Unsent messages to AIDEN

I wish we could be more than buddies, but the possibility of ruining the friendship we have scares me shitless

i had a crush on you for two years, and the only words we exchanged were two in science class. fitting, but saddening. i still sit in the classroom unnoticed and not spoken to by anyone, finally over you. good luck in life

I’m sorry that I wasn’t enough, and a part of me wishes that you’d come back but I know you won’t. I gave you all my time, energy, and effort to the point where you left me dry and I’m sorry I wasn’t for you. I miss you. come back.

your favorite color is black. u would rather it be cold then hot. you prefer puppys over kittens, just like i prefer ur kisses then his.

I day dream about wearing your sweater that is this color but you don’t even know name
-wallow sweatshirt girl

Puede que llegues a ver esto, o puede que no.
Aveces me arrepiento de la forma en que te dejé ir, fuí muy idiota y sé mí error, lamento mucho haberte hecho pasar por muchas malas cosas por mí culpa, te amé con casi todo mí ser, pero no era digno para ti estar con un monstruo como yo.

i loved aiden so much and still do. he loved me so much and was my everything. since the day we met i knew the vibe was real until 8 years later he got a girlfriend and ditched me out of the blue. then 4 months later, this year he apologized. i was so happy to see the words you were typing so i went with it and now we talk. you still don't say "i love you anymore ". you hate so many things and im the only one who knows

Why would you do it. You left me when i needed you the most and it hurt like a bitch. I cried about you for weeks and I don't even know why. I opened up to you and told you things nobody knew about me then you used that against me. I'm glad you moved.

I love you, you love her. It’s ok, I’ll be here if she breaks you, but you don’t need to love me. Just love my friendship.

i promised myself i wouldnt hurt you again. you deserve better. please find someone so i know youre happy.

What did I ever do? Why did you start to hate my faults? What made you decide not to walk me home when you saw me cry? Why did you not even comfort me but instead stare at me then walk away? You messed me up for everyone else and I still can't let others in.

I miss you but it seems like you’ll never come back to me. I wanna hear your voice so maybe I can hear it soon.

now we’re like strangers. But you showed me so much . and made me the better person I am today, But I kinda hate you. because when I try to talk to someone new I always think the worst. you cheated and lied to me so much. but thank you . Now I will never find a lover ?

You’re personality is something else and I hate it but you had my heart since the beginning, I wish you could know how much you affected my daily life and so much more.

you're always on my mind... I think I'm falling in love with you... again.
I feel so empty when you aren't talking to me.. I overthink so much.. it just hurts.

Never before have I loved one like you. You have shown me what it means to be cared for and appreciated. I owe you the world

words can't describe how much i love you. Thankyou for teaching me what real love is i have never felt this way abt someone before i will always love you no matter what. i really do have hope for our relationship. you are my everything and i'd be devastated to lose you my head hurts even thinking about not having you in my life you make me so happy everytime i talk to you i can't stop smiling i can never get enough of you i love you so much always and forever.

I remember the first time I knew I liked you. It was as if when I first realized, everything about you became perfect. You were perfect to me and being around you made me the happiest. Then as time passed by, I realized I loved you. It's crazy because we were so young, what did I know about love? You made me feel like my life was perfect. It makes me sad to say I never made you mine because I was too scared to tell you. But I hope you know how much you meant to me. If only I could back into time and just look into your eyes one last time. Have a conversation with you one last time. Be in your presence one last time. You moved on without me and found new friends and I'm so happy for you because you look like you're having the time of your life. I just hope I gave you an idea what it's like to be a good friend. You're always going to be my first love, even if you didn't love me back.

im sorry it turned out that way we were pretty good friends but yk we were drifting and i have a lot to say but i hate the person you are now fuck you

I wonder if you’ll think of me when you leave. I know I sure as hell will, maybe I do love you. Maybe one day you’ll love me, too.

I still think of you from time to time. How I thought of you then. We were soulmates, meant to be with each other until the world ends. But you didnt feel the same. I will probably always love you.

when we became friends i never could have anticipated just how much you would change my life. you have saved me so many times and i thank you so much for it. i love you so much and i promise, we're going to make it. -your best friend

I’m glad you showed your true colors because that took off the rose tinted glasses I was looking at you through

I thought we were going to get married. I guess we'll never get to see the mountain and forest that was waiting for us...

I know you have a new girlfriend now. I wish I treated you better. I miss you a lot and I will always love you, but I hope she makes you happy :’)

words cant describe how in love with you i am. i have never felt so at home with anyone, ur my other half

I wish you could see how much everyone cares about you right now. I know you are going through hard times, but everyone loves you so much and wants you to be ok again. I wish I could fix all your problems and make you happy again.

