetera. And those girls lost a lot. They lost the most considerate, perfect, loving human being ever. But I’m glad they lost you, so I can treat you so fucking good, and make you feel loved like never before how you make me feel loved. You mean the world to me. And although things may be hard right now, I’m never going to leave your side. I’m here with you forever and always like we both say. I’m so excited to spend my life with you, and the day we start our own little family. I love you. And I can’t wait to wrap myself in your arms again and tell you I love you. You’re my perfect person and I’m so glad you’re in my life. I wanted to thank you. For caring and loving me and just for being you, but also for saving me. And making me happy. I couldn’t live without you and before I barely was, and you saved me. And I will always be great full of you and that. I love you and I miss you. Please though, don’t leave me when I’m most vulnerable like all the rest. I cant afford to lose you. And I promise I’m never going to hurt you. I love you. So much.

I think I'm in love with you, I hate it, because you said it would never work out the first time. but the good thing is I'm slowly starting to lose feelings for you. I'm selfish for not wanting you to be with anyone else in a romantic way. To you, I'm nothing more than a best friend. Which is okay but I wish I was more. I wish We were more.

I loved you so much but I never realized that the love for you, while it was real, was toxic and now I don’t know what love is supposed to feel like and now it’s like I can’t feel the same about anyone else...

its been almost 6 years and every fucking day i wake up and wish things could have been different. i miss you

I'm sincerely sorry it ended the way it did. I was awful and this time around was only holding onto you bc you were the only thing familiar. when you left though, everything felt so much more familiar, even the idea of being with you feels so alien. thank you for the two terribly confusing years, I know who I am and I know my worth thanks to you. although I no longer love you, I loved you dearly.

I miss you everyday, and everyday it gets harder and harder to remember what it was like to hold you and love you. I only wish you the best in life and I hope you never have to feel as broken as I felt when you were ripped away from me. Maybe one day you and I will meet again and I can love you all the same...

it’s 3:13 am and you just texted me because i came to your mind. but i guess that’s normal for “just friends”....right?

Hey. I don’t think I’ve ever fallen as quick as I fell for you. You became the light to my day and made me feel better and on day you decided to leave me and I was heartbroken because I thought we could’ve lasted forever. You blamed distance but I know you weren’t doing well yourself. I still message u to check up on you but you don’t seem to care. It makes me hurt even more but there’s still some part of me that doesn’t want to let you go

you made me sad for awhile & it felt as if i’d literally never get over you. it sucked. thinking about you 24/7 knowing you did not think twice. i miss u sometimes but it’s okay bc im getting over you :) haha loser :p

I know I’ll never be good enough for you . The distance will forever fucking hurt me. I’m sorry I couldn’t change for you

I've really liked you for a long, long time. If I ever ask you to be my boyfriend, I'll show you this.

I hate how bad you destroyed me, but what i hate more is that I'm still waiting for a text years later.

i’ve never met someone like you. you’ve stood by my side through all of it and understood it the best you could. i will be forever grateful for you.

i need to text you and talk to you but i cant. I cant come back until its real but what if youve moved on by then? How am I ever going to sleep at night without you reading to me?

My heart always beats a million miles per hour whenever I seemly think about you, when I think about us

Honestly, it gets that bad I feel as if I’ll have a stroke

I guess you make me anxious or excited, you make me feel something ether way

Maybe in another reality, I might have told you how I liked you. As it is, we've both gone our separate ways..

I’m in such a sooky mood for you as I am every other day but I’d never say that

Okay I’m going for a shower enough of talking to perhaps strangers

i know we have only met once. but it just felt different. i can't stop thinking about it. Just something about the way you looked at me and the eye contact we made. it was the first time we met, yet it felt like i've known you forever.

you broke me in ways i didn’t even know were possible. you were my first love and i loved you with all of me. i ran back to you no matter how bad you hurt me because you owned my heart. when i finally was getting over you and all you did to me, you took advantage of my soft spot for you. but that was the last time. i will never let you in and let you hurt me again. i’m healing and i’m learning to love again. i don’t miss you anymore and it feels good. even though you are the cause of all my problems i’m still thankful for all of it. without you i would’ve never gotten where am i now.