I’m sorry that my anxiety makes it so hard for me to believe that you actually love me. I’m trying. I really am.

ik everything was my fault but fuck i miss you. and right now you could care less i feel like or maybe you do care but you make it seem like you dont and in the beginning it killed me. broke me in ways i never knew. it was pain for days and days. and you came back gave a glimpse of what we used to be for a day and then left me again but this time it seems like you hate me worse. 1 word answers. delivered for 2 days. opened. telling me you dont even wanna be friends anymore. i remember every time we fought you came back the pain only lasted for a few hours or maybe a day. but this pain has gone on for 3 weeks now. its gotten better ive fianlly gotten to where i dont cry and i feel like i dont need you anymore. i guess content with you leaving me. i wish more than anything youd come back. i miss your face. your goofy text. your laugh. our little jokes. i miss you. fuck writing this is making me tear up. i miss texting you on every possible app having 5 diffrent convos going. i miss it. i fucked it all up bc ive never really known how to love until i met you. i changed so much for the better for you and i still fucked it up. this sucks more than life. ive been waiting for this day coming up since we were talking the day i got to see you. but that part of you is gone. i turned you cold. i miss you please come back.

Her.

Were her lips like mine?
Did she taste like me?
Did she touch your skin and kiss your cheeks?
Did she look at you how I used to
Not only into your eyes but deeply gazing through?

I wonder if she knew how you liked to be kissed
She probably found out
As your tastebuds mingled and your fingers entangled
The realization probably came about
As all of our memories crash into her abyss as you entertained her awaiting pout

Did she run her fingers through your hair?
How can this be fair?

I know it's not my place to say since things had already ended
But I refuse to leave my broken heart entirely undefended
I thought you cared about my soul and I thought you knew what was best
But yet you let your second best rest her hands upon your chest

You say you still want me but how can that be true
If your rosy lips so willingly pressed against somebody brand new's ?

I hope that my scent overwhelmed you with every breath you took
I hope that her eyes morphed into mine with every gaze and look
I hope that her skin was rough and made you miss my touch
Oh god I hope that you missed me, as much as I did, SO much

Yet, the question still remains..

How can this be fair?
I know that if I did that to you it would be more than you could bear
So foolishly I trusted you with my beaten and broken heart
Little did I know as soon as we ended you had already begun to start..

if i could, i would save you from everything bad in this world. i’m so sorry that i pretended like i didn’t love you. you meant the world to me

fuck you and everything you’ve ever done to cause me pain. you made me lose my bsf and i hate not only you but myself for it.

you were my yellow but i wasn't yours, and thats okay, i hope you find yours soon i love you so much peanut.

it's been 7 years since we last hung out, I'm only now realising I loved you, I miss you. You were my best friends and now I don't even know you...

fuck you for breaking my heart. you ruined love for me, and i’ll never be the same after you. all you had to do was love me back, you know that right? i haven’t dated anyone since because i physically will not let myself. i’ve built a wall and shut people out and hurt people that didn’t deserve it all because you couldn’t love me back. all you had to do was love me back and it would’ve saved my life. what was so fucking wrong with me that made me unlovable? i gave you everything i had, yet when it got tough you dipped. then came back and tried to hu with my best friend. you don’t want to be friends with her; you want to use her. i’m not the same person anymore, and i think you know that. don’t hit me up. my life is no longer your business.

I’m still waiting for you, part of me still loves you. I’m just waiting for you to ask. I know it won’t happen

How could you never notice how much I adored you even after you rejected me. My best friend hated me because I liked you and I backed up so she could be with you. How did you never notice?

thank you for the almost five months you have to be with me but i kept a promise thats about to end today

You’ll never know how much I liked you and how much pain you caused me thinking I wasn’t good enough.

I am falling so hardly in love with you but i know you will never feel the same. We say I LOVE YOU every single night. i say it because i truly mean it but i know you say it because we are friends. if i had a chance with you i would take it straight away. i love you to the fucking moon and back please choose me over her, i never want to lose you or the memories we have made. i had to make an album of pictures of u and me so i could delete it when you started dating her cause i knew you will forget about me and if u dont im sure she'll make you unfriend me all together.

I wish you knew how much I miss you. Seeing you at school everyday kills me. I want to be able to shower you with kisses and hold you tight. Every night I think about texting you and seeing how you are going but I know that’s not my place anymore.

i don't know if you love me how i love you and i would never ask, but i love you. i think you are the love of my life.

i don't know if you love me how i love you and i would never ask, but i love you. i think you are the love of my life.

i don’t know if you love me how i love you and i would never ask but, i love you. you are the love of my life.

i don’t know if you love me how i love you and i would never ask but, i love you. you are the love of my life.

i’m sorry for hurting you , i’ve tried to hate you but i can’t i still think ab you here and then but ik we would never work out i let you go a while back thank you for all the memories but there wasn’t a point in holding on to you when u were no longer what i wanted because ik that your someone’s dream guy

i’m sorry for hurting you , i’ve tried to hate you but i can’t i still think ab you here and then but ik we would never work out i let you go a while back thank you for all the memories but there wasn’t a point in holding on to you when u were no longer what i wanted because ik that your someone’s dream guy

im sorry about how badly I hurt u, u were my first love forever and always I never meant for it to end

i miss how close we were when we were litTle. i miss having those outings together with our families. i miss you.

you’re the one for me. the only one. you make everything better, i feel safe with you, you’re my home and my heart.