It’s over and we both know that it was destined to fail from the start. I love you but we need to move on. You need to let me go and I can’t continue to hurt you anymore.

I still have your socks because I'm hoping I can give them back someday. I'm sorry I wasn't as good to you as I could've been.

i feels that we’ve known eachother in another life, but not like this. you hurt me, but i still love you even though i shouldn’t. it’s better this way. i’m getting better, just as i always thought i wouldn’t. i never needed you, and i think that’s the lesson you taught me.

i still love you but your hurt me in an unforgivable way but i’ll always forgive you. just please come back

you told me you would never leave and even though i was terrified i trusted you. look where we are now.

you said you wanted to be with me forever. you wanted to marry me you wanted to have kids with me you loved me. and now its over everything we went through and talked about is over. were nothing but strangers now. all that for nothing.

Neither of us is happy anymore. But neither of us want to leave. So we keep breaking eachother calling it love.

I know people tell me we wouldn't work together. But something keeps telling me its going to be us in the end. I want it to be us.

i miss you..more than you could ever imagine. i wish i could tell you how i feel without messing it up. i wish you could feel the same way. but since this isn’t getting sent directly to you i can try to describe it. it’s like a warm feeling, safe. it makes me look forward to waking up in the morning. it makes me want to live. you saved me. and when i was going back into that dark place you came back into my life an helped me. even tho you don’t realize it. you’ve helped me through almost everything. i think about you. constantly. sometimes i think about what it would be like if i had fought for you to stay but i didn’t know if that’s what you wanted. i hope you know that if we ever do end up together again i don’t want to be your first priority and i swear i’ll never hurt you or cheat. i’m not like the others. and your first priority should always be yourself. then whatever you want to be. you hurt me. more than anyone ever has. an you know the pains i’ve been through. but out of all them that one simple sentence hurt me the most. but that’s ok. as long as it made you happy. i understand you said you aren’t ready for a relationship and i respect that. i’m not tryna change your mind. i’m just tryna speak mind. i don’t know why but i feel this strong connection with you. i can’t leave you alone. i can’t imagine a life without you. thank you so much. for everything. and this prolly water hella your time so i’m sorry i just hope you are interested enough to listen now bc this isn’t all i have
to say

My heart still feels heavy every time I think of you, I wished things could’ve gone different if only than you would still be right here beside me. Thank you for the blissful memories, I’ll love you always.

you will always be the person who brought me genuine happiness and made me pain go away instantly when i saw you and even though you broke up with me you are still the best guy ive ever had and id take you back in a second even though you dont want me anymore

my heart still beats quick when i hear your name in the halls. even tho u moved, everyone still remembers

You most likely will never see this. And if you do. Great that’s fun. I want you to know what you did to me hurts like hell. You betrayed me. You cheated on me. And I’m staying with you and I shouldn’t. But I can’t help it because I’ve became completely dependent on you. It’s like I can’t fucking breathe air without you or wake up in the fucking morning. I wish I could say fuck you and leave you. But I love you and I wish I didn’t. Out of all people I never would have thought you would hurt me. Throughout our whole relationship it was always you worried about me cheating. And I would never and I thought you would never. And I wish I could leave but I can’t. I love you. And I’m staying because I need you and what you did is unforgivable but I can’t lose you. Even tho you hurt me. I still want you to hold me. I still wish I could see you and just sit together in each others arms. I wish I didn’t. But I do. And I love you. And I don’t want to but I can’t not love you. You are still perfect to me and i don’t know how either ashton. But I just believe that. And I’m sorry. That I still love you. I know you want me to. But I don’t. And I’m sorry. But I still love you and I’m not leaving. Even though I should.

I believe our story isn't over yet. We will find each other again soon my love. I hope we can learn to forgive, forget and trust.

hey sil. ur honestly great. ur stupid funny. also for christmas can u pls buy me my wallet since i lost mine:( // also, good job(:

i love you and you make me so happy whenever we’re together. but i’m scared that i might be in love with you

i miss u, i wish i could c u, i wanna hang out with u, i just want to be with u. can u just ride ur bike to my house so all that can happen